waiting to get goin' again, and others, part 4

[MrsBritney]

Alright ladies!
Here is the new thread, I figured that the other one was getting too long - so lets rev it up and start a new one!
How are all of my ladies?
TTC? Amber? Victoria? Mickey? Girlie? Sweet? Roberts? Mysteeq?
Anyone I am missing.. just let me know!

HOpe everyone had a great weekend!!
And Amber - WHERE ARE THOSE WEDDING PHOTOS?! :) hee hee


PEACE

beth

[girliegirl]

Thanks Beth, LOVE the new thread! It was time for a fresh thread and a new start for everyone!! Can't wait to see the bikini photos!!

[AmberinGSO]

Hey girls! Good morning!
Beth- Ok I finally think I've dug up some wedding photo albums. Sorry if there are a million of them. Let me know if that works and if it doesn't I will just forward you the slideshow. Sorry the length is so long and weird. Did you call the doctor? If you did, what did he say? I love the pictures of your dogs. They are so cute! Was that your DH in the last pictures? How was your weekend. I made tacos on Saturday and thought of you!

http://www.kodakgallery.com/ShareLandingSignin.jsp?Uc=vq3av0t.7mgq4vgx&Uy=39nub1&Upost_signin=Slideshow.jsp%3Fmode%3Dfromshare&Ux=0

Girlie- Are you getting a beta today? Let us know how that goes. I'm so excited for you. You have to go to one of those due date calculators and tell us what your EDD is unofficially!

Mysteeq- I hope you are feeling a little bit better and that you had some time to relax this weekend.

Jennifer, TTC, Mickey, Victoria, Amanda? How are you all?

As for me, I've just been busy packing up all my stuff for the big move coming up a week from Friday. I'm so ready to get out of this house! They keep showing it to people and coming over unexpectedly and it is starting to irritate me. I had some very light spotting on the toilet paper last night. I mean very very little and I think it was from having sex. So, now, poor DH, I just don't think I can bring myself to have sex again until after my next doctors appt. I spotted last time after sex too. Oh by the way, since we were talking about cosmetic surgery for a while on here, for anyone who takes a peek at my wedding photos assuming they work, I've been wanting a nose job like nobody's business for years!
Well, got people coming to look at the house in a minute. I better get dressed (or not)
have a great day ladies!

[AmberinGSO]

PS you have to click view photos without signing in to look at the pictures. Not that you guys can't figure it out, but for those less computer savvy like me!

[AmberinGSO]

Ok I swear last thing! DH and I got married in a chapel in Tennessee and we had only seen pictures, never been there and obviously never met the preacher. We met him the day before the wedding...old dude had a glass eye! It was so funny. (Not that there's anything wrong with that, but come on how many people can say they've been married by a guy with a glass eye) DH told me before the wedding if I get too emotional or start crying just look over at glass eye man...haha anyway just had to share!

[MrsBritney]

Amber - OH MY GOD, I can't stop laughing at the comment your DH made about the man with the glass eye!! HAHAHAHAAHAH!!
That is just CRAZY.. and yea, who really CAN say that they have been married by the man with a glass eye. that is freakin AWESOME. I would have been trying my BEST to not laugh about it during the ceremony...
Our ceremony was pretty laid back.. took about 15 minutes.. and our unity candle lighting song was "Grow old with you" by Adam Sandler, from the WEdding Singer. Hee hee.
Yes, that is my DH, I will try and do another slideshow for you guys so that you can see some more pics of us.. It is fun to share pics!
I will check out your pics when I get home, amber. I can't access data storage sites from my work..
Anyhow.. I haven't called the doc.. they dont open till 9.. so I will try and remember to call then.. I totally forgot that I was even supposed to call the doc today.. because I know I o'd.. you know?
Speaking of fertility problems (ok, so we werent but I Want to)..
I found out from my mom yesterday that SHE had the same incredibly long cycles that I do! The doc put her on clomid and 28 days later she was pregnant with my sister... isn't that weird?
I told her thanks for the fertility problems :)

Girlie - oh yea! Your beta!! What time are you goin back in? KEep us posted.

YAY for Mondays. I am having cramps today... I am figuring they are gas... I ate a BIG steak yesterday and also pork n beans.. mmm.. yummy fathers day food.. So I think my intestines are none too happy..
*sigh* What is a girl to do.. When I get home at 11:45 this morning, I will be taking some metamucil!!! Anyone have any other home remedies for this?!

beth

[TTCinNC]

Good Morning, Everyone.

Mysteeq - I'm sorry to meet you under such sad circumstances, but I'm glad you have found your way here. It will be great support while getting through coping with your loss. I lost my angel at 6 weeks. After trying for 18 months I was devastated, but lots of crying, praying, and leaning on these wonderful women here, the process of healing has begun. I had a natural m/c and got AF 28 days later right on time. I didn't take any time off from trying, but at the same time, I haven't been obsessing over it. I did POAS this morning, CD24 of 29 and got BFN, but I'm okay with it. Well, welcome to the thread and I hope you find all the strength and inspiration you need to mourn and then try again.

Personally, I have had a terrible morning. Great weekend, but terrible morning. My bank has been screwing around with my HELOC loan since february. And almost every month has drafted my account twice for payment! And the thing that just really sent me over the top - they had the nerve to tell me it would be $5 for each transaction they had to investigate. IF (which of course it is) it was a bank error that would be refunded! HELLO! what about my $600 that needs to be in my account?? Sorry to vent, but ARGHHHH! Fine, if they really want to get into it with a hormonally charged, pre-mentrual woman, who is one her very last nerve, then fine!

So, how is everyone else? I can't wait to get away this weekend! DH and I have a wedding to attend in the mountains, Blowing Rock. We figured if we were going all that way we would rent a cottage for an extended weekend. Boy, I need the break.

Girlie - I know you probably settling down, but just a few more encouraging words. #'s don't say a lot, as long as they are doubling you're good. Also, my beta was 54 on CD14. I know it isn't easy to not obsess and worry, but I am definitely praying for God's peace for you on your new journey to motherhood!

I need to call the bank again, so I need to run. But I'm thinking of you all! Praying especially hard for our mommies!

How are you doing Beth, Sweet, Mickey, Becky? - Hello there!!!

[MrsBritney]

WEll ladies - I called the doc.
:) I knew you would be proud of me.
Unfortunately, she can't get me in till July 11th. I was ok with that. So, I will be onto my next cycle by the time my appt comes around. I really like my doc, and it is worth it to stick with her.

So, I am doing great. next cycle should start on Sunday or so.. so I am looking forward to using my new tampons.. :) I love the big red flower on the box.. it is so pretty! And then starting aNEW.

TTC- I can't believe the people at the bank are acting like that. why should they charge someone a fee for correctin THEIR own mistake! That is ridiculous. So stupid. THey better get that money back to you AS AP! That is all I know.
Sounds like you really do need the rest.. I am glad you are getting away for a bit. I believe that DH And I are planning on a resort outing in AUgust... for an anniversary (our 3rd)/family visit.. so it should be nice and relaxing.
CD24 eh? BFN... dont worry.. we will all get ours.. :)

HUGS

beth

[girliegirl]

Amber, Love the wedding photos! You look so pretty and I love the dress and the bridesmaids dresses! Don't worry about the spotting, I am sure it was from the sex. just tell dh to take it easy! I know the cervix is touchy during pg. That was funny about the guy with the glass eye!! The guy that married us in vegas at the little white wedding chapel was a dork and the photographer looked like ricky lake and was drunk!! I was laughing so hard through the whole photo thing!


TTc, don't you love banks are always right until proven wrong and then they are never responsible. tell them you are charging them $100 for an "inconveinence" fee.

[girliegirl]

Beth, glad you got into the dr. Who knows by the time of that apt you may have a bfp.
Also ttc, you are testing 4 days early that may be too soon to rule it out.

I went in for the beta, i can pick up the results at 4:15. I am hoping to see a good #. The nurse said the 38 was fine for 11 or 12 dpo. so we will see what this one is. i still don't feel much at all so i am not too optimistic. still no sore bb's, barely nauceous, not too tired, a teeny bit of cramping. thats it. Dh is so excited, he thinks this is it. I really hope so. we both kind of agreed this would be it for us if this baby doesn't stick. So say a little prayer for good results at 4:15.

[MrsBritney]

GOOD LUCK TO YOU GIRLIE!!
I will be praying for you and your bean... hoping that everything is ok..
hoping that you wont get to indulge in a tummy tuck any time soon! :P
Keep us posted...

As for me.. yea, I "could" essentially have a bfp by them.. but I strongly doubti t.. but at leasT I have the ball rolling now.. you know what I mean? That is always nice to know that the appt is there..

oh crap, I gotta pee! Drank way too much water this morning... have had to hit the restroom like 5 times already!

[sweetbabydreams]

Hi Everyone!

I'm so excited, I finally got around to doing the chart thingy on Fertility Friend, and it seems pretty sure that I O'd a few days ago! Who knew?? I didn't have any of my usual O symptoms, but I'm sure this cycle is bound to be a little strange. Can you guys tell me if this ticker works? And how do you get it to come up automatically, without cutting and pasting every time?

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ticker/1420f1/ttc.png

I'll post more later, for now I just want to see if this is working right. Thanks!

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, your ticker looks great! How was your event at the Tv station? What do you do for the tv station. is it a local station, or like mtv or something?

Well everyone I got my beta back. 199. Do you think its twins?? The normal range for 15 dpo is 17 to 147. So anyways the nurse said that it was very good and i do not have to repeat it and i have an u/s scheduled for july 7th. so I feel a better, still would like some symptoms, but she said some women just don't get them. I never had a ton of symptoms with the other kids, but it would just be some reassurance after the m/c. so that is the update!

[girliegirl]

Beth, maybe your upset stomach and all that peeing means something??

Also you know that screwed up chart on my lab report that said my hcg should be 0-50 1-2 wks post lmp? well I found that exact same chart on line and it ws suppossed to be dpo. I told the guy at the lab today that it was messed up and they needed to fix it. I told him they caused me alot of unneccesary anxiety!

[girliegirl]

Hey I found something new to obsess about. progesterone. on day 7 dpo my progesterone was 13.5. they said that was good. now that I am pg it seems it should be higher.I asked the nurse and she said it was fine, but I keep seeing where people were put on prog. supp if it was below 20. does anyone know anything about this?

[AmberinGSO]

Hi girls!

Beth- Your ceremony sounds awesome. That song is really cute. Glad you got in with the doctor even if it is later. That is ok though because then you will be into another cycle and you may have more to tell her. Also, maybe you will switch that over to a prenatal appt. by then!!

TTC- How are your head aches doing? Are they any better. As for the BFN, it could still be too early! Don’t give up hope yet. I tested negative on 11dpo and got a bfp on 17dpo. That stuff with your bank is bull. I would really lay into them over that. We just switched to a new bank and it’s way better than my old one. I got fed up with the old one. The weekend getaway sounds awesome and I always love to go to weddings. It reminds me of my wedding and makes me remember how lucky I am to have DH!

Jennifer- I really love fertility friend too. It really helped me make sense of my cycle in most months. I’m not sure how to get the ticker to show up as the picture, but if you ask on the charters thread I bet they can tell you fast. If you just want the link to your chart or ticker in your signature and not the actual ticker you can go under control panel at the top I think it might be labeled cp and on the right click edit signature. I hope that helps.

Girlie- Great news about the hcg levels! How exciting! I knew you would be just fine. They really should change the sheet though. I’m sure you aren’t the first to be scared by that. I’m no twin expert, but I think the women who have twins on my thread had ridiculous numbers that early like 1000, but then again there were some pregnancies on my thread that turned out to be singleton with high numbers too. So, who knows? Do you want twins? I think it would be fun, but since this is the first I’m thankful for just the one bean in there. Sorry I don’t know anything about progesterone, but I would think that if the nurse isn’t concerned then you are probably all right. I saw your thread about it though and I’m sure you will get tons of helpful responses. When are you due? I’m dying to know how close we are!

Nothing much new here. I have a job interview on Thursday morning so I’m looking forward to that! Hope you guys had a good day!

[sweetbabydreams]

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/index.php

Try this one instead -- it should show the actual chart and not just the ticker. I'm just happy to see that maybe I did O, which means AF should come next week, which means I can get back on the crazy train soon.

Girlie - your beta sounds great! Don't stress yet about twins, I think it's way too early to tell that from the hcg numbers. As for progesterone, I don't know if 13.5 is too low, but if you're worried, I'm sure that your OB or your RE could prescribe you some pills or suppositories. Anyone would understand that you're worried, especially because of what you've gone through. And the extra prog. can't hurt!

Amber - your wedding photos are gorgeous! What a sweet couple you are. You will make beautiful parents.

MrsBritney - hmm, peeing a lot, stomach problems, could it be ...? You could probably test in a few days, right? But no matter what, it's a good thing to have a doctor's appt. lined up, so you know you're being proactive. And maybe you won't need it. Thanks for starting the new thread.

My event went fine, but it was very exhausting. And it made me sad, because if I were still pg, I would be at the end of the 1st trimester -- I had marked this weekend in my mind that way. I hate those relentless reminders.

[lilliput]

Gosh, I can tell I've missed a lot!! A whole new thread! And a BFP! Holy mackerel! Congrats Girlie!! That is very exciting! I don't know a whole lot about prog levels - I never had mine tested.

Jennifer - I loved FF too. It was a great help for me.

Beth - glad to see you o'ed! And that you finally called your doc! If this isn't the cycle for you (hey, you never know), I hope that the doc is able to regulate your cycle for you and get you back on track, especially with the info about your mom...

Mysteeq - I posted to you on the other thread, but just wanted to let you know that I'm glad you found your way here, even though the circumstances suck. These ladies are the best - through thick and thin on this rollercoaster of TTC.

I haven't had the chance to read everyone's posts from the old thread, or to look at all those pictures, but I really wanted to check in and let you know I'm still around.... I'll try to catch up tomorrow and read all that I've missed! I feel like such a dork for being gone for just a few days, and not having a remote clue as to what is going on! Hugs all around!

[sweetbabydreams]

I put in all the data since I started charting, which was the cycle that I got pg -- but it combined it into one loooooong chart! Does anyone know how to make it into two separate charts? If no one here knows, I guess I'll drop in on the charter's thread.

Lilliput, nice to hear from you. Can you believe we have a BFP here?? It's been very exciting! I'm glad you're doing well -- have you had any more u/s?

[AmberinGSO]

Jennifer- The reason it made it one long chart is because FF automatically switches to a new chart when you tell it your AF began. So if you don't have AF as having started it will assume you are on one cycle. Maybe throw in a fake AF day on the day your cycle began in order for it to separate the two. I hope that helps! Also, the reminders are bummers I still have times I plotted out with my last pregnancy that I still remember and get bummed out about too. I'm glad that you ovulated though and will soon be back on track!

Victoria- I was wondering where you had gotten off to! I figured you were pretty busy with work and all. I am so glad to hear you are doing good though!

[sweetbabydreams]

Amber - Control panel?? Signature? I feel so dorky, I didn't even know about those things. Cool, I can spend tomorrow fooling around with all that, after I wasted my whole workday today on FF. It makes me feel like I'm doing something towards getting pg (silly, I know.) Thanks for your help -- I got the charts right now. I can't wait to enter my info tomorrow morning. (I really am a dork!) Good luck on your job interview! Are you going to tell them you're pg?

Girlie - I work at a local TV station, in the Creative Services dept. So, on-air promotion, station events, that kind of thing. Fun, but stressful sometimes. Like this past weekend. But today I totally kicked back, to make up for it.

[MrsBritney]

Sweet - I can't see your chart.. I saw your ticker. but no chart. IT takes me to the home page.

Hi there everyone!

Girlie!! THOSE NUMBERS LOOK GREAT!! I can't say if I think it is twins or not yet.. but wouldn't that be something? Eh? I am glad you are feeling better about it.. and that the numbers went up just fine.. I was going to tell you earlier that sometimes women dont get a lot of symptoms... I have people I know who never experienced morning sickness.. or the "All day sickness" that I had.. :) hee hee
Yea, I am thinking that my upset stomach was just the steak and beans from yesterday.. and the peeing defintely had to be from the 3 bottles of water I had in the first two hours of work! But I pee a lot anyhow.. I drink a TON of water here in AZ, it is hot!!
I dont think I am pregnant.. but it is ok.. soon I will have my Dr. appt and everythinng will be looking up!!

Lilli!! nice to see you again!! Been a while.. yea, new thread and a BFP.. can you believe it!??!

OK.. I have to go make dinner.. we are having french dip !! YUMMMMMMY!
Ahh.. I love cheese and meat and bread and dippy stuff.. it is all good!

OK.. see you all tomorrow!

beth

[MrsBritney]

Awe - amber, you look beautiful! I am so happy that I finally got to see pics of your wedding.. it looked just lovely!!
How was the reception? Did you drink a lot? How was the weding night? Did you have anything "fun" planned? :) hee hee.'
My DH was too drunk to really do much that night.. but we had some fun on the honey moon.. so.. whatever! It is all good!

I just had my dinner.. french dip.. mmmm.. I am full.. but I want some candy now.. whoppers would be GREAt.. but we dont have any chocolate! What is a girl to do!?!!??!?!?

UPDATE: I Love DH so much.. I told him I needed chocolate.. and what did he do? He drove all of the way to the store and got me some Ben and JErrys Half Baked Ice Cream! My favorite!!
He is so awesome!

[AmberinGSO]

Good morning ladies!

Jennifer- I know what you mean about fertility friend making you feel like you're doing something to get pregnant. I used to obsess over my chart on it. I would plug in pretend temperatures for like the next three days to see if it would tell me I ovulated if my temperature was a certain degree and all kinds of other things. I would compare last cycle to the this one and the one before that! I am sure I wasted many hours! As for the job interview, I will not be telling them I am pregnant. I will ask a lot of questions about what I would be doing exactly and what chemicals will actually be involved and will asess if it is risky to the pregnancy. In most cases it is not. I don't think anyone will hire me if they find out I am pregnant! I'm only 10w2d with my first so I am assuming that I won't be noticably pregnant for like 10 more weeks??? NOt really sure.

Beth- Thanks for the compliments on my pictures. I'm glad I finally took the initiative to get them up there. We had a small reception for distant relatives and stuff at the chapel and then after that all our friends and close family went back to the huge cabin we rented and we had ourselves a good ol' fashioned keg party and yes I got EXTREMELY intoxicated. The wedding night we did actually manage somehow to get together haha, but I don't have too much of a recollection of it. Oops! Oh well, we had fun! Candy? Mmmm! Your DH is so sweet for going to the store for you! I can't wait until my DH gets home from work tonight...

Anyway, guess I'll go scrounge up something for breakfast...

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, your job does sound like fun. I would like a job like that if I wasn't a Realtor. You will probably feel more in control of things doing the FF. Now I can obsess over yours and beths charts!!

Beth, if your temps stay above the line does that mean possible pg? Is dh practicing for pregnant cravings??? what a guy!

Amber are you starting to show at all? do your clothes fit still? When is your interview?

[girliegirl]

Oh Beth, about the chocolate. I love those big bars of dark chocolate that they have at BB&B. I always have 3 or 4 in the fridge for my daily chocolate cravings!! LOVE those!

[sweetbabydreams]

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1420f1

Hey Girlie! Does this link to my chart? I still don't have the hang of this! My job is pretty fun, especially when my boss is out of town, like today.:) :) I'm still trying to figure out how to get the ticker to automatically show up in my signature, and link to the chart. How are you feeling? Any symptoms yet? have you talked to RE about the progesterone?

Mysteeq -- How are you doing? It sounds like you have a good plan with your DH. This thread seems to have a phenomenal percentage of BFP's -- Lilliput, Amber, Girlie all got pg within a few months of their m/c -- so I think we should all take heart from that.

And Beth-- are you next?? I'm going to try to analyze your chart, although I'm such a rookie at it. I feel a new obsession coming on! I've stared at my own for so long, now it's time to stare at someone else's.

More later! (can you tell me boss is out of town??)

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

I saw your chart! Looks good! Its always fun to have something to obsess about!! I did leave a message with the re. yesterday the nurse said anything over 10 was fine and not to worry, but I put a call in to double check! I still feel fine. a little nauceous in the a.m., sensitive nips, thats it. I never had alot of symptoms with the other kids either though. I feel better with my good beta #. now I just wait until july 7th for the u/s!

[AmberinGSO]

Jennifer- Did you try going to the control panel and then edit signature on the left. You should be able to paste the link in there! It is confusing.

Girlie- I don't know if I'm showing or not yet. I'm starting to feel extremely uncomfortable in my jeans. I can get them buttoned, but sitting down in them requires them to be unbuttoned. Since this is my first one when should I start showing? I feel like my waistline is completely gone and I look sorta frumpy. You know what I will just post a pic of my 9w belly and my 10w belly and you tell me if I'm just a tub of lard haha! I'll tell you one thing. I'm starting to get stretch marks on my breasts and I can't believe it!
9 weeks- http://i5.tinypic.com/1531hcx.jpg
10 weeks- http://i6.tinypic.com/1531jjp.jpg

[AmberinGSO]

PS please ignore my stretch marks. I gained a lot of weight my junior year of college. I got it off, but I got some awesome battle scars.

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, since I am self employed, my boss never cares if I decide to blow off work to obsess about charts and 2ww's!!

[girliegirl]

AMber, you look sooo good! So cute! perfect little 10 wk tummy! you look about right for 10 wks i think. Its hard for me to remember, but I know with my kids my tummy got big right away because i tend to gain weight in my stomach anyways. my stomach wasn't that big when i was 10 wks with this last pg, which had me wondering if everything was o.k. can you still sleep on your stomach?

[AmberinGSO]

Girlie- I'm not sure if it is comfortable to sleep on my tummy because I've always been a side sleeper. I haven't tried lying on my tummy. I know that when I lie on my back I can now feel the top of my uterus right above my pubic bone. Atleast I think that is what I'm feeling. I feel huge compared to some of the pics in the belly gallery. Some of the women are like 18 weeks and seem smaller than me. LIke I said a while back though, the women in my family tend to get HUGE in pregnancy whether they eat right or not so I think I might just be a grower. There are days when I get really freaked out and I ask DH have I always been like this or is this a preggo belly and DH swears my stomach was flat before pregnancy...which it was. I'm just really freaked out and feel like I look too big. Atleast I still fit in my jeans, well standing anyway. Thanks for making me feel better! By the way, did you figure out when you are due yet?

[girliegirl]

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[girliegirl]

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[sweetbabydreams]

Amber - I gave it a shot -- edited my signature -- this is a test! Does it come through? Your pics look perfect. Oh my gosh, there's a baby in there, what an awesome thought!

Girlie - You are so lucky not to have a boss. Did you ever read The Devil Wears Prada? I can't wait for the movie to come out -- I swear, I know that woman! She's like all the bad bosses I've had rolled into one. My current boss is so moody, you just never know what to expect with her. I would LOVE to work for myself.

[girliegirl]

I think I just posted a pic! Did i do that right? why is it big instead of the thing you click on?

Well there you have it, the cheesy wedding photo from the little white wedding chapel! complete with the plastic horse!

[AmberinGSO]

Oh wow girlie! You are so pretty and tiny! Is that from your wedding? I like your dress! Also, I love the shoes!! Dh is tall huh? How tall is he? My DH is 6'6"!

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, I loved that book! HAve you read something blue and something borrowed? if not you have to read them they are so good!

[AmberinGSO]

Jennifer- Yea it works perfectly! good job! It took me a while to figure all this stuff out too. I haven't read that book but I really want to read it before I go see the movie. The movie looks funny!

Girlie to get the link instead of the pic you have to copy and paste the one that says link. I think there are two other kinds when you up load. One is html and the other I can't remember what that is...you're so tan!!

[girliegirl]

How hot is my dh?? I love him. he is 6 ft. I am only 5'2"!! I got huge, stomach wise when I was pg. I gained like 40 lbs. I also had big babies, it also runs in my family to get big and have big babies. Don't worry just eat good when you can and you have the rest of your life to get the wieght off or have plastic surgery!! I think I am due feb 26th.

[girliegirl]

That was in oct, and we had tanned at the pool the day we got married. I had not planned on wearing underwear with that dress and then I started af really bad about 1/2 hr before the wedding. can you believe it???

[AmberinGSO]

Girlie- Your dh is very handsome. What a huge height difference! Don't you love it! DH is 10 inches taller than me and after dating a few short guys I adore it! I can wear any height heels I want and never worry about it! 40 pounds is good! I bet you were all belly. No one believes me when I say this, but my mom weighed 100 lbs when she got pregnant with me and she gained 80lbs! I was over 10lbs born and my mom had to have a c-section because she couldn't get me out! My sister was 5 weeks early and weighed 6lbs! I am just terrified to think how big this baby will be...oh man. If I could just keep my weight gain under 50 lbs I will be ecstatic!

[sweetbabydreams]

Girlie -- What a fun couple! You look like you adore each other. And yes, your DH is totally hot. Was that in Vegas?? If you just got married last October, you're still practically newlyweds. How did you meet?

Amber, how did you meet your tall handsome DH? I always love hearing people's love stories!

[AmberinGSO]

Girlie- That sucks about AF. I was lucky with my wedding. AF randomly came five days early so I didn't have it at the wedding. Weird...

Jennifer- DH and I met in college. DH was in a fraternity and I was in a sorority and I was dating one of his fraternity brothers. The guy I was dating was a total jerk and would always get wasted at parties and abandon me and DH would spend the whole night talking to me and we always had the most amazing conversations. All my girlfriends thought it was weird because DH was known for being the tall dark silent type. I had a crush on him, but I didn't think he would ever consider dating me because of his friend. Then his stupid frat brother dumped me and there was a party that night at their fraternity so I went anyway in the smallest outfit I owned just to prove I didn't care and DH was there and we just started talking and he walked me home and we have been together ever since. All our friends say we gag them. He really just completes me as cliche as that sounds.

Girlie- how'd you meet your dh?

[MrsBritney]

Wow! WHAT HAPPENED!!
TWO PAGES of writing and I missed it all...
STUPID JOB.
We are overwhelmed here right now.. and I am starting to think that it isn't goin to be worth staying here just for the severence.. I think I might start job shopping next week and see what I can find.. and see if anyone would hire me and give me the $$ that I want.. and if so.. I might just have to take it. I am feeling just overwhelmed.. does anyone have those feelings too?
Or maybe AF is just on her way, and I am feeling the depression coming on.. I JUST thought about that..
I mean, I have been feeling a bit of weird cramping today.. so maybe I am feeling overwhelmed because of AF's oncoming visit.. Hrm.. guess I could take that into consideration too..

Anyhow.. Sweet, I saw your chart! GOOD JOB on posting it and getting it onto your sigline!

Amber, that is a cute story about how you and DH met and starting dating..
I hate jerk boyfriends.. They are stupid. So are cheating boyfriends.. hate them the most.

Also - we had this huge thing at work today.. and the director said it was the most important thing right now to get finished.. so I am diligently working on it.. and when I go around to explain it.. people arE NOT FREAKING LISTENING TO ME!!!!!! I am getting so irritated. I just want to punch someone.
This is the first time that I have seriously considered leaving this place before I get my severence.. anyone want to try and talk me down?

Nothing much else going on.. I am just trying to get thru the day. The day seems to be going faster and faster and I just dont have the time to finish what I have going on..
I just want to go home, crawl into a hole, and stay there...

Girlie - you are very short! How cute is that.. my DH is 6 ft and I am 5 6.

[sweetbabydreams]

Beth - How long do you have to stay there to get your severance? I don't know your situation. But I do think almost daily about quitting my job, mostly because of my boss. It sucks to be in a job you hate. Normally I would say, get out!, but if it's not long until you can get your severance, then i say grit your teeth and hang in there, that money will come in handy when you get pg!

[MrsBritney]

Ugh.. it is three LONG and grueling months..
And I wont really even be doing my own job.. I will be doin someone else's job! which is VERY frustrating..
I am really going to start looking and see if anything comes up and will give me a significant raise.. and if there is, it would be worth it in the long run to cut out early..
I would be getting about $4000 as my severence... that is AFTER a 33% tax on everything they give me.. of course, that doesn't include the payout for my Paid Time Off.. and I will get that either way..
but I am just wondering what else is out there.. and what kind of money I COULD be making elsewhere.. you know?

I am not really feeling depressed today.. just like I dont want to be here.. is that so wrong?
I love my boss.. but I feel that now that I KNOW we are being let go, I just care a LOT LESS about my job. And I HATE feeling like that.. I want to LIKE being here.. and I just dont know if I can handle another 3 months of this.

beth

[girliegirl]

Beth, sorry you are having a shitty day. I say start looking now for a different job. $4,000 minus 33% isn't worth it, if you find a great job with good pay. I would at least start looking, at least you feel like your moving forward. Hey I know we could all obsess over your job choices when we aren't all obsessing about our charts and pg's!!

Yes I am short. hate it. I always wear heels. always. with everything. even pajamas.and bathing suits. (not really with pajamas and bathing suits!)

AMber, my babies were 8 lbs and my last was 9'2". You can do it! Your body was made to give birth and you will do it.

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, I cwn't believe you boss is like the one in that book! That is so funny! well not funny to you I am sure! Where do you live in LA? My best friend since when I was 4 lives in Manhattan beach. She was just here last week.

[girliegirl]

Anyways How dh and I met. I am a realtor and he is a builder and did this Condo development and I showed one of his condo's. I was dating a short ass hole and he was dating a bossy albino girl so I didn't think too much of it, then I kept having people tell me they had broke up and he was asking about me, so I ended up calling him because I was building a house to sell and had some questions that I needed his expert help in, (really it was an excuse) so we started talking everyday about my house stuff and he wanted me to show him some houses and then on st patricks day I showed him the house we are now living in and I was so nervous because I really liked him and right away he said he wanted the house and I could barely remember how to write an offer and then I said are you going out to drink green beer tonight and he said well I guess i could and i said well you are welcome to meet my friend beth and i out and he said o.k. and he did and the rest is history!!

[girliegirl]

Who else has a fun how we met story?? Beth? This will keep your mind of your job!

[MrsBritney]

Hi there. :)
Ok.. I am going to start the job search tomorrow! How does that sound?
LEts see.. me and DH -
Well, I turned 18 and graduated high school. I went to work at my dads company for the summer on an internship.. making $18 an hour.. pretty nice eh? Anyhow.. I worked with this girl, Lacey. She was really nice and fun and she had this boyfriend, Josh, and she wanted me to meet him.. so, I went over to their place and met him.. and there were pictures on the wall of these other guys.. I was like "oo, who is that guy" and she said " that is corey" ok.. so, Corey wanted to meet me.. so I went over to their place and met Corey.. Corey was in the living room playing video games with the guy whos mom owned their house they were renting.... Greg.
Greg had a mullet, and was drinking a beer and wearing wranglers.. total cowboy.. but I thought Corey was SOOOO cute.
Dated Corey for a while, didn't workout.. I hung out with all of those guys almost on a daily basis for a couple years.
Then I moved an hour north and only saw them off and on..
One day I went to the mall and saw Josh there.. my friends boyfriend, and he was with ...... GREG ... Greg had shaved his head, pierced his ears and was wearing these really cute semi-baggy pants and a nice shirt.. and I was like "OH MY GOD he is SO CUTE!" and he had a goatee! I love facial hair!
Well, we stayed friends for 2 more years and kept hanging out.. until we went to this wedding, one of my oldest friends, aaron, was getting married, and josh and greg were good friends with him.. That night.. I kissed Greg for the first time, and we have been together ever since..
But another little tidbit...
In high school, I dated this guy Casey for 4 years.. he was good friends with this guy named Chris - Chris apparently had a big crush on me.. and I hung out with him quite a bit (as friends ONLY) .. turns out, I met DH BACK THEN! Chris was Gregs STEPBROTHER!!!!
ISn't that crazy?
So.. it was meant to be!

Anyhow.. it isn't very romantic or anything.. but we definitely go WAY back... :) hee hee

[lilliput]

Girlie - great wedding pic! How have you been? I haven't had a whole lot in the way of symptoms either, and so far as I know, everything is AOK. I did have some nausea from 7 weeks until around 2 or 3 days ago. But nothing that sent me running to the bathroom! BTW, our bathroom still isn't done.....we went over budget with that ridiculous bill, so now DH is finishing it himself, and since he doesn't get home till 7:30 at night, it's been SLOOOOOWWWW-going. I'm kind of useless in that department. The shower works though, which is great, I just have to step all around piles of tools and other crap to get in it....

How did I meet DH? Well, i was under contract to buy a house, was having the inspection done. DH was a carpenter at the time, and was working on a summer camp (unwinterized summer home on the lake) up the road, and had come across a live wire in the wall he was ripping out that wasn't attached to anything. Weird, I know. So, the guy I was buying the house from was an electrician. So Andy (now DH) happened to stop by to ask the electrician if he had any thoughts on this random live wire while I was there having the inspection done. He was also in the process of getting a home inspection business started, so he tagged along for a while, until the inspector finally blew him off (no surprise there). So we ended up going outside and sitting on the lawn for a long chat. Turned out we had both been coming to this town in the summer since we were little kids, and had pretty similar backgrounds. I couldn't believe I'd never met this pretty cute guy in this tiny town of only 700 or so people! It's not like there are that many folks our age around, especially attractive ones!!! So the electrician invited us in for lunch (post-inspection, franks and beans...mmmm). And that was fun, but I had to get back to work. So I left before hand, drafted like ten versions of a note with my phone number to leave on his windshield, finally settled on one, and then got busted putting it on his windshield.....He called a few days later and we went out for dinner....the rest is history! Had a great first date, even though he spent most of the meal talking about his recent trip to China, but he doesn't remember that. Watched the moon rise over the lake, and I denied him a kiss on the first date. First time I'd ever done that (I used to be a little quicker on the physical side, esp. in college), and it paid off for me! We've been together six years.

Beth - I say start hunting for the next job! No need to be miserable for the next few months, especially if there's a chance you'll find something better before hand!

Jennifer - For your ticker, if you want the image part to show up, you have to include the "img" part that appears in the front of the link when you do the cut and paste...don't know if that made any sense....

[lilliput]

Oh, and Amber, almost forgot....cute belly pic!! That looks like a pg pooch to me! BIL asked me two weeks ago if I was showing - I almost decked him! I was barely 8 weeks!! WTF?!

[sweetbabydreams]

All your stories are so romantic! I'm a total romantic, sometimes I think that's why nothing works out for me. I need to be more practical. And maybe more proactive -- like Girlie and Lilliput. I like how you both kinda made the first move -- or at least opened the door for them to make a move. Anyone else? TTCinNC? Gwensmom?

Lilli - I'll try that with the chart. I'm still figuring this FF stuff out.

[MrsBritney]

Oh sweet - I forgot to tell the best part of the story.
DH NEVER would have kissed me first. .EVER. He was SO shy.. and we had been friends for so long.. and the whole time that we were friends he would always ask me if I wanted to have sex with him (to which I would ALWAYS reply, NONONO) and so, at the end of our friends wedding.. we were getting in the car.. and I just looked up at him and gave him a kiss... :) He was VERY surprised and told me it was the best moment of his life.. :) How is THAT for romantic?

OH yea, I am still having these weird crampy feelings - I could have SWORN I was going to start AF today.. my body is so weird to me.. why can't it just be normal! The cramps come and go.. but they feel just like AF cramps.. and I have a bit of back pain too.. normal for when AF is about to arrive.. but I am not feeling at ALL depressed ... so.. *shrug* I dont know what is going on.. I just want this cycle to be over so that I can get to the Dr. and find out the best way to fix me!!!

By the way ladies - I am going to a PASSION party on Friday.. lots of fun "Toys" for sale.. anyone want to join? Appetizers and drinks are free!! and there should be some good toys to play with.. heh heh heh I have never been to a party like this.. but I am DEFINITELY looking forward to it!! THat is for sure! WOO HOOOOOOO!!! FAKE MALE PARTS, HERE I COME!! LITERALLY.. (ok, was that tmi?)

[mysteeq]

Hi Ladies just popping in before i go up town
Amber...I had a very nice wknd with DP we just got out some dvds and pigged out didnt feel like doing much so it was good.Your wedding photos are gorgeous and goodluck at your interview i hope it all goes well.
Beth...Goodluck for your job searching i hope you find a job that your happy with and like.I will be finding me a new job soon aswell.But first i guess i better tell my boss that i'll be leaving.
Jennifer..Im doing and feeling alot better now as each day passes though its still hurting inside its 1 wk ago today that i went in for my u/s and we found out the bad news but i know i have to move forward and start trying again an
Ttc,Lilliput,Gwensmom,Girlie,and to all you ladies thankyou again for helping me get through this...

[Gwensmom]

Hi Ladies - You guys have been so busy. It was fun reading and catching up on everything. Love the love stories :) I'll add mine in a sec. I have been MIA as I have the WORST sinus infection. It really has gotten me good.....and DH just left today for a week, leaving me solo with our FS...and totally sick. I did get some antibiotics today though, so hopefully that will kick this out. Oh my. Not too much else to report on my end, I am about ready to get my FF ticker back up...but I am nervous too. Is that weird? I was so excited to move form FF TTC ticker to the PG tracking ticker... and then when I removed my PG ticker after the M/c I was so devastated, I feel nervous going back to the TTC chart ticker. Do I make sense? Okay, anyhow, I will have a ticker on here soon. I am hopeing to convince DH to tTC this month as I will be (hopefully) close to O when he returns......but with this sickness, who knows what my cycle will do. Hmm... then there is the convincing of DH, as I know he wants to wait at least another month. I DON'T. We will see.

I loved seeing the wedding pics (Girlie and Amber - gorgeous) and Beth I loved the doggie pics!!! So darling. Amber the belly shot is too cute. Can't wait to see you keep on popping out there, Victoria and Girlie too! I hope we all are sharing belly pics soon!

Jenn - Congrats of the O....here's to hoping that you and Beth and TTC have some BFP's soon! I gotta get back on this TTC train again. One of those love/hate relationships you just can't live without! :)

Mysteeq - Hang in there! Best wishes on finding a new job that will fit you and will allow you to continue healing. Blessings

Okay, here is my LOVE story.....DH and I met in college. I was a soph he a frosh....he was really good friends with my frosh roommate (Heather) who was an RA in his dorm. I met DH once at Heather's birthday get together, but we didn't talk. I remember seeing him and thinking, hmmm...cute!! He was tall, dark, handsome with a killer smile! That was always good for me!! Amber, I am with you about loving to wear tall shoes and not caring about size! I dated mostly shorter guys in high school, and Beau was the first tall guy! Loved that. Anyhow, a few months after Heather's Bday, Beau was in her room looking at pictures she had up. He saw one of me and asked her who I was (DIDN'T HE REMEMBER ME FROM HER BDAY?). He said he would like to meet me. Well...a few days later Beau went on a camping trip with two of my other close friends and started asking them about me too. When he returned from the trip, Heather set us up on a date to a dance of all things (we were young okay!) Before the dance, we got together a few times to talk...first was at Starbucks. This was like April of 1998! You aren't going to believe this........we have been together ever since, but Beau didn't kiss me until September 12 of 1998! FIVE MONTHS after our first date. Beth, you thought your DH was shy.......my guy takes the cake! Okay, another shocker, I was his first kiss. He was 19!! He would absolutely KILL me for telling you guys this, but heck...we share everything else! Beau is a total cutie (of course since I married him)....he just was so shy and really into sports...he says he was waiting for the right girl. I don't know about that, I just think he was a chicken! So there is my novel. I do love knowing that my guy has only been with me....now if only he could say the same thing about me :o Oops.

Okay, I better go check in on DFS!

Night Night!

Beck

[AmberinGSO]

I love all the love stories!
Girlie- I laughed out loud at the "bossy albino girl" comment. How romantic that you showed him the house you are now living in! How are you feeling today?

Beth- It really does seem like you were meant to meet DH! What a strange coincidence. I'm jealous of the passion party. I have ALWAYS wanted to go to one of those, but I have never known anyone to have one. I bet it will be very...enlightening. Let us know how that goes. DH and I aren't going to be having sex for a while I'm afraid. The spotting just scares me and I don't think I can bring myself to do it for a little while. I guess we will have to find other means of entertainment. As for your chart, it looks like AF could arrive any day now since your temps seem to be taking a dive. I hope she shows up soon so you can start a brand new cycle where you ovulate earlier! Let us know how the job search is going. I hope today at work is better than yesterday!

Victoria- Hey! I love your story! That was pretty ballsy putting the note on DH's car. That's how I like to get things done too. I've always been a pretty agressive girl. (not like in a bad way) I always thought if I see a guy I like why risk not getting to know him? He could be the one. Isn't that weird that you guys were probably in the same place at the same time many times and never knew it. DH and I talked about the first two years of college before we met and we were at tons tons of places together and never met before I started dating his friend. I would've clocked BIL! Men can be so silly. DH said to me the other day "You know, I think your belly button is getting bigger." What in the heck does that mean?? I asked him too and he said "umm I dont know nevermind" haha?? I hope you're feeling great as we get closer to the end of this trimester.

Jennifer- I am a hopeless romantic too. Do you ever read books by Nicholas Sparks. He is a NC writer. He wrote Message in a Bottle and The Notebook. Those are great romance novels. I live for stuff like that. I used to always want the guys I dated to be really romantic and do things like bring flowers and write my name in the sky, but then I realized that little things can be romantic too. Like when DH goes into the gas station even if he's parked right outside he always locks the car doors if I stay in the car cause he doesn't want anyone to get me or when he holds my hand he always rubs his thumb over the top of my hand. I've learned to get over not getting love letters and flowers everyday by appreciating the small things. You gotta get out there and be aggressive though girl! I really do believe there is someone out there for everyone though. When my parents met neither one of them spoke the others language, but my mom said it was love at first sight. They met at a club in Germany and my dad offered everyone on the balcony a glass of champagne to leave them alone (sounds like something out of a movie right). Anyway, I always love their first meeting story. It's really long though and I'm rambling!

Mysteeq- Glad to see you are still hanging in there. I'm glad you had a good time with DP. Having him near you is a real comfort I bet. It always was for me with DH and veggin on the couch is good for the soul. Especially if chocolate and/or pizza or good chinese take out is involved. I hope you eventually find a job that is right for you. I know you will.

Becky- I know it can be scary getting back to that TTC stage no matter how badly you have been wanting it and waiting for it. Especially after two losses. We will be right here for you every step of the way though! Sorry about the sinus infection. That really stinks. I hope DFS goes easy on you! That also sucks that DH will be gone, but hopefully you can convince him the time is right when he gets back. Tell him girlie's wonderful news and that may help convince him that someone else that went through that was able to get pregnant again so quickly. I really think that if it is too soon your body will not allow you to get pregnant again. I tried again in March and February and I didn't get pregnant until April. So if this is your month, this is your month. I had a D&C and my doctor said wait one cycle! Let us know how it goes. I love your meeting story and I think that is sweet that you are DHs first everything! How many times does that happen?!

Well, I'm off to run ten billion errands starting with dragging DH's butt outta the bed. What with all this job hunting and packing to move next week I'm exhausted! I'm so nervous about the interview tomorrow. With chemistry jobs you never know what kind of technical question they will ask you so I will be spending the night studying my butt off! I hope you all have a more relaxing evening! Hugs to all! I love you girls!
Amber

[MrsBritney]

Ladies ladies ladies..
what - is - UP!?!

Lilli - what a cute story of how you met DH, so strange when you think of all of the years you COULD have known eachother.. but you met at the right time and hit it off then!! I love that you had the balls to put the note on his car.. and totally cute that he busted you! I am totally going to agree with you on the job thing.. I am going to start looking on Friday when I get home from work.. I will get my resume together and post it on monster and the other search engines.. and then I will start looking at the classifieds.. I think that I will be able to find something fulfilling and something that pays me what I deserve. So, I am going to be a career woman!! yipee! And if I find something before my leave date here, I will just have to take it as a sign that I am not supposed to be here anymore!

Mysteeq - I am sorry you are still feeling down, sometimes it takes a while for us to get thru the hardest part, but coming here and releasing some of my sorrows really helped me to get thru things.. so if you have something you just need to get off your chest, no matter how bad it sounds.. we are all here for you.. and will support you no matter what. By the way, I am trying to figure out what DP means.. I am clicking it into my head, but all I can come up with is Dear PArtner.. is that correct? I had the hardest time when Amber kept calling her Sig other "DF" I was like.. what is DF!! dear friend? Dear freak?? heh heh.. sorry.. that was off topic..Anyhow.. it is still early for you.. but I know that with each day you will grow stronger, just let us take on some of your worries.. we are all good at that.. and if you need to say something, just say it to us, dont hold it in!!

Gwensmom - PUT UP THE NEW TICKER!! I Will be waiting for it! I know how hard it is to take that first step.. but that is how we recover.. step by step.. and you are definitely ready to start TICKING AGAIN!! I think you should definitely see if DH is in the mood, no matter how sick you are.. ;)I can't believe that he didnt remember you from your roommates birthday! What is up with that!? we all know that you are unforgettable!! I can't believe that your guy has only been with you! That is crazy.. I definitely can't say the same.. I had my college days of fun. .and I dont regret it one bit.. but man, that is totally special!!

Amber - I wish that you lived around here, I would totally take you to the passion party, I KNOW we would have a GREAT Time! I can't wait to see some of the stuff that they have.. I definitely want to spice it up at home. .so this might be the best way..
WE can't really do anything all that spontaneous anymore with 5 dogs around the house, we have to decide to do it and then lock them all out! how is that for unromantic?! I agree with you on the BDing.. I definitelu woldn't want to do it either because I wouldn't want to worry myself with the spotting.
I was thinking that AF was on her way too.. my temps definitely went down for two days.. but today, look again! Higher than they have ever been.. how weird is that.. I must be getting sick.. WE have a lot of ppl with the flu at my other work.. so maybe that is it..
I feel no cramping today.. so who knows what is going on.. but AF is due Saturday or sunday.. so I think that I will just look forward to that, and look forward to our poker night this Saturday.. Today at work is already better than yesterday. but I am still going to start the job search.. I just feel like it is about time for me to move on.. I need to make sure that we have good benefits (DH's work does NOT have a good benefits package) before anything happens.. you know?Keep us posted on your interviews and job hunting and be VERY careful with the chemicals!! :)

I have lots to do today, so I wont be around as much.. but I will try and come back and check!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!

beth

[sweetbabydreams]

So I entered my temp in this morning, and right away FF changed my O date to a whole TEN DAYS earlier! WTF?? It also changed my coverline from 98 to 97.5. And it's now saying I'm 17 DPO. What is going on?!? I will write more later, just looking for some emergency guidance at the moment.

[MrsBritney]

It looks to me like you are around 12 DPO, not 17...
I would say, from looking at your chart, that your coverline is 97.9, not 97.5... that is weird that they changed it.. It looks like your temps are still really up there..
I would say that you o'd on CD26 or so.. so I think that they had it right the first time.. the crosshairs dont look right right now...

Other than that, how are you doing?

[AmberinGSO]

Jennifer- Let me tell you, one bad thing about FF is it is not always right. Man, can it be wrong sometimes. You have to kind of just look at the chart as a whole. I would say you ovulated on cd22 or cd26 but you definitely ovulated because you have a clear thermal shift! The month I got my bfp FF tried to tell me I didn't even ovulate! Most times though it is right. So if you have a day you think you felt ovulation pains and it is coupled with a low temp followed in the next few days by higher temps you are probably right about your ovulation.

Beth- Good luck with your job search I hope you find something good. I checked out your temps again. Quite a jump! Could that have been an implantation dip? Did you guys bd at the right times this month??

[MrsBritney]

Amber - according to FF I did bd at the right times.. I definitely had fertile CM.. but I dont know.. I feel AF symptoms.. except for the depression I usually have 3 days of depression.. but I am not feeling depression.. my boobs are not sore, altho my nipples are weird.. kinda sensitive...I am having some wierd "Crampy" feelings a bit, but nothing major.. I have a mild headache.. and some lower back pain.. so who knows.. I suppose we will see on Sunday.. if AF comes or not.. eh?

But yea, the temp jump surprised even me because I have never seen a temp that high since I Started temping.. even with my "perfect" cycle last time! What is up with that?

[sweetbabydreams]

Oooh Beth, I think your chart looks really really good! You can't go by symptoms/non-symptoms, because they're not always the same. But those temps look great. I would not count you out this cycle at all!

I'm just going to let FF do its thing, while I just chill and see when AF comes. I always get AF on dpo 14 or 15, so if I really am dpo 17 -- well, that's just weird. But I think you all are right, my O date was later and FF is just tripping.

How fun reading everyone's love stories!!! I heard this relationship counselor talk about how if couples don't remember how they met, they're headed for the rocks -- so you are all in great shape with your DH's! I think my real problem now is that I've had my heart broken so many times it's hard for me to trust anyone. And I live in LA, home of untrustworthy, flaky men. I need to move away, I think.

Amber, good luck with your job interview tomorrow -- and Beth, good luck beginning the job hunt. It can't hurt, and maybe something really great will come up.

Mysteeq, it sounds like you're doing really well. Good for you! I've only started feeling like myself in the last couple days (and it's been over a month since my D&C). I still feel really sad at times, but I also feel hopeful and pretty strong -- like I know everything will be okay, and that this experience has some purpose, even if I don't know what that is.

Gwensmom - I hope you do put your ticker up, even though I understand that it must be difficult. It's one more step back onto this path that has more highs and more lows than anything I could have imagined! Sometimes I think how much easier my life would be if I didn't want a child so badly. Anyway, do the ticker only when you feel ready, and when you do, I look forward to over-analyzing and obsessing with you!

Girlie - Any updates? Symptoms? How are you feeling? TTC, did you get things straightened out with your bank?

I hope everyone is having a great day. First day of summer!!

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

Hello all!

i slept for 2 1/2 hrs and I am still so out of it, so I can only make a few comments! Beth I seriously think you may be pg. I don't want to get your hopes up just in case but I am serious. I think the cramping, temp rise, ets. remember I still have no symptoms to speak of and I am a whopping 4 weeks 3 days pregnant!! I have been queasy especially in the a.m. still no sore bb's. I have a apt from awhile ago for a repeat pap tommorrow with my midwife so maybe she'll say my uterus is at least swollen. I am looking for anything at this point!

Gotta go we have a tornado on the way i guess.

[mysteeq]

Good morning ladies ...
Beth... Yes DP is Dear Partner we are not married yet and not to sure if we ever will be although we have been together for nearly 6yrs so its like we are married in a way and he moved in with me after a couple of wks of getting together its just something i guess we're still waiting on maybe someday in the future.Also I dont mind if anyone puts DH though it doesnt bother me whatevers easier.
Anyway hope everyones having a nice day i better get my daughter ready and off to school soon so bye...

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, My best friend lives in LA and she never has a relationship work out and always says she should move too! The guys there are so flaky! Is that where you were from originally? She has been dating a guy for a yr now that she met on match.com, but things are a little rocky right now for them so I don't know what will happen. Have you ever tried match? This guy she met is hot and he is so so nice and grounded and successful and he did not live that far from her and they would never have met. he was so busy in his business he wasn't really meeting alot of girls so he tried match that month and they met. Just thought you might find that interesting!! I saw that preview fot the movie the devil wears prada, I can't believe how popular that has become!!

I don't know what to make of your chart, I have never done those charts.

[girliegirl]

Oh Beth, I almost forgot to tell you, my nipples are super sensitive almost hurt. that is my only symptom. I don't think that is a pms symptom is it??

[girliegirl]

Victoria, so good to hear from you again! As you have probably read, I am feeling good, not too many symptoms. today I was really tired and crampy. Have you been really tired? Is your nervouseness lessening now that you are about 10 wks?

Amber, let us know how the interview goes! That is exciting!! Yeah I have a hay day with his pale ex. its not nice and I need to stop. I try but then I see her and she bugs me so bad I can't help myself!!

Loved everybody's how we met stories! Makes me love dh that much more today!!

[girliegirl]

Becky Hope you are feeling better, that is hard to take care of a little one when you feel so sick. Well I think it sounds good that you are ready for the ticker! How is dh feeling about ttc? Is he ready?

[MrsBritney]

Girlie - Yea, I have never had my nipples be sensitive.. but they look weird.. kinda big.. and I accidently whacked one this morning and it totally "stung"! I think sting is the right word!
But I dont know, with what a weird cycle it has been.. who KNOWS! right? I guess I have 4 more days till I will really know..
But worse comes to worse.. I have 2.5 weeks till me dr. appt with my lovely doc.. so either way I will be better... dont you think?

You need to get a pregnancy tracker!! when is your next dr appt?
For a U/S?
I am so excited... !

[girliegirl]

I was looking on the feb 07 thread and did you guys see that girl had her first u/s and they found 5 hb's?? isn't that crazy???

[sweetbabydreams]

I saw that too. The doctors were thinking some might disappear or never develop heartbeats, but they all did. Yikes. Part of me is jealous, since I wanted ONE heartbeat more than anything in the world. But I know it's silly -- if I had 5 I would be in serious trouble. And -- hopefully that one is coming.

[MrsBritney]

Morning everyone.
I am tired today.
I went to bed a bit early, but I dont think I got very good sleep.
I had some breakfast this morning, but it doesn't seem to be waking me up. Oh well, I am sure in a couple of hours that will change and I will be back to my bright and shiney self!
No signs of anything..
No boob soreness or nipple sensitivity...
Have some mild cramping so I am thinking that AF might be on her way by saturday... at least I dont have to work this weekend at BBB, I hate being at work and starting AF.. because that is just really irritating - and I hate having to stand around all day when I have cramps! That sucks too! So since I have the weekend off, we are going to clean the house, play in the kiddie pool, have a poker "party" and barbeque and just relax and hang out in the sun. I need to get my tan on for the summer!! HAH!!
I love it when my freckles come out to play!

Anyhow.. I hope our mommies, Girlie, Amber and Lilli, are doing well today.. and I hope the rest of you are coping ok.
Gwensmom, Mysteeq, how are you guys??
TTC? Roberts05? Mickey?

Let us know how you are doing!!

Beth

[Gwensmom]

Thought I would pop in before I get DFS off to school and me to work. DH has been gone for 2 days :( Absence does make the heart grow fonder! :) Hopefully that will mean he will be up for TTC when he returns. I hope I don't O early though.....I will be CD 15 the day he gets back...so we may have missed the window. :( I haven't told him yet where I am in my cycle, so I don't know how he will feel about TTC this month....I guess I was too nervous to ask before he left as I was fearful of him saying no. Hmm...

I got some antibiotics and am really feeling better now! Very good. Okay, I better get off now......just wanted to say happy day to all you ladies. Beth your chart looks really good, keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as the days tick by....hopeful that AF stays away a long 9 months. Blessings all!

Becky

PS as you can see, not QUITE ready for the ticker. We will see what DH says next week.........if TTC is a go, it will be up! :)

[MrsBritney]

Hey Becky!
Glad you are feeling better.. I hope that DH is up for some mad TTC~ That would be crazy great~ wouldn't it?I mean, you have been waiting long enough.. at least I think so.
Ooo... maybe, have him come on here and ask a few of us ladies what we think?
MAybe that will help things along!! :)

Anyhow.. I am still having cramping.. Keep running to the bathroom with a tampon thinking I am bleeding, but I am not.. WTF? CM is outta control, white and copious. I just want to be NORMAL!! IS there anything wrong with that?!?

Found out that my co-workers are trying to peg me with traveling to New Jersey for a database testing session for a week in either August or July.
But it looks like I might fool them all, becasue I have vacation planned for the first two days of when they would want to go.. so.. :) Oopsies!

And, I have dog hair ALL over me!! What is going on"?!
However.. strangely enough, I am in a FABULOUS mood.. altho I am a bit hungry.. need some cheese or something..
But what I really cant wait for is BURRITO FRIDAY!!!!!

beth

[sweetbabydreams]

Now it's changed my O date so that I'm 5dpo! From 17 dpo to 8 dpo to 5dpo in one day. I guess all I need to know is that I did ovulate, and that AF will come at some point. Grrrr. I just want to know where I am and what's going on!! Is that so much to ask?? There's a goodbye party tonight for some people who are leaving, and I plan to drink. As much as I can without making a fool of myself in front of co-workers.

[Gwensmom]

Beth - lots of creamy cm is totally a good sign! I had that both times I was in my 2ww and pg. When will you test? I forget, when did Girlie get her positive? Wasn't it around 11 DPO? Isn't that tomorrow for you :) Knowing you...you will all make us wait, wait, wait :) Okay, back to work...just wanted to pop my 2 cents in.

Becky

[girliegirl]

Beth, could you do a test in the morning? I am leaving for the weekend and then I won't be home til sun night and I don't think I can wait until then to hear your bfp news.

[MrsBritney]

you guys want me to do a test?
I was going to wait till NEXT Friday..
Especially because I apparently dont have a lot of trouble conceiving, my trouble is that when the egg is released, either it is too old to properly grow, or my lining is too old to properly flow oxygen to the fetus.. and the fetus dies..
STUPID long cycles.
So even if I get a bfp tomorrow, it probably wouldn't last longer than a week or so and I would be m/c again..
(obviously I dont have any faith in my body now that I know about the long cycles)
But, I will take a test for you guys.. even tho AF is not due till SUnday..
And I will try and remember to post the results first thing when I get to work. Ok. But that wont be till 6 am my time.. so.. in michigan.. probably.. what.. 8 am? Is that too late?

[girliegirl]

Yay! i am so excited. We aren't leaving until the afternoon, so that will be good. i really am thinking you are! We would be due a few weeks from each other! How fun. I can't believe how tired I am. its 5 p.m. and I am ready for bed. I want to eat a big bowl of cereal after I finish this container of spinach dip and go to bed and read my book!

Jennifer I don't know what to make of that FF thing. weird. I just go by cp and cm. when cp gets high and soft and cm picks up, its O time! I have never done that charting. This cycle may just be screwed up too. next cycle will probably be way easier to chart. are you planning on trying next cycle?

[girliegirl]

Are you guys ready for this. Our new house is done and it is so beautiful. I really love it. and dh has now said he doesn't want to move in and sell it. can you believe it?? He says it will be too stressful living in the sub that he is developing and I do agree and see his point, but....

[girliegirl]

Beth, I was thinking, when I conceived my first I had really long cycles too. I never knew when to test. But my point is I obviously conceived with long cycles. so I still think you are pg. I think you dropped a nice fresh egg on cd 40. HAve you ever taken fertility blend? That is supposed to help with that.

[mysteeq]

Good morning ladies,
Goodluck..Beth..i hope you get a BFP when you take your test how exciting for you and everyone that would be so good.
Well its Friday over here so another weekend not to sure what we'll be up to but atleast DP will be home.Its pretty boring staying home by myself during the week but atleast i got the computer to keep me occupied:)
And as for me doing much better now that i think the bleeding is slowing finishing so yay to that..
I hope everyone has a very nice weekend
bye for now....

[sweetbabydreams]

Mysteeq - So glad the bleeding is slowing down and you are feeling better. I hope you have a nice relaxing weekend.

Beth - Can't wait until tomorrow and the big POAS! Here's hoping you have to postpone that boob job!

Girlie - Bummer about the house, but stress is always to be avoided when possible (my philosophy!). But congrats on doing such a great job with the house anyway.

I will not try next cycle (although I would like to) since both my RE and ACP said to wait another month.:( :( I'm hoping that month will go quickly. I'm going to Hawaii for a week over 4th of July, so that should help. I'm going to try to be super-Zen about the whole thing, and just let things happen when they happen. (We'll see how that goes?!)

Gwensmom, I do hope your DH changes his mind about TTC -- it really seems like you're ready. But a month can go by quickly (at least I hope so!!)

How is everyone one else?

[Gwensmom]

Oh my! Beth, I can't wait until tomorrow morning.....I really have a good feeling about this month for you. Girlie has the right attitude, your egg was perfect!! I know it is hard, but TRY to have a positive outlook....easy to say, so hard to do. I am hoping and praying for happy news tomorrow. :)

I just had the MOST frustrating thing happen. I was sitting here typing you guys and DFS comes running in the room saying the washer is overflowing in the garage!! :eek: I run out there and sure enough soapy water EVERYWHERE. Mind you, I have the garage all set up and organized for a garage sale this weekend. Perfect timing!! And DH is gone, so I don't know what to do. I have ALL of my towels, good & bad, out there sopping it up and I turned the water off...so it isn't leaking more. BUT, I can't do laundry now until I know what is wrong. Oh, I don't have time for this!!! Oh well.

So, I better get back in the garage and keep cleaning, I just wanted to finish my post once the water was turned off. DFS thought it was funny (I wasn't amused in the least), so I had him go play in the backyard so that he wouldn't overhear my choice words!!! :o

Okay, back to the mess I go.

Happy Friday soon!

Beck

[AmberinGSO]

Morning, ladies!

Becky- OMG that stinks about the washer! Doesn't it always seem like things only break when DH is away?! Bummer! Do you have another male relative that could fix it or take a look at it? I know how much it stinks to have your good towels on the ground. One of the first lessons DH had to learn when we moved in together for the first time was the difference between good towels and bad towels. I swear the man would use the nicest biggest fluffiest towel I own to wipe up spaghettic sauce on the floor! I hope when DH gets back he is ready to bd! When will he be back?

Beth- Wow! I can't wait until you post this morning! I hope it is a bfp! Maybe these things come in twos. First Victoria and I together and now Girlie and you together! Remember if it is a bfn, you are still only 11dpo and I didn't get a + that early!

Girlie- That is a bummer about the new house! Do you think you really won't move in? I can't imagine getting all hyped up about something like that and then not moving in. I can understand how stressful it would be to move into a neiborhood you are developing though. You might have people at your doorstep constantly!

Mysteeq- I am right there with you about staying home by yourself without DP. Right now DH and I still live in a house in the town we went to college in, but he took a job 100 miles away in our hometown which we are moving to next week. So during the days he works he stays with his mother to keep from driving back and forth so I go three days at a time without seeing him and it stinks. I'm glad the bleeding is easing up. I know how hard that can be. Once it is totally gone though and your hormones are back down you will begin to feel considerably better. I will keep praying for you and your DP.

Jennifer- Sorry FF moved your crosshairs again, but I think it is clear from your chart that you DID ovulate so that is awesome! I think AF should come any time now. I'm sorry next cycle is no good, but I think it is best to go by what the RE says to give yourself the best environment for growing that little bean! I know that month can feel like an eternity, but lucky you girl! Hawii!! I have always wanted to go there! How exciting! That should be a distraction! Maybe you can meet a hard bodied tan hottie!

As for me, I'm such a wacko! I had a bad dream about DH last night and when he left for work this morning I cried my eyes out because I didn't want him to leave. Not to mention I cried when I woke up from the dream. Poor DH didn't know what to do. I could tell it made him feel so bad to leave me there crying, but we both knew he had to go to work. What a baby I am! Geez! Now I'm just sitting here bummed out. The job interview yesterday was... interesting. I interviewed with four different people. I do not want that job at all. Seems very ...not challenging and it is a little bit of a drive. I think I probably did get the job though. They don't really want to pay me enough either. Anyway, I have TWO more lined up so I'm not too worried. Also, I am buying a new bedroom furniture set so...I've got that to look forward to... man I'm still really bummed about DH being gone..guess I will go and pack some of this house up to take my mind off of it.

BEth!! I am waiting for those POAS results.

[girliegirl]

Beth are you up yet?? I am here waiting!

[girliegirl]

Amber where are you guys getting your new furniture. We flew to greensboro in feb and went to furniture land to buy our stuff for the new house. are you guys near there?

Mysteeq, I remember it felt so good to have the bleeding go away and feel like things were getting back to normal. Did you decide how much time to take off work?

Becky, that totally sucks about the washer! Did you get it cleaned up for the garage sale? Aren't garage sales the biggest pain? SOO much work. Hopefully you will get rid of alot!

[girliegirl]

AMber I have had bad dreams like that and you feel bummed all day. I hate that. I had a dream last night that we had the baby and we were so busy that we gave it to my SIL to nurse and take care of for a month and she brought it back to us and it wouldn't come to me. real nice.

I put my foot down this a.m. about the whole house thing. I told dh this flakiness has to stop. we have kids to think about. we sold my house which was nice and in a great neighborhood to live in this shoe box while we were building our house not he says he doesn't want to move in. so I found another house and he said that was too much money when it was the same as the new house! So I just said I don't care where we live but you need to decide asap. its not fair to the kids to leave them hanging and interest rates are rising we need to get a mtg. now. So he said fine we could move in the new house next weekend. but I am going to look at the other house I found today for the 2nd time!

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, I am so jealous you are going to hawaii!! How fun. are you going for work or for fun? That will be so nice! I agree the month will go fast with the holiday and your trip. Gosh a month or so from now we could be waiting on your test results!! It will be here soon, keep up your great Zen attitude!

[girliegirl]

Um Beth, I am still trying to kill time while I am on the edge of my seat....

[girliegirl]

Beth, I have to go help dh clean a new house for a few hrs. I will check back. But I am thinking of you and sending happy baby thoughts your way!!!

[AmberinGSO]

Haha I'm here waiting too!

[AmberinGSO]

Girlie- Good job putting your foot down with dh! I hope you get it figured out! We are getting the furniture from Rooms To Go. I'm still going back and forth some on which set to buy. I live in Greensboro. I've never been to furniture land though. I'll have to look that up! Maybe I'll find a better deal there and the dreams do bum me out all day long. I've always had really realistic dreams taht I remember every detail of so of course I keep thinking about this one. DH works in a jail too so I just feel worried all day with him around gangsters and murderers... My mom is leaving for Europe today for over three weeks and I'm bummed about that too. I won't be able to talk to her for over a week at one point because she will be touring. I just keep thinking what if I have an emergency and I'm moving into the new house next week. I won't have my mom there for opinions on things.... Guess I need to grow up and be a big girl huh?

[MrsBritney]

Just so you know, it is 5:47 am as I type this... so it is not like I didn't get up early or something.. heh heh
Just to not keep you in suspense..
Nilch, nada, zero, nothing, NEGATIVE. :)
But it is ok.. I am not disappointed by it..
AF has still not shown.. and my temps are still up.. so I dont know what is going on....
However, I promise, if AF has still not shown by SUnday, I will take another test first thing Monday morning, and post as soon as I get to work!
So, never fear... we have more tests.. lol

I wasn't really expecting anything ...
you know what is weird.. my mom said that with my older sister, and my little brother, the doctors told her she was NOT pregnant.. and she didn't get a positive result with either until she was 16 WEEKS along. Can you beleive that.. I would go CRAZY.

Amber, that is so sad about your dream.. I am sorry that you are feeling sad about him being gone today.. I have had dreams like that in the past! I have also had dreams where DH cheated on me and I Was SOOOOO pissed at him ~ one time I Woke up and hit him, then shoved him across the bed... I was pissed off for a while until I realized it was a dream..

Girlie - I think you are right to tell DH to stop fiddle farting around (that is my grandmas old saying) and just make a decision about the house.. and get a move on! You can't be on the wait forever... you need a place to live!

Mysteeq - I am so glad that the bleeding is subsiding.. it really does help when you not longer have to see thigns associated with that horrible event.. and it is good that you are starting to be a little more happy..
It is good that you come here and let it out.. because it is always good to be "Around" people who have been thru the same things..
I am sure that your body is healing great and you will be back in the game in no time!

Sweet - how are you doing today? LEts see what FF has to say today! :)

Gwensmom - I am sorry, not to be rude but that whole washing machine thing sounds SO Funny! I am with DFS!! HAHA.. But I am sorry that you have a garage full of stuff for the sale along with that!
How are you doing today? Did you figure it out? You might have just overloaded the washing machine.. that happened to me when I did that.. and then I took everything out and started a fresh (and smaller) load and it worked fine..
Is it the connection that is all whacked out??

Sorry for the disappointing news this morning ladies..
I am still having some mild cramping and the excessive CM is still there..

I was ready to make this huge negative post about how I Was right and I knew I wasn't pregnant.. and you guys were wrong and I was never going to get pregnant.. yadda yadda yadda..and then I made the mistake of reading AMbers post about how I am "only 11 dpo and it might be too early to get a +"... blah blah blah.. so then I couldn't write what I had been planning to write all of the way to work..
Thanks a LOT Amber!! :)

OK.. I have work to do..
Girlie, have a GREAT weekend.. you are heading out of town right?
So have fun.. and monday morning we should know for sure.
Just remember that last time I got pregnant, I didn't find out until AF Was one week late... So... who knows!

Hi everyone else!!!

beth

[AmberinGSO]

Beth- Sorry about the BFN, but your chart still looks really really good! Don't give up hope yet. You may just not have enough in your system yet! I'm glad reading my comment made you feel better! Remember I tested positive on 17dpo! Also, you have that nice looking little implantation dip on 8dpo. Tomorrow is the day AF normally starts for you right?? Well only time will tell! Any creamy cm?

[MrsBritney]

Amber - eh, dont be sorry about the bfn.. I wasn't really onboard with it anyhow.. I just figured that AF would be here today.. but she should definitely be here tomorrow..
I did have the dip in 8dpo, you are correct.. and I do recall that you didn't test positive till 17 dpo and that your first test was bfn... correct? So, I am not going to stress.. I am just going to treat myself to a nice nap this afternoon. :)
I do have creamy CM.. yes, that is for sure. But that comes around right before AF anyhow, doesn't it?
I PROMISE, that I will keep you guys updated all weekend long.. if AF shows, I will post, if DH makes me test again, I will post..
If Sunday comes round, and there is no AF, I will re-test Monday morning and post first thing when I Get to work! (I dont turn on the computer before work)
But dont worry about me. .I have a VERY positive outlook about it..
I have some mild cramping and lower back pain.. but it doesn't feel like regular AF cramps, so I Dont know.. I will just give her a few more days and figure it out then!
Dont be sad for me!! I am really ok!

beth

[sweetbabydreams]

FF and I are not speaking at the moment. It continues to insist I only O'd a few days ago -- which has to be wrong! Oh well.

Beth -- It's still pretty early, so I would not call that a definitive BFN! But it sounds like you're okay with it either way. Your chart does still look good. But as I said, FF and I aren't speaking right now, so who knows what the chart means!

Girlie -- I'm too squeamish to check CP. I know, it's lame. Good for you for putting your foot down about the house! Which one do you prefer, out of the two? I'm going to Hawaii for fun, to visit some friends. I've never been there, so I'm pretty excited. I just wish I were in more bikini-friendly shape. The pg/mc has definitely added a few pounds. I know you can't relate, tiny thing that you are!

Amber -- I will def. be keeping my eye out for a tan hottie-from-Hawaii! I've always had a thing for surfers. I'm sorry you're nervous about your Mom leaving, and the bad dream about DH. Everything's probably scarier than normal because you're pg. I'm sure everything will be fine, there will no emergencies, and you can always hang out here to chat! We'll take care of you!

I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

Beth, I am still not convinced that you are not pg. It may just be too soon, you have too many weird symptoms. You may just be a late egg dropper and a late implanter! We are going to the inlaws for the weekend, supposedly. its 3:15 and its a 5 hr drive and dh is still working with no end in sight. I may just take a nap. I am in a super cranky mood. I am sick of doing everything for everyone else and I get nothing done that I need to. Not like I want to get my nails done or something, I mean things like do laundry and pay the bills.

Anyways, I will see you all mon, unless we don't go.

Don't forget to poas on monday beth!

[girliegirl]

Hey Beth, how was the toy party? did you get anything fun??

[mysteeq]

Hello ladies well bleeding has officially stopped so im pretty glad now.So i guess now we'll have to get back into the ttc journey again we will be going back to see the dr maybe next cycle if he gives us the all clear or maybe wait for a couple of cycles to start iui again.But until then im sure it wont hurt if dp and i try on our own for now will it?
Girlie..Im still not sure when i'll get back into work DD has got school holidays for 2weeks now so i will look for another job when she goes back.

[AmberinGSO]

Haha, I just wanted to say, that checking Beth's chart has become a daily must for me and I'm always disappointed when she hasn't gotten up to post her temp because I'm a few hours ahead of her! Today is the big day Beth. If AF is gonna show it would be normal to see her today! I hope she stays away for nine months!

[MrsBritney]

Hi there Everyone! :)
I am up.. I try not to get up too early on Saturdays if I dont have to work..
And so, I just got upm and it is 9:20 am. I went to bed at 11:30 tho, so I had LOTS of sleep, I feel pretty good.
No AF. Creamy CM and my temp today was 98.10, but no test today..
I will test first thing Monday morning if AF still has not shown by then..
I had some cramping and lower back pain last night, I was SURE that AF would be here..
But maybe she is just running a bit late. I am feeling a bit of boob soreness and nipple sensitivity.. but still no depression.. so, Amber, we will know soon enough. I went to the $$ tree yesterday and bought 4 tests.. So, I got the4 cheapies, I still dont trust that they always work.. the ones I have are called New Choice. Are those the ones that everyone else gets? I will look them up.
I would prefer to POAS, rather than PIAC.. but these ones you have to PIAC.

Sorry that I was not up early enough for you!!

Tonite, we are having a poker party with a couple friends, and the girl we have been friends with since we first moved here to AZ... she was dating out other friend, Ryan, well, they broke up in December, and now the girl, Krystal, is already married (Her and Ryan dated on and off for 3.5 years and he always told her he wouldn't marry her but she stayed with him, finally cheated on him in December and married the guy she cheated on Ryan with) Anyhow.. I am really upset because Krystal has three kids, and her and her husband are trying for one of their own (her first two girls were with her first husbandm and baby girl #3 was an accident, but oh so cute) anywho.. apparently Krystal and her new husband have been SMOKING WEED at there house while the girls are there, and the do it REGULARLY.. and I was SOOO pissed because I told her that we dont do that (anymore, hey, what can I say, I had some crazy college years) so she goes behind my back and calls my HUSBAND and asks HIM if he wants them to bring some weed to smoke tonite!! I WAS LIVID!!! I told him I dont want them coming over tonite (he told them NO by the way, I was proud of him) and he begged me "PLEASE" because he really wants to have his poker night.. so I relented.. but what do you girls think about this.. I have a REALLY hard time wanting to be friends wth someone who gets stoned around their kids and is trying for another one while being stoned all of the time. I honestly have prayed that she can't have another child because I dont think bringing another child into the world of pot smoking and drinking is a good idea. Is that wrong?

OK.. onto you guys.

Girlie - I hope you are having a WONDERFUL weekend... Let us know how the "vaycay" goes. Oh yea.. and for all you girls that wondered - at the sex toy party.. I bought some of this oil that is made to work with your own pheremones (FARE MONES if you dont know how to say that) and it smells different on each woman.. and mine smelled OH so good, so I bought a bottle.. and then I bought a lovely little purple toy with a rotating head and clitoral stimulant.. I can't wait to try it out!! DH is VERY excited too.. HE thinks it will be a real turnon.. but the truth is, I really pretty much only plan on using it while he is not there..
But as soon as it comes in, I will let you girls know what I think of it! I am VERY excited!

Sweet - FF is being mean to you again.. I wonder what is going on! Sometimes those damn things just dont want to do us right! But let me tell you, I am not particularly fond of checking my CP either.. I tried.. but I dont know what the hell I am looking for.. and after a minute or so... I just can't keep my finger up there anymore! UGH!! So I am with you!

Mysteeq - I am SO happy that the bleeding stopped.. so now you are back on board with the TTC wagon.. WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME!! And no, it WONT hurt at all for you and DP to try try and try again.. you never know.. they say that our bodies are the most fertile right after a miscarriage. .so I say GO FOR IT!!
I will pray for you and send my good vibes out your way!

I think that AF is on her way.. I have had some crampin today and have had diharrea (sp?).. (tmi?) So, I am expecting her tomorrow morning.. :) But until then.. POKER NIGHT!!!

OK everyone.. I am goin to take DH out to REd Lobster for lunch today.. it is "Date day".. so that should be fun. We are going to head to the mall really quick too to pick up some lotion from the clinique counter.. and then head to petsmart and get some doggie treats and meaty bones!
Have a wonderful day!!


beth

[AmberinGSO]

Haha I am totally sitting in here waiting for Beth to post her temp for the day. I need to get a life, huh?

[AmberinGSO]

Oh and one more thing, Jennifer, I see you got AF! Yay! That's great!

[sweetbabydreams]

Hey Amber - Yes, AF is in the building. A little bit earlier than I was expecting, so I'm having kind of a wierd reaction. Happy, of course, but nervous too -- I think I'm scared of getting back into that cycle of hope and anxiety. And then I keep having flashbacks of those ultrasounds where they couldn't find the heartbeat, and all that fear and dread and late-night praying. I'm scared of going back to that. But I have to, because I want a baby more than anything in the world. So -- I guess I have another month to deal with all this, and I know that month is going to go quickly, and then I'll just think POSITIVE when I start trying again. It's been kind of an emotional weekend for me! I hope everyone else is having a good weekend, and not melting down like me.

[girliegirl]

Where is Beth?? I just got home eager to see the update. everything so far looks good.

Jennifer I hope you are o.k. I was a mess when I got my first af. so emotional it was like the m/c all over again. Let us know if you need to talk.

Amber I saw on another thread you were in a panic over the hb. Are you o.k. now? I do think its too early to be able to find the hb, especially by yourself. A dr may be able to, but you may not. Are you feeling better?

The boob fairy showed up this weekend.nice. they are huge and a little sore.

We had a good weekend. good family time! Ate a ton as I always do at MIL. feel like I gained 20 lbs!! My goal this week is to start walking every day and do some exercises to tone up my legs. I feel blobby.

Hope everyone is doing great!

Beth I can't stand the suspense much longer.

[mysteeq]

Rang my Dr up today and he said we can start IUI again next cycle hes going to put me on the injections instead of clomid.Well im pretty happy about starting again have to go see him in a couple of weeks.
Are any of you ladies on here doing IUI aswell of just ttc naturally?.

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies!
Jennifer- Sorry AF is kind of bumming you out. Atleast she is here now and you can get back to trying again as frightening as it can be. I always hated being in that stage after a loss where you just aren't sure what the heck your body is doing. I know having moments where you relive what happened in the doctor's office can be hard. I actually switched office locations because of that. Trying again will be a big step and you will probably be even more terrified when you succeed, but we will be here for both of those steps! You will get a healthy baby!

Girlie- I rented one of thos dopplers because everyone was saying that they found their babies hb at like conception (ok I'm being sarcastic), but I couldn't find mine at 11 weeks. So, I freaked, but finally a nice woman told me that her husband is a doctor and she couldn't find hers till a little after 12 weeks so now I have calmed down a lot. My uterus is still hiding behind my pelvic bone, but I read that this week and next week it should be peaking out. I think I will relax a lot more at my next dr appt on July 5th when they once again tell me everything is fine. I will be in the second trimester then and I hope I can relax. How are you feeling? I'm glad you had a good vacation. Hopefully the m/s stays at bay for you. Don't you love the booby fairy. She makes regular visits to my house now.

Mysteeq- I think that is absolutely wonderful news about the IUI! How exciting! I don't know much about injectables, but I bet you are excited to try something new. I can't wait for your first 2ww! It is going to be so exciting analyzing symptoms with you. I just know the rumors are true about being more fertile after a loss. You will get your BFP right away!

TTC, Becky, Amanda, Mickey, Victoria- How are you all doing? Especially Mickey because I haven't seen you around here forever!

Beth- Testing this morning??? I saw you didn't update your chart yesterday. Haha, ok maybe I'm more obsessed with your cycle than you are. Let us know if you do test!

Nothing much new with me today. DH is back home and we are going to spend the day packing all day! Honestly, it's going to be a nightmare. I can't wait until this move is all over. We are moving in on Friday and my little sister is moving into her new home on Saturday and my dad decided that this weekend would be a great weekend to visit from Alabama. Grrrreat...
Anyway, you all have a good Monday!

[MrsBritney]

Sorry ladies. I did test today, but it was a negative again.
So, now I think that something is actually WRONG. But I can't get into the doc until July 11th.. SO I will just have to wait and pray that AF shows up before then.. because I can't imagine not seeing her by then.
WHen I say negative, I mean, like NOTHING.. not even a HINT of a line.
So.. who knows.
I am not disappointed.. at all.. I mean, it would be cool to be pregnant, but I am just not putting my hopes and dreams into one cycle ... it is just too much for me.
I had a great weekend, fun with some friends.. if AF doesn't show up by Friday this week, I am going to make me some parsley tea to get things moving again..
Anyhow.. I have to get to work.. I just wanted to make sure I updated for you guys :)

[girliegirl]

Beth, well now I am baffled. Its hard not to get a little excited when you haven't seen af for 54 days, but I do think you have a great attitude about it. you are right you cannot put your whole llife into one cycle. you have lots of cycles to get that bfp!! But it is a little baffleing. So how was the poker party? We do a poker group too. it is so much fun. ANd I totally agree with you about the pot smoking couple. that is so white trash to smoke pot and drink when you are ttc and have kids. they say the eggs you are releasing this month were made 100 days ago. I read that somewhere. I would have a hard time being nice to that slut if she was calling my dh behind my back.

I am soo nauceous this morning. and my bbs really hurt now. so I guess the hcg must be on the rise! And I have been soo tired. I definitely have way more symptoms this time around.

Well I guess we are moving in this week. To tell you the ttruth, I got excited about the other house we found and now I want that one! But we already have this house pymt of the house we are living in, with no buyer in sight and we have the new house pymt too, so I don't think we need house #3 right now. my hope is by spring dh will want to move out of the sub and that house will still be for sale for alot less money!!

[girliegirl]

Beth how was the new toy?? I have a few, but nothing real exciting. I mainly bought them hoping dh would feel like he needed to step it up a little, but it didn't work. I would leave it laying around like I had just got done with it and he never even acted like he cared. whatever.


Does anyone know, how much is o.k. for me to do in this move. LIke I know I shouldn't move couches and stoves by my self, but can I move boxes and things that are kind of heavy?

[girliegirl]

Beth, you know my trick for making af show up? You have to buy 2 or 3 of the most expensive hpt's you can find. then pee on all of them just to be sure. then if you are not pg af will show up within 6 hrs. works every time.

[MrsBritney]

hahah.. Girlie, you are right.
I probably should go out and buy a name brand pg test... I have just been using the Dollar Tree ones.. I figure, by friday, if AF is still not here, I will take another test... and then buy me a bunch of parsley. But that is funny about buying the most expensive test.. that is oh so true.. and works for a lot of people!
That is cool that you are finally moving into your house.. I would just do whatever work you feel comfortable with.. try not to life more than like 20 lbs.. you know? Just some light work... maybe focus more on packing and unpacking..?
Oh yea, and the new toy.. it comes in sometime this week.. I haven't even tried it yet..
I dont know how much use I will actually get out of it.. but we will see.
I am more excited about the pheremone oils.. that is going to be so awesome.
Yea, I was surprised when I had no reaction to the bfn this morning.. I mean, I didn't get excited or sad, or anything.. it was like "yea, I figured" you know?
Because I have absolutely NO symptoms.. not even fatigue.. so who knows..
I will just have to wait and see what happens.. my temps are still above coverline.. but hopefully they just dive and AF visits... because this is REALLY irritating.
:)

[girliegirl]

Beth I used those new choice tests too. I was really really faint. I mean I had to keep looking at it and my hcg was 38 then it was 11 dpo. so who knows but that would be frustrating I guess you just have to keeep your laid back attitude for now., it does you no good to get worked up about it, that will only make ttc harder and more stressful.


Did you guys go swimming with your team of dogs this weekend?? Did you guys get a bunch of rain? I thought I saw that on the news. DId I ever tell you I went to ASU?

[MrsBritney]

We did break out the kiddie pool this weekend.. we had it out and full all day saturday.. Sofie was in an out of that thing all day long, she loves it in there! WE gave the two rotties a bath, they did NOT like that! but they were good about it and stood still. I am still shocked at how much they shed! it is gross!
Yea, I used those New Choise tests.. and it is supposed to show at 25 ... but nothing at all.
I figure on Friday I will run to walgreens and pick up another kind of test to be sure. MAybe those New Choices are a bad batch.. right?

I am definitely not worried about whether or not i am pg.. I just will keep rolling with it.. and today, I am goin to go home, workout, watch some House, and sleep.. I am tired this morning.. Sunday nights are the worst.. I feel like I get no sleep!!

[girliegirl]

Amber, We will be moving this week too, so I know how you feel yuck! Are you guys moving to or from greensboro. I really liked greensboro, I thought it was clean and cute! We only saw a little of it. we flew in there stayed there but we rented a car and went to high point and jamestown which is where furniture land is. Glad you have relaxed a little. I know I will be a nervous wreck myself

[girliegirl]

sorry I stopped mid sentence. dh was reading over my shoulder. Whatever!! Get your own fertility friends! Anyways, I am sure when you get into the 2nd trimester you will feel alot better! I am just happy that I am soo nauceous today and my bbs are killing me. its great! I feel like I really am pg! A week from fri is the u/s. I hope that goes by fast.

[sweetbabydreams]

Hi Everyone, happy Monday!

Girlie - Sorry about the symptoms, but maybe it's reassuring? I would find it so, anyway. I'm so excited about your u/s! Gosh the time is going quick. I heard about this new thing some real estate developers are doing here in Cali -- they hire actors to pretend to be happy families living in the model homes -- the kids run up to you and ask to show you their rooms, that kind of thing. Isn't that cute? Or is it annoying? Could go either way, I guess.

MrsB - Parsley tea totally works for bringing on AF, but hopefully it will come soon -- or those HPT's will start changing their tune. Your new little toy sounds way too fun! We'll expect a complete report after it arrives.;)

Mysteeq -- I too am doing IUI's with injectibles. You're lucky your doc will let you start again right away, that's great! Mine wants me to wait for my next cycle -- but my period started Sat. (5 weeks after d&c), so in less than a month I'll be going again! Maybe we'll be trying about the same time, that would be cool. I'm starting to believe what they say about enhanced fertility after m/c -- just look at this board!

I hope everyone else is doing well. I"m coming out of my AF blues and starting to look ahead. When I come back from Hawaii, I'll be two weeks away from next AF -- and then back on the TTC train. I just hope it's an express!

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

Jennifer,
Glad you are feeling better about things. you are right the time will fly by until your next IUI! i bet you will get a + right off the bat. Did you get a + right away the lst time you did IUI or did you have to do more than 1 cycle?

Cute idea about the actors. I don't know if that would work here or not. I do sometimes have my kids around during open houses. people like a family atmosphere. The codo's are going like hot cakes. the houses pretty good, but a little slower. The real estate market here sucks though. I have like 20 listings and they are all sitting and not even getting calls. executive realty is about to go under!! You can look at my website. its www.shaun4executiverealty.com Look at all the beautiful homes that are NOT SELLING!!

[sweetbabydreams]

Girlie - I tried to check your website, but for some reason it wouldn't work. I'd love to see those homes --- I bet they're gorgeous, if they're for executives! Is that what executive realty means?

With my IUI's, I did three with no meds at all, then switched RE's, did injectibles, and got pg on that first cycle. I don't know what will happen this time. I'll probably do everything the same, and hope that lightning strikes twice!

Amber -- Interesting thought about switching so as not to be reminded. I'll have to see how I feel when the time comes. I really like my RE, and I did have success with them. I'll have to see what it feels like, walking back in there. Don't worry about the doppler and the heartbeat (I know, easy for me to say!) I just know that everything is fine, and your doctor will confirm that at your next u/s in July. I can't wait to hear all about it! 2nd trimester is almost here, yayyy!!!

[mysteeq]

Hi ladies hope everyones doing ok.Well i went into work today to tell my manager i wont be coming back to work of course she was disappointed and sad but she told me remember that the doors always open for me just incase i ever needed a job or things dont work out.So that was nice to know but hopefully i dont need to use that door.
Jennifer... Yeah that would be so cool if we went through IUI at the same time only another month or so.Hope it goes fast.
Bye for now

[MrsBritney]

Hello EVERYONE!!! :)
Today is a wonderful new day, and you will see that it is also the beginning of a new start..
I woke up this morning and my temp was almost below coverline and I have some SPOTTING! YEs, that is right.. SPOTTING!! I believe that is a precursor to seeing AF!! SO.. I am in a very good mood.
My ticker has not changed yet, but it will tomorrow..
Damn I am hungry.
Anyhow....
I just wanted to pop in and say hello!! And let you guys know what is up this morning! :)

Have a great day, I will be back later on.

[girliegirl]

Beth, I can't believe af is here. hmmm. well I guess at least now you know and you can move on. What a long frustrating cycle. I am exhausted just thinking about it!! I am glad you have your dr apt. soon, then you can figure out what the heck that was all about. maybe it was just a fluke. I am hungry too. just had my 2nd breakfast and I am still hungry! My 2nd one was an oatmeal pancake from the south beach cook book. I just love them and I think they are a very healthy pg food too. They have oatmeal, eggs, cottage cheese vanilla and cinnamon. then you cook it in a little olive oil and add just a little syrup. so so good!

Jennifer, wow sounds like you got pg pretty easily last time, I bet you will this time too. keep up your positive attitude, I know that helps. When do you leave for your trip is it this weekend? I bet you are soo excited. I have a feeling you may have a few drinks!! Have one for me!

Mysteeq, Your IUI will be here before you know it. That must feel good toknow you don't have to wait a long time to start again. So Are you going to quit work for good, or find something else later?

[sweetbabydreams]

Good morning all -

Beth -- Yay for spotting!! (It's the little things in life ... ) If you're spotting at dpo 15, that's a pretty normal luteal phase. Is that later than usual for you? You must be glad to get this cycle behind you!! On to the next!

Girlie -- wow, those pancakes sound awesome!! I love oatmeal, I eat it every morning for breakfast. I always put walnuts and molasses in it, which are both supposed to be good for pg (I forget why!) But your breakfast sounds even better!! I'm leaving Thursday for Hawaii, I'm totally psyched. Hopefully I'll come back refreshed and ready to get knocked up!

Mysteeq -- Good for you for doing what you need to do and leaving your job. What kind of work do you do? How have you been feeling?

As for me, AF is over now, but it was weird: very heavy but over quickly. No cramping but utter exhaustion. And I never had sore boobs, which are standard issue for me with AF. (Is this TMI?) I'm not going to worry about it -- I've heard that the first AF is always unusual in some way.

Have a good day, everyone!

Jennifer

[MrsBritney]

Hello again!
OK.. so I am still spotting.. but VERY lightly.. it makes no sense...
My lutal phase is generally around 13-14 days, so that is about right.. but usually my flo starts right away.. not a lot of spotting.. so I am a little concerned, but I figure I will give it till tomorrow and then I will be off to the store to buy me some parsley and mint (I have to add mint to the parsley tea, or it tastes like asparagus water). Anyhow...
Nothing much going on.. a LOT of meetings lately.. so this cycle has certainly been stressed for sure...
I found out information that some of our people will be leaving a month ahead of the rest of us, but I am not allowed to tell any of them so I am sad.. however I did also find out that the rest of us will be released at LEAST two weeks earlier than we thought, but we will be getting paid thru those last two weeks like we were still working there. Cool beans eh?

Ugh.. I am on a conference call. .. dern it.

beth

[mysteeq]

Hello ladies,
Its the school holidays over here at the moment so i got my daughter home with me for the next couple of weeks its nice having her at home with me.Just took her to the movies before which she really enjoyed.
Girlie...Im just having a little break from working at the moment i'll start looking for another job after DD goes back to school i cant wait to get back into work though.
Jennifer...I was working in a cafe for the last 3yrs im not going to work with food anymore.Not to sure what i'd like to do anything but food i guess.I've been doing ok i got one of my friends staying with us for awhile at the moment so she been a very good help with everything its nice having her around.I hope you have a very lovely trip.Oh how nice would that be i'd love to go on holiday there oneday how exciting.

[MrsBritney]

Where IS EVERYONE???!?!?!?
AMBER? LILLI? GIRLIE? TTC? MICKEY? (Hey there Mysteeq!)
Are you guys skipping out on us? Or what?!
Today is CD 2!!
I was going to say that I am "happily cramping".. however, it is not all that "happy" because.. well.... it HURTS! lol It hurts so bad it is radiating downwards and causing pain elsewhere! eeewe!!
It is nice to know that my body is finally getting somwhere tho..
Two more weeks till my appt with my ob... hopefully she can see what is going on... that would be uber nice.. dont you think?
Work is ok. .I have a lot to do and dont want to do it.. but I guess you can't have everything.. right?
Life goes on..
Hope everyone is having a GREAT day..
Mysteeq - nice to hear from you.. hope you find a job that makes you happy.. :)

Beth

[girliegirl]

Beth, happy cramping! maybe your dr could order a progesterone test for you on 7 or 8 dpo. by the time you go for your apt you should be O right? I know where the heck did everyone go? do you think we are boring them?? Do we need more sex talk to liven it up?? Did I tell you my friend dumped the guy with the small dick and now she is dating this guy who she claims has a dick as big as her arm! Isn't that funny! I said see, good thing you didn't settle!!

Oh my god real estate is so slow I am about to starve to death over here. I have these listings that just wont sell and every realtor has sellers and no buyers. All my selllers are like when will my house sell???? Its so frustrating. and interest rates went up again, like that will help the housing market.

Anyways counting down the days until the u/s. its next friday. still tired, queasy and sore bb's.

[girliegirl]

Jennifer I do think the first af can be weird in whatever way. Do you have a ton of work to cram in before you leave? I think we are supposed to move in this weekend. Fun 4th of July! Oh well!


Is everyone treating this weekend as a holiday weekend? Even though the 4th is on Tues?

[Gwensmom]

Hi guys. Sorry I have gone missing for awhile, it has been crazy around my house. DH was gone for the past week and my DFS has been quite a handful! My mom was here for most of the time, but even she was pushed to the limit. DH is now home - THANK YOU GOD - so life can get back to normal. As you can see, I am a brave girl and I have made the leap into posting my ticker again. It does feel scary to be attempting a pregnancy again...though I decided I will risk hearache anytime if there is a chance at being a mommy. So here we go again! DH doesn't EXACTLY know what CD I am, and I think I am going to keep it that way. Right now, we are both enjoying being back together....so hopefully that will keep up until I O......which I hope is soon. Do you think I am being terribly sneaky? Please say no. :)

Beth - Good to see that AF finally showed for you, I know it can be a mixed feeling......but after that marathon of a cycle, I pray that your doctor can figure out a way to regulate you and get you that BFP very soon.

Girlie - I long for those pg symptoms...keep up the posts, I so enjoy reading what you have to say!! :) Oh, and I don't know if I posted after you put your picture up...if not, you and DH are stunning! What a cute couple you guys are. You are so TINY. Too cute.

Everyone else...Blessings and I hope to be posting more now that my mom is gone. Our computer is in her room, so while she was here I didn't get much computer time (my computer time is usually in the evening or mornings.....when she was sleeping!) Oh well. Hope all is going well for you guys. How are the preggos? I can't wait until all of us are pg again. I pray that is soon!

[sweetbabydreams]

Hi everyone -

Beth, sorry about the painful cramps -- this cycle has really put you through the wringer! Hopefully the next one will make it up to you with a BFP.

Girlie, good luck on the move this weekend! Boy do I hate moving, but at least you'll get it over with early in your pregnancy, then hopefully stay put after that. When is your u/s? I'm so excited for that!

Gwensmom, I'm happy to see your ticker! I've been having similar feelings of -- well, fear -- of getting back into trying and all the emotions that brings. But you're right, if a baby is the result, it's worth all the heartbreak along the way.

Mysteeq, I can't blame you for wanting to leave the food biz. I've done my time in restaurants, and while it can be a lot of fun, I can't say I was sad to move on! Good luck with whatever you do next.

As for me, I'm off to Hawaii tomorrow, so no Fertilichatting for me for a while! I've had a billion things to do before leaving -- and I still feel like there's all these loose ends at work. I hope I don't end up on a beach with a drink in one hand and my work cell in the other, trying to sort out some problem or other!

I hope everyone has a great 4th of July, etc.

Aloha -

Jennifer

[MrsBritney]

Morning ladies -

Jennifer, HAWAII!? Lucky duck. I have never been.. altho my sisters and mom and dad have been. .I was left out.. once again. .I dont know how that happens..
Someday I will go and experience it.. maybe in a few years.. that will be our like 5 or 6 year wedding anniversary trip.. that would be fabulous.

anyhow.. I am feeling better. Still have cramps, but I have just been really tired this week.. no energy.. dont want to workout.. I did a few crunches and stuff last night.. but I guess I better get my lazy ass up on the elliptical tonite and tomorrow.. I have to get it going, I only have 5 weeks till I go to california, and I need to lose like 5 lbs..
1 lb a week isn't that hard.. right? Ugh......
I am SO glad that I have started a new cycle.. you guys dont even know.. and to tell you the truth.. I was releived that I wasn't pregnant..
Not that I Wouldn't have been very happy to BE pregnant.. but I am still really wishy washy about getting pregnant while I am waiting to find another job.. you know what I mean? So I think thaT God really knows what he is doing!

Gwensmom - sorry that DFS was such a pain while DH was gone and your mom was there.. but at least you got thru it.. and you are ok now!!

How are our PREGGO?S
Amber.. I am getting worried about you because we usually hear from you on a daily basis..
Everything ok?
Lilli!! I know you are out there...!! come bACK TO US!!

Mysteeq - how are you doing?

Girlie - that is AWESOME that your friend dumped small dick man.. I would have dumped his ass too!! And that is AWESOME that she found a new man with a nicer sized unit! I bet she is a lot more "fulfilled" than she was before.. eh? And just so you know.. REal estate is slow EVERYWHERE right now.. the economy is slowing.. the interest rates are up.. and everything is shattered! But dont worry.. next year it will liven up again.. it always does..
All we need is another bad thing to happen to shatter the stock market - and then 3 months later people will be buying everything up again! :) hahah!!
Ok, that was bad. .because I dont really want that to happen. .but, you know how it goes!

OK.. off to work.. got crap to do!

beth

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, Have a great trip! Hopefully you will get some great pics to share with us. We will miss you next week!

Beth, af can really wear you out. you would think 5 lbs would be easy to lose, but I know how that goes. I last til about 10 a.m. on a diet and then its over! What are you guys going to ca for? sounds fun! Yeah, something has to give with the real estate market, its ridiculous. The stock market needs to stay up, interest rates come way down, gas go way way down and then I'll be happy!

Becky, I would be sneaky with dh too. sometimes they don't like all that pressure, they would rather you just handle it! You must be getting close to O aren't you? I planned on tricking dh last month and then I was having all those cramps at O and I told him I thought I was about to drop 10 eggs and then he told the waitress no to dessert because we had "business" to take care of! I about fell out of my seat, that is so not like him to say something like that!

[girliegirl]

Where the heck has victoria been? I bet AMber is in the middle of their move. WHat about TTc? and mickey is long gone.

Well I am off to take the kids to the pool. I need a tan since I can't self tan or go to the tanner!

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies! Just thought I'd drop in very quickly. Sorry I haven't posted in a few days, but Girlie is right I am SCRAMBLING to get everything ready to move tomorrow. What a frickin' nightmare! You never realize how much junk you have until you start packing it all up. I am a pack rat by nature and let me tell you...I have overcome that in the past few days. I am throwing out everything. Also, have been busy picking out new furniture and stuff and of all the inconvenient things my dad has decided that THIS weekend is a great weekend to visit with his new girlfriend (whom I hate). So, I really would love to write personals, but I'm just freaking out over here. When I get settled in by the end of the week I will write to all of you!
I'm also panicing some about this pregnancy. I've been feeling very good. Not pregnant at all. I know I'm just days away from the second trimester, but I'm feeling "normal." Also, still haven't found the baby's h/b with the doppler and there are women on the pregnant board saying they found theirs at like 9 weeks. So, I am just starting to have that little voice in the back of my head saying "missed miscarriage" again and it's making me more frustrated. I have a doctor's appt. on Wednesday. Hoping that after they tell me everything is ok I will finally relax.
Had a job interview yesterday. It went really well. I did not tell them I was pregnant, but it shouldn't have any bearing on my ability to perform the job. I think I might get the job. Supposed to hear back by the weekend. Anyway, that's me right now. Sorry this was all about me. I will catch up with all of you guys ASAP!
Have a great holiday weekend ladies! hugs!

[MrsBritney]

YAY!! My girls are back!

well, at least a couple of them
Girlie - Yea, one would think that losing 1 lb a week would not be that hard.
I am making up the lunches for my weeks here and I am trying really hard to make it all just small snacks.
I have toast and OJ for breakfast in the morning... and for dinner I am going to be having salads every night.
I am going to CA (alone) to hang out with my best friend (since 3rd grade) We get together at least once a year, and I go without DH because he doesn't really get along with her that well, and he doesn't know my friends down there very well.. we just hang out, do new things, go to random county fairs and do photo shoots. ;) It is a LOT of fun. So I am very excited that I Am going.. so I need to look good for the photo shoot.. I will be working out 4 days a week from now until then.. no matter how crappy I feel. I just need to make sure that a I am looking good.. I will also be outside TANNING in my hammock.. that is right.. my HAMMOCK.. Man I love that thing.
AF is really putting me thru the grinder this week.. I am so worn out and I feel like my body is working REALLY hard to get all of that crap out of me.. I have one of the heaviest flows I have ever had and it seems to just "squirt" out of me (HAH gross) if I dont have a tampon in for 5 minutes.. so I am going thru those like they are m&ms in a bowl!! :) hahaha
But I am feeling pretty good, and tonite I Will definitely be working out, maybe that will help with my fatigue and self loathing right now.. I feel like a fat beached whale.. I need to get back in shape - anyone have any secrets?

Amber - That is funny that you are a big pack rat.. and good that you are learning your lesson and tossing things.
DH and I Are going to be doing the same thing in the next couple weeks.. we are taking everything down from the attic and out of the garage, getitng rid of whatever we haven't seen or used in a year (with exception to christmas stuff) and we are house cleaning.. DOing the same thing in the closets and with out clothes and shoes.. We want a clean house...
AFter that, my next mission is to get all of the foreign dogs out of the house.. and onto their next place of life... Of course, that may all be thrown for a loop if my sister moves in when she comes back from New York, but at least she will be helping with the bills.. that will be really nice.
As for panicking aoubt hte pregnancy.. I have heard that some women dont hear the heartbeat until 13 weeks... of course you are always going to have those braggarts that get to hear everything 4 weeks earlier than everyone else.. but I will be praying for you and your bean and your DH that everything goes smoothly!
It is GREAT to hear from you!!

beth

[girliegirl]

Beth it will be hard to get motivated when you feel so icky, but I bet tommorow af will let up a little, then just think about how jealous all the other girls will be when they see your hot toned body!! I feel so gross and fat right now and I have no energy to even go for walks. I have had a 2 hr nap everyday and still am exhausted by 9:00. I am hoping to get more energy soon so I can at least walk every day.

Amber, I think its pretty normal to start feeling good at about 11-12 wks. Also I really think its hard for someone to use that doppler on themselves until you get further along. I know I stll get my panicky moments myself, but I am sure when you see the dr next wed, you will feel much better and you can relax again! Plus your baby is so small righ now, who knows where she is hiding out when they are that small they have to be sitting just right to pick up the heart beat. Just sit tight until wed.! I will be thinking of you. Good luck with the job! And the move.

[Gwensmom]

Happy Friday ladies. Do you guys have long weekends for the holiday? Some friends are flying in tomorrow to visit and will be here through the 4th. I always look forward to visitors until the day before they come, then I panic as I have so much to do to get ready...grocery shop, clean, laundry!! I do this anytime someone visits! Oh, and I also get myself all worked up anytime we go on a trip too. Please tell me I am not the only one! :)

So...last night DH asked me where I was in my cycle. He said he knew I had been sneaking on him about where I was. I cried as we talked...but in the end he did say that he felt he is ready to try this month....good thing, since I believe I o'd yesterday. I am anxious but hopeful and ready to get back on the journey.

Beth, sorry to hear AF is being such a witch for you. I hope she goes away very soon! I am wanting to lose about 5 lbs in a month.......my 10 year reunion is at the end of July.....but I don't think I have it in me to be disciplined! Sounds like you have a great gameplan......I think salads for dinner should work wonders! I buy the fresh spinach at Costco...and that forces me to eat a lot of salads - DH and DFS eat it too! Not only will you be eating healthy and dropping some pounds, but you will be getting your body prepared for a pg. Sounds like a great plan to me!

Girlie, that is so funny about your DH last cycle..."business to do". He sure did a great job with that "business" transaction!! :) Too funny. Do you think the waitress had a clue? I guess I am now relieved that DH knows that I want to try this cycle and is on board. It does take the spontanaity out of bding, but oh well. There are some things that we have to do, and this is one of them!!! I hope your fertility is contagious. When do you go in for an u/s? Right now I am living vicariously through you preggos.

Speaking of preggos, Amber....I totally believe in positive thinking. My prayer for you is that your anxiety is replaced by peace in knowing that your little one is growing inside you and is completely healthy and safe. Hang in there, you are at the point in your pg where symptoms typically fade. Congrats on nearing the 2nd trimester. :D

Jennifer, why am I writing you.......you are in HAWAII!!! Hope you are having the time of your life! Can't wait to hear all about it.

Okay, better get my day started. Blessings to you ladies.

[MrsBritney]

Hey Gwensmom -
What are you getting your "dad" started on, or with...? lol (check your last post)
AF is being ok with me now, she took a lot out of me for about 3 days, but now she is very light, and I think working out last night really did help.. I didn't want to, and I dreaded every bloody second of it.. but I put in 50 First Dates and watched it while elliptisizing.. :) Today, I will do 30 min on the elliptical, and then I will get on my exercise ball and do crunches and weight training.. I just need to start really going at it.
I am doing a breakfast burrito for Breakfast, and then a Salad for lunch today.. then I wont eat tonite because I have to work my second job... so I will have something REALLY lite in the morning, like a piece of toast and a glass of OJ and then I will work again tomorrow morning, have a SMALL lunch (16 reduced fat wheat thins and 5 pieces of deli meat) at work, and then two tacos at home...
Sunday I will workout again, and I will only be eating once that day (typical sunday eating shedule) .. we have church at 10.. and then are meeting my MIL for lunch/dinner at 1... so we will eat there and I wont be hungry again.. but I will probably work out after lunch.. and after we watch a movie.
I have been trying to buy a lot of fresh fruit and veggies so that I am FORCED to eat them and not waste them..
Seems to be working so far... *shrug* DH eats the fruit, but not the veggies.. only if I make a nice salad for him with chicken and ranch.. mmm.. ranch is the best.. I love it..
Man, I dont know why I am blabbing on about what I Am going to eat this weekend, I am SO lame!
AF should be gone by tomorrow, so that is good news..

Girlie - of COURSE you are exhausted!! You are PG!! silly lady! you will be tired for the next 20 years of your life!!! HaAAHHA (ok sorry, I just had to laugh for a second)
I believe that DH and I have decided that we are not going to formally "TTC" until October... whenever I get my new job. Until then, we will just be BDing whenever we feel like it.. :)

K.. I have to go.. burritos are here...

Beth

[MrsBritney]

OH ladies - Guess what arrived today>??

MY PASSION PARTY ORDER...!!!
And let me tell you.. Oh.... My..... GOD!!!!!!!!

I LOVE IT!

OK.. gotta get to work!

beth

[Gwensmom]

Beth......what did you get??? :D I feel sorry for DH, is he out of business?? :) Just kidding. Hope you have a GREAT weekend!!

Becky

[girliegirl]

Can't wait to hear about the new toy!Are you including dh in this or is it just for you. I think they are more fun with NO dh!

We are in the process of moving. Its terrible. I think my hormones are out of control I keep crying and saying I don't want to move that I want to stay here. We stayed at the new house last night and then this morning at 6:45 we woke up and in pulls a truck with one of the workers. SO dh asks me to get in the shower with him, I do we start fooling around, he says lets get back in bed so we go back to the bedroom, All i hear is the bull dozer on the lot next door, then dh looks out the window and says "oh my god, he's going to hit a gas line", throws some shorts on and out the door he goes. So there I am all alone. and my toys were at the old house! Not a great start to living in the subdivision. I told him we have no chance at a normal life out there.

[girliegirl]

Hope you all have a fun holiday weekend! I will check in when I can!

[MrsBritney]

Oh oh oh.. let me tell you.. this toy is JUST for me..
And also let me tell you.. it .... is.... AWESOME.
Shoot, it worked so well I wasn't prepared! (turn your head now if you dont want my little details)
I came so hard and so fast I was almost in shock.. so, of course, I had to keep going..
That thing is just about the best invention EVER!!! I dont need DH with that little guy around That is for sure..
But that is ok, because sometimes he is just not up for it, and I want some, so this is perfect for me!
Being all alone with myself has never been better!!

Girlie- I am sorry for the bad morning.. dont worry, your emotions are out of whack.. you will love that house just fine.. and if you dont.. you can always sell!! But that sucks that you were in the middle of your "session" when dh just got up and ran out the door.. I hope he finds a way to make it up to you!!!

Gotta get ready for work!
beth

[girliegirl]

What is that toy and where do I get one?? I need a new fun toy, I am bored with the ones I have.

So how is everyone? Is today business as usual for everyone or still the holiday? we have been moving all weekend, although I have not been up to par at all. so exhausted. I help a little then take a nap, which is soo not like me. normally I would just have it all handled in a day by myself, now dh is having to do alot. I am eating like there is no tommorrow and I feel so fat. I mean i seriously look 10-12 wks pg right now. its ridiculous. and the only thing that keeps me feeling not sick is eating all the time. and not salads and low fat foods either. But I am not complaining. I am happy to have symptoms. I am just a little worried because i feel so fat, I just know this will be such a struggle to get this weight off.

So where is everyone? Beth I was at BBB and thought of you this weekend! That is a fun store!

[MrsBritney]

Hey there Girlie!

BBB *IS* an awesome store! I just love it there!! And I love my discount.. :) hee hee
Today is business as usuall.. I am doing lunch with my boss and co-worker today.. should be a good day.. I will go home, workout, lay out in the sun and just hang out and watch the Chronicles of Narnia!
I am really not doing anything important tomorrow.. DH has to work, so I Am stuck at home all day, hopefully I dont spend the day eating..
I am trying really hard to eat better.. maybe if I workout and lay in the sun tomorrow I wont have a lot of time to eat all day!
how is everyone??
How are our pregnant ladies?
Amber? Lilli?
Amber - how is the move going? you feeling any better?

ANYONE ELSE out there besides me, Girlie and Gwensmom?? :)

beth

[girliegirl]

beth sounds like a fun relaxing day to me! how is the diet going? have you ever tried the south beach diet? i can usually lose pretty quick on that if i get the right attitude and stick to it. when is your trip, is it next week? Its been raining here all weekend so enjoy your az sunshine!!

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies! Sorry I've been MIA for a few days. That move was a nightmare on top of the fact that my dad was in town for three days while I was trying to move and unpack. The day we moved we didn't finish until after three in the morning! Yikes! It's done now and I'm just waiting for my bedroom furniture to be delivered on Thursday.

Becky, thank you so much for the prayer! How exciting that DH is ready to ttc again! I know that you will get a BFP very soon and we will be counting down the days together until the birth of our little ones. Oh, and you are totally not the only one who freaks before a trip or a visit. I haven't relaxed in days with my dad here or before he came! I just didn't know when I was going to have time to unpack and settle in when I had to entertain! I always feel like my guests aren't having a good time and I worry so much. I hope you're having a nice visit!

Beth- Sounds like the diet and exercise is going well. I love to work out when I'm on AF because I really think it eases cramps and back ache and moves things along. By the way, I love the movie 50 first dates. Have you seen his new one Click? It is so good! I bawled like a baby. My DH was laughing at me. I was literally sobbing in the theater! I just love Adam Sandler. He is so funny. DH and I are big movie going people. By the way, the toy sounds great. When I was packing there towards the end I just threw random things in a box and one thing I randomly threw in a box was my vibrator and now I can't find it and I'm worried when and where exactly it's going to turn up! Oh no! Any plans for the 4th?

Girlie- How is the pregnancy going? Any m/s yet? Mine got pretty bad around week 8ish right when I thought it would be fine. I had more of a "I don't want to eat ANYTHING" problem instead of a vomiting thing. Sorry that DH abandoned you in the bedroom!! It's good that you are still in the mood. I barely had sex at all in the first trimester. I think we did it maybe MAYBE three times. Now I'm starting to get my drive back. I feel you on the hormones making you cry thing. I tear up during car commercials! I hope the move hasn't been bad on you. I was worried when we were moving that I was lifting too much, but I think I'm fine. Are you all settled in yet? What are your plans for today?

TTC, Amanda, Jennifer, Victoria, and long lost Mickey and anyone else, how are you guys doing? Check in when you can!

As for me, I finally finally found the h/b on the doppler last night for 10 seconds. DH and I got so frickin excited I almost peed my pants and then it was gone and I couldn't find it again. I didn't try that hard though because I was ready for bed. I had been drinking juice all night so I think the little guy was all over. So, now I feel a little more relaxed. I'm really excited about starting my new job on Monday too. It will really make DH and I more comfortable financially!

I hope everyone has a nice 4th. I'm going to spend mine shopping for new work clothing since my DH works 7-7 today.

[Manda]

Just thought I would pop in and say hi and update you all. It has been 8 weeks since my d&c and I don't know what the heck is going on. I know, I know with some people it takes FOREVER to get AF goin again. So here's the deal....last month I thought I was getting her on cd 29. I had cramping and alittle brown discharge only when I wiped. So on cd 13 and 14 I felt like I was ovulating. So now here I am again on cd 29 and the same thing is goin on. I am cramping like she may be coming but this time no brown stuff and still no blood. what in the heck!!! :confused:

[Manda]

YAY! She finally arrived! I'm officially back on the TTC wagon!:D

[MrsBritney]

Amanda!
Congrats on AF arriving!! YAY for ttc again!! Isn't that feeling great?!
Good luck with all of the BDing coming your way!!

Amber - Moving sounds like a nightmare!! I hate moving! It is the worst thing in the world!! :)
The diet is actually going pretty well.. I have exercised the last 3 days in a row ( I exercise 4 days a week usually) and I am doing cardio every day, and switching off with the toning. one day legs, the next arms, and the next abs and back.
I will keep that up.. but I take Saturdays off because I work BBB all day saturdays so I am on my feet all day long!

I bought a lot of yogurt and sald fixings, in fact I am about to go and make a salad right now..
Avacado, chicken, carrots, lettuce, green peppers .. then I have taco salad fixings too for work this week.. along with a salad complete with greens, peppers, tuna fish (chunk light) and a dressing made with olive oil, lemon juice and fresh pepper.. I love it!!
I also bought a bunch of strawberries, and apples.. I love eating apples and peanut butter for breakfast..
Do you guys think that is a good diet?
I, of course, wont stop eating home made tacos on SAturday nights.. however, I am cutting out the coronas... So sad.. I know.. but I figure 4 weeks without beer and I should have taken a HUGE step in the process of cutting out useless calories! :)
My new toy is very fun.. it is my first toy.. and I just love it.. but I have to "hide" it.. because sometimes people come in our house and start looking around.. so I have it all packaged up and in the closet!
Girlie - I have tried the south beach diet, but there are so many foods that I dont like that it wasn't working for me.. I just have to eat more salads and eat smaller portions.. that is my problem.. portion control.. if I love something, I want a lot of it.. so I just have to learn to slow down when I eat! I am by no means fat.. I am a size 8... 5 foot 6... so I am average, but I have been thinner.. and I better lose the weight now.. because I hear it is harder to lose it after you have been pregnant.. :) and I hope to be pregnant by the end of the year!
my trip is not till the first weekend of August... I can't wait!!

I will talk more later.. got a salad to make!

beth

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!
Anyhow.. I have to go and get my salad ready...

[MrsBritney]

Uhm..... hello?

[girliegirl]

Hi everyone!
We have been moving. its starting to get a little old! I have most of the old house cleaned up so now I can just get the rest of the things when I feel like it. Hope everyone is doing well. seems like a weird week with the 4th being on a tues.
AMber are you guys all moved? glad you got your doppler to work. Can you find the hb easier now, or is it still hard?

Beth how is the diet going? You still have alot of time until your trip, if it was me I would wait until 2 days before and starve myself!

How is everyone else doing?

[MrsBritney]

Hi there people.
I am sad that most of you have not updated..
I always look forward to coming here, but it seems like we are getting less and less with the updates!
*sigh*
Oh well...
My trip is the first weekend of august.. I am doing well on my diet, I took last night off of working out due to the fact that I fell asleep on the way home. I will be working out tonite, most likely 2-30 min of cardio, and tonite is my arm workout, along with some crunches.. so things should be ok.
I will be making salads for dinner, at least for me.. today for lunch I have a taco salad, minus the fatty tortilla shell.. :) It has avacado, black beans, cheese, romaine lettuce and taco chicken. VERY tasty.
In fact, I am going to go ahead and have my salad now! mmmmm!!!!!
OK.. ladies, I am CD 10.. temps are still looking good, but I am not sure how I am going to progress this cycle.. we will have to wait and see...
How is everyone doing?
How was your 4th of July?
and DID ANYONE CHECK OUT THE ANAL SEX THREAD In the General Thread?! WOW....

beth

[girliegirl]

Your salad sounds very good!! I did see the anal sex thread. quite a popular thread!! I have no interest in that or anything else going in my butt. thank you very much! How about the beta hpt thread?? They have quite a little debate going on there! I figured I would keep my mouth shut on that one! But I will tell you, I mean you could lose the baby at anytime so if you want to be real technical about it, The only truly for sure + would be the birth of a live healthy baby!! I get her point, but really a + on a hpt means you are pg, whether you stay pg for 10 min, 2 wks, 2 mnths or 10 mnths!!

[girliegirl]

So what is the ttc plan for this month? Are you all in, or just winging it or what?? I think you should get some fertility blend and see if that regulates your cycle.

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies!
Amanda! So glad to see that AF arrived and you are back on the ttc journey. I hope you get your bfp really soon. I think we have proved on this thread that it is often times true that you are more fertile after a loss!

Beth- Sorry I haven't been on as often. The move and finding a job and now getting settled in to both my new house and getting my job stuff set up has taken a lot of time. Also, my parents are in Europe for a while and I am over at their house comforting their dog a lot. I am mostly settled in now so I will be on a lot more. I feel like we have lost a few members though. Victoria seems really busy. TTC and Mickey have been MIA sometimes. They must be really busy with the summertime too and Jennifer is in Hawii, that b*tch. (just kidding) Wow! I'm proud of you for the diet. I could never eat that many salads. I have a pasta addiction! I must have missed it though. Where are you going on your trip? Oh man I wish I could have a vacation somewhere. I am jealous. I did see the anal sex thread! I laughed for a while. It always surprises me how many people have anal sex. I don't think it's a bad thing or anything. I have never done it, but until a drinking game in college I thought that it was a rumor and no one really had anal sex. I guess I'm naive!

Girlie- I can now find the baby's heartbeat with the doppler all the time in seconds. I think the problem honestly was that I was looking too low. When I went to the doctor yesterday she searched low forever too and then she went up high about and inch below my bellybutton and there was the heart beating away. Since then I find her up near my bellybutton every night. I had no idea my uterus was already this high in my stomach. Is that weird? All the books I read said my uterus should now be peaking out from under my pelvic bone but mine is OUT. I'm a really long waisted girl. I don't know if that has anything to do with it and let me tell you about preggo bellies. I should post a picture because I have GOT ONE. I feel huge and when I got on the scale I was terrified (at the doctors) but I have only gained 4 pounds!
I'm glad the move is going good. Aren't you sick of it? Oh man I am. I feel like the boxes will never end. I think the cleaning the old house part sucks though. Good thing you got that over with. I'll tell you though it sure is nice to be moved into a clean new house! How is the pregnancy coming? Are you and DH still bding? I didn't feel like it at all in the first trimester. I just now got my sex drive back.

Funny story. I had my new bedroom furniture delivered today and when the guy got their he said oh will you help me lift up your mattress and boxspring and lean them against the wall so I did and right there (we both looked dead at it) was my vibrator, a tube of what looked to him like lube (was actually the jelly I put on my belly to use the doppler), and toilet paper. I turned so red. I was mortified!!! He just act like nothing happened and I scooped it up and threw it all the in the closet. I wanted to die until they left!
Anyway, we didn't do much for the fourth since we were tired from moving. We ate some dinner, watched tv, and then looked at fireworks from our porch. How did everyone else's go?

[AmberinGSO]

Beth- Yea what is the plan on that? Are you trying this cycle? I always get super pumped when you get towards ovulation time for a new cycle. Maybe you could try the robitussin thing this time and get really good cm. That seems to work for some.

Girlie- I posted that on the hpt/beta thread. You can lose it at anytime. What does it matter if you take a +hpt or get a beta. I mean I guess you can find out sooner if you will lose it, but they both mean you did in fact conceive. I think that the girl who started it is just really burned by the fact that she got so excited about her pregnancy (as we all do) and then her beta confirmed she was losing it. We all know how hard that is, but honestly I don't think that is a reason to say hpts are useless. My pregnancy wasn't viable in December, but it did last until six weeks. To know with betas I had lost it I would have had to have a beta every week!

[girliegirl]

Hey amber glad you are settled in! That is weird your uterus is that high, but mine always dud that too. but I am really short waisted so I figured it was because i am so short and narrow in the hips there is no where for my utterus to go but up and out. I look huge too. I feel so fat. I am sick to my stomach all day long and the only thing that makes me feel better is non stop eating. I have my u/s tommorrow morning, so we will see what is up. That is soo funny about your vibrator! You know that guy will tell all his friends about it!! he probably thinks you are one cool chick! I need to go find mine, god knows what box its in!!

[MrsBritney]

Oh yipee! I am so happy Amber and Girlie are here with me!
I am right now eating a REALLLLLLY yummy salad.. OMG, this taco salad thing is just the BEST. Lettuce, spicy chicken, black beans, avacado and cheese!! All healthy for me! And I am eating it and it is like one of the BEST salads EVER! It is hard for me to get tired of salads when they are so full of the things that I LOVE to eat! Wish you guys could be sharing with me.. but I am pretty selfish with my food!

Girlie -sounds like the move is going well.. and I bet you are glad to be in a new house that is all clean and fresh! I can't believe you are pregnant and moving, I would just die!

Amber- YOU TOO!! pregnant and moving... I am proud of you guys.. but man, Amber, you have GOT to learn not to leave your vibrator around for the help to see!! HAHHA that TOTALLY made me laugh!!

I am with you guys about anal sex.. I did it ONE TIME, with my FIRST boy friend, we were together for 4 years and we did EVERYTHING (with exception to sex with other people together) and I didn't like it, so I will never do it again.. my DH wants to do it, he used to do it with his ex, and I say NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER! Oh well, too bad! my butt.. not his! :)
As for TTC.. I am not really "on" this month.. I guess we will try if it seems right.. but I am focusing now on applying for jobs and seeing what I can get... you know? i am aiming high, and I would LOVE to find a job that will allow me time to train and really reach my full potential! I would love to get into the world of accounting, but I need someone who is willing to help me thru another year or two of schooling while giving me experience at the same time..only time will tell.
If I get pregnant.. that would be great, if not, I am not going to cry.. I am hoping to get pregnant around october... but we will just have to wait and see.
I have an appt with my OB next TUesday to talk to her about my long long LOOOONG cycles.. so we will see what is up with that then!!
btw- Amber, that is SO exciting to be able to hear the heartbeat! WOO HOO!!
And no, I didn't see the beta/hpt thread, but I Agree, no matter how far along you are you could lose the baby at ANYtime.. and once you get that positive HPT you are pregnant, no matter how long it lasts!!!

Beth

[Gwensmom]

Hi Ladies

Sorry to go MIA, we had a houseful for the holiday weekend and am just now getting life back to somewhat normal. At least I am NOT moving......I feel for you Girlie and Amber. Moving is SO my least favorite thing. Right now, DH and I are starting to dream up ways to just have our house grow with us, so that we will never have to move again. We have a decent sized lot, so there is the potential to add-on. If I never have to pack a moving box again I will be so happy. We moved into our current house when I was about 7 weeks pg with Gwen. I totally didn't do much, we had just told my parents and brother (who were helping us move).....so they really wouldn't let me do much. No complaints from me. I hope you guys have lots of help! I would come and pitch in if I could.

Beth, I totally think you are going to be pg WAY before October. Since you guys are taking it easy.....that is totally when it will happen. I say definietly shoot for that dream job!! Don't ever sell yourself short......you deserve whatever your little heart desires. I am so bummed I don't have the fixins for a salad, as you have me totally wanting one now. yumm!

Amber, that vibrator story REALLY killed me. So glad that was you and not me!! :D Are you renting the dopplar? (sp?) How encouraging to be able to hear your little one's heart whenever you want! I may have to look into that when my time comes again.

I am trying to hard to think positively about my future as a mom. I know my time will come, I just wish I knew when. I am trying so hard to not obsess about my chart and cycle this month......but as you all know, that can be so hard. I think my temps got really messed up early in the month when I had a viral sinus infection....and then did antibiotics to kick it. So...who knows. I don't know exactly when AF should come as it has only been one cycle since the m/c......

Okay, DFS needs some attention. He had a great day at school (he goes to summer school)....so we are going to play some games and have a "fun" dinner! For him that means chicken nuggets (the kind from Costco that you bake- not too unhealthy) potatoes and green beans (he LOVES green beans!).

Oh, I told DH about the Anal thread and he made me feel SO good....he said he has no interest in that! Whew! Interesting thread none-the-less.

[MrsBritney]

Gwensmom!! Hello there!
Sorry about the houseful for the holiday weekend, it sucks to have so many people around, even when you are so glad they are there and so blessed to be able to be with them.. it can really take a toll!!My friends here think that I will be pg before October, but I dont know about that.. I am still temping and charting, but it is more out of habit than it is obsession anymore.. I see that my temps are down, and I am not bding because I dont particularly want to stress about it.. however, I am sure that when I am least expecting it, I will get pg, probably RIGHT when I accept whatever new job I am going to get! right? That is how it ALWAYS happens!
I am totally going to go for the gold, I mean, why the hell not! I am only this age once, and who gets these opportunities ?? I mean I KNOW when we are getting laid off.. and I am getting severence and all of my PTO paid out, so not only could I be getting a better job, but I will have some extra money to be able to pay off some bills that we have accumulated over time! So that is fantastic! I think that I just need to focus on all of the GOOD that is going on in my life and know that God has a PLAN for me!!!OH.... you should SOOO go out and buy some black beans, avacado (ripe), cook up some chicken in some taco seasoning, throw in some cheese and fresh lettues (and tomatoes and onions if you like those) and have a FABULOUS salad!! I am addicted!!! It was GREAT, and I am STILL Full!!! 3 hours later!I am glad you are trying to think positively about TTC Again.. I know it is hard but it it helps to be excited about it again... the let downs are hard, but we have to have some let downs so that we can be truely happy for the uplifting happiness we feel when we get our BFPS!!! right?! SO.. bd bd bd bd.. and get it going so we can share in some joy with you!

By the way, Amber - what ever came of that job interview? you took the job... right?

beth

[AmberinGSO]

Becky- Moving does totally suck. If you can stay in your house forever, do it! Unfortunately, we won't be staying here forever so, I will have to endure that nightmare again. I know I will be unpacking boxes forever! Oh well, it's worth it (almost) to have a nice clean place with freshly painted walls. I am renting the doppler. It is great now, but it hasn't worked until a few days ago. So, when you rent, rent late. I don't know how all these women on here saying that they heard it at 8 weeks are doing it. They must have professional doppler skills. I'm glad you are trying to be positive about this cycle. I know how hard it can be getting going again after a loss. I really believe that God has a little baby up there just waiting for you to love and like Beth said, we all appreciate it that much more because we have experienced loss and no what a miracle it really is. Did you actively try this month? Your temps can definitely be messed up by sickness or one thousand other things. Your chart does have a clear thermal shift though so it seems that you did ovulate! How long are your cycles normally? You are going to try again next month for sure though right? Sorry so many questions! DFS likes green beans!? Wow! I tried to get the children I nannyed for to eat green beans all the time...it never worked. The only vegetable I could get two out of three to eat was corn. That's when I started feeding them "chicken" patties that were really vegetable patties! Glad to hear you got to spend the weekend with family!

Beth- I did end up taking the job and I got hired through a head hunting agency and when I told her I was pregnant she said she didn't think they would want me and not to get my hopes up. Then the woman from the company called me and said we do want you and we don't care that you are pregnant! I was so excited! It is a really good job and I will only be about two miles from my house and 4miles from my doctor! I start monday. I agree with Becky that when you relax and just have sex when you want is when you will get the bfp. It is really hard to stop temping and not notice that you are ovulating though! I definitely think you will be pregnant before October if you keep just having sex randomly! Are you looking for a new job right now or will you wait until this one is finished?

Well, I guess I should get the rest of these boxes unpacked today...right? I was looking around over on the We're pregnant thread today and saw the "August Mommies Home Stretch" thread. That kind of bummed me out knowing I was supposed to have a little baby in my arms in less than four weeks. I'm just glad God saw fit to bless me again, but I will always miss that little one.
Have a great Friday ladies!

[MrsBritney]

Amber - congrats on the job! That is so exciting.. I am glad that they didn't care that you were pregnant.. it is always good to know that you are wanted!
I have already started looking for a job.. unfortunately, I am looking for a job that I am not really qualified for.. I majored in Biology.. and in my senior year realized it was a mistake to be pre-dental because after interning for the summer with a dentist I realized I didn't want to do it.. so I am looking at staying in the finance field, and maybe getting into accounting.. I dont know what I want to do yet, but I am trying to change my career path..
All I need is ONE company to give me a chance and let me learn... I know I can do it.. so I am setting my sights HIGH! That is the only way to roll.
God will give me the right opportunity when He sees fit.. but I figured, better start now! Why wait right?
I dont know if I Will be pregnant before October.. but I figure that it is all in His Plan, so I best just be happy when it happens! Right?
I am eating Apple slices with peanut butter right now and it is HEAVEN!
WHat is everyone else up to today....??
beth

[purplerain]

Hi Guys!!! So sorry for not keeping in touch! I have been busy on vacation and doing house stuff and getting ready for my frozen embryo transfer. I thought I would try to stay off the site as much as possible this time instead of getting obsessed like I usually do. I bumped up my accupuncture to twice a week this last month, and bumped up my workouts with the trainer to 5 times a week too. I have added alot of organic foods and have tried to watch what I eat, but to my trainers dismay, portion control is where I have the problem!!!! Anyway just to let you all know, I had my transfer yesterday so I was on strict bedrest all day yesterday and canstart moving around today. My embryos, they said looked excellent and they gave us a picture of both of the ones they transfered in! Talk about early baby pictures! I can't really work out again till next week so I am taking it easy this weekend. I have my pregnancy test on July 24th, so I am keeping my fingers crossed!!!

Amber-Wow! How is the baby doing, its so exciting to hear the heartbeat! COngrats on the new job too!

Beth--How are you? Hows the job hunt going? I think you will be preggo here soon too!

Gwens-How are you doing? WHere are you in this cycle?

By the way ladies, the anal sex and vibrator story cracked me up!

Talk to ya soon!
Mickey

[AmberinGSO]

Mickey! Yay! So good to hear from you! We always were wondering where you were and how your were doing. It sounds like you have been doing great. Five times a week at the gym! Wow! That is great. Sounds like you have got your body in EXCELLENT condition for those little embryos. How exciting is that. I cannot wait for July 24th! This is totally your month! I just know it. That is really neat that they gave you pictures too. Will be something extra special in your baby book. What do they look like? Just little circles? By the way, portion control has always been a problem of mine too. If I like what I'm eating, man, I just want to help myself! The baby is doing good. Thank you for asking. I made it to the second trimester pretty much (I'll be thirteen weeks on Sunday) so I'm starting to relax some. The heartbeat is strong! I am just so excited for you. Only a little over two weeks until you get your BFP!

Beth- A degree in biology huh? I have a degree in chemistry. You know, you may not like dentistry, but have you ever considered a career in the biology field or worked a job in that field? I'm kind of biased. Science is really my passion. In college people were always like "why in the world would you major in something like that?" and I just thought why in the world wouldn't I!! That is really awesome of you to go outside of your field and seek something that really interests you though. I bet you will find the perfect job for you. If you could get back into school for accounting I think it would be completely worth it if it's something you are interested in. I learned a few tough years in school are nothing compared to a lifetime in a job you love. I hope I really like this job I start on Monday. I think I will.
I only have one dilemma. The job I took was really my second choice before I interviewed with them. I had my heart set on another company since high school. I did a phone interview with my dream company about six weeks ago and they never returned my call for an in person interview. I accepted the new job and it's close to home and seems like a challenging and exciting opportunity. Of course yesterday, the company I had been wanting to work for called me (I didn't answer because I didn't recognize the number) and wants to bring me in for a face to face interview. Now, I'm really torn. Do I call them back and do it? The job I already have knows I am pregnant and does not care and the managers are so nice. This new job doesn't know, they are farther away, but I know they will pay about 8 thousand more. However, the job I'm in now I will get a huge pay raise after a year. Decisions decisions. Also, I don't think I can hide my pregnancy during the interview... it's sticking out there.
Sorry so long. I got to rambling!

Girlie, where are you??!

[lilliput]

OK ladies, you can put me in the stocks. And then throw rotten diet foods and vegetables and fruits and the uneaten portions of your portion-control-oriented meals at me. I deserve it! I have been very delinquent in posting. No real excuse (like moving...), just generally not logging on all that much, and then generally just reading and only rarely posting! So, if I fail to be completely current on everyone, I apologize!

Mickey - yay! I thought of you on the 5th when I got home from work, and wondered how things went!! Here's to a 2ww that becomes a very exciting and happy 40ww!! Glad to hear that you have been taking such good care of yourself too!

Beth - umm toys. DH got me a great "little" gift for V-day too, in the hopes of jazzing up our life, but we are both so beat after work than jazzing things up usually means any intimacy lasting more than a half hour.....so I'll have to break out my little friend again! It is fun though..... I did check out the anal sex thread, never had it, never really want to either.....just something about it irks me....

Becky - glad to hear DH is on board again TTC!! WOOHOOO!

Girlie - how have you been feeling? I can't believe how many people on this board in general are moving these days....we've got at least a year to go. Good news is our future realtor thinks we can get way more for our house than we originally thought we'd be able to. So that was comforting, since every little cent is just going to get rolled right into the construction of our new house....

As for me, got to hear the h/b at the doc's office last week. It was really wild....way more intense than seeing it flicker on a screen, I have to say. I've been feeling pretty good, until today, but I think that is just being overtired, which even when I am not pg makes me nauseous. Still working quite a bit, but managing to keep things relatively under control (like I get out of throwing 35-55 lb. hay bales in the hot, hot barn this summer - yay!). It's just a busy time of year up here. I don't have a major pooch yet, still wearing regular clothes (thank goodness b/c I just bought new summer clothes this past February), but everyone else maintains I'm showing. It's called gas and bloating folks! I've decided that suddenly DH has developed a sympathy belly. Not sure what to do about that, I think that I feed him too much.....as long as he doesn't get as big as I will be! :D

Glad to hear you are all so well! Hugs all around!

[Gwensmom]

Happy Friday everyone! With our visitors here all last weekend, I am in need of a relaxing weekend home. We are taking DFS to a water park on Sunday with some of his little friends, but other than that, we are going to be homebodies! I can't wait.

Beth & Amber...we did TTC this month. DH got home from his trip the day or two before I THINK I ovulated. But...like I said I was sick right before then...so not sure of anything this month. A friend recommended a book for me to read "supernatural childbirth"....I read it last week, and it has helped me to BELIEVE that God does want me to have a child and my time will come. I feel a lot more relaxed this 2WW, but of course if AF comes I will be devastated just the same. No use kidding myself about that!!

Mickey...so good to hear from you. I am sending you postive vibes and wishes........can't wait to hear your good news! Congrats on the workouts!! You are inspiring...you and Beth both now have me feeling like I need to turn my workouts up a notch! :)

Victoria...What a special time to HEAR your baby's heartbeat. I am sure you loved every second. After hearing Amber talk about using her dopplar, I am thinking I may look into renting one when my time comes. Good to hear from you, you are in my thoughts!

Girlie.....hope you are having a great Friday. How is the sickness? I forget are you experiencing nausea?

For all you preggos......any hunches as to BOY or GIRL? Have you been thinking of names? Just curious. Okay, off to scramble up and easy dinner for my silly family I love.

Jennifer..........ALOHA! When are you coming back????? When will it be my turn????? :)

[Gwensmom]

Me again. My chart is starting to get the better of me. Low temps......pretty sure it is a no go this month. I am going to spend my morning and early afternoon scrapbooking....hopefully to get my mind of my damn temperature!!! I hope you all are enjoying your Saturday!!

DFS is watching some toons, DH is off at the gym..... I am sulking!! I am scrapbooking the last year of my dog's life. I am close to done, probably have about 10 pictures left to scrap...Scrapbooking Bella's life is my way of capturing each year of my and DH's life too...as she goes pretty much EVERYWHERE with us, so one look at "her" scrapbook and you know what DH and I did. Any of you scrapbook? I have only done 4 albums now, wedding, Bella birth-6 months, Bella 6 months-18 months, and of course my Gwen's album. Okay, I am not the geek that I sound :D well, maybe I am. Do you love me anyhow? Okay...off I go to turn my day around. Wish me luck. Blessings.........

[Gwensmom]

Okay, once again. Those of you that chart......do you think I even O'd this month? Maybe it is too soon after m/c and my body isn't back to a normal cylce. Any insights would be helpful. xo

[girliegirl]

Becky, I don't know alot about temp charts, I have never done them, but I wouldn't get too worked up about it yet. I really didn't think I was pg this time because I didn't feel a thing, but i took a test for the heck of it and sure enough a faint bfp! So don't give up yet. that sounds like a good book that you read. I do not scrap book but i would like it if someone would do it for me!! I have tons of pics, in piles!

Beth, excited to follow you with the job hunt and yes I am sure about the time you find the great paying dream job you will be knocked up tired and sick!!

Victoria, glad to hear from you!! Sounds like you are doing well. How exciting to hear that h/b what was it? a girl or boy heart beat? any names yet?

Mickey, how exciting for you! I can hardly wait to hear about your test. why do you have to test until the 24th? seems like you could test sooner.

[girliegirl]

Amber, I think if you are going to work after you have the baby you should take the job close to home and with nice understanding people! It will be hard enough to juggle a baby and work without having to drive so far also.

I had my U/S yesterday. it went good. we heard and saw the heartbeat and she said everything was measuring exactly 6w 4 days, which I was. She said so far everything looks perfect. so that was reasurring. It was so weird to see this blob with a flickering heart beat! I had never seen an u/s that early.

FOr those who asked how I am feeling, I am super exhausted and naseous all day until about 6 p.m. The only thing that takes the edge off is eating and eating. so I have already gained a few pounds and I feel really fat. I think I may have to trade my bikini in for a tankini. I am serious about that too. Other than that, people are pisssing me off right and left, so i guess maybe its the hormones. I have about had it with dh and his cranky ass. so other than that, I feel fine!

[Gwensmom]

I am not going to temp for the next 5 days. I decided this since I have been letting my morning temp control my day. I seem to have an obsessive personality, so I don't want taking my temp to ruin the next few days up until when AF is due. So...if by next Friday AF isn't here, then I will temp. This may seem like a silly deal to those of you who don't temp......but for me and my obsession I think it is a good step. :)

Girlie......great news about the u/s. Did you get pictures? I am sure it was so helpful to see your little one and hear those precious words that everything looks perfect!! I hope to be complaining of hormonal imbalances and nausea soon along with you......though by the time it is me, you will be sailing past the first trimester! :) I can't believe Amber and Victoria are already into the second trimester, time is going fast!!

Becky

[Gwensmom]

can you tell I am having a hard time focusing on my scrapbook today? like my new avatar? that is my bella and my dfs on bella's 2nd birthday (may 30th).

[AmberinGSO]

Hey Becky! I think you definitely did ovulate. I wouldn't worry about the drop in temp today. It could be a fluke. You should see the chart I had the month of my BFP. I really cried a few times that cycle because I thought I was having an anovulatory cycle. I'm serious. I cried my eyes out. I really really think you ovulated though. I know temps can control your whole day from experience, but maybe just temp one more time tomorrow and see if it comes back up. Could be an implantation dip. I love the new picture. How frickin cute! Also, I used to scrapbook, but have gotten out of it as of late. I think I will have to pick it up again with the baby on the way.
Will write more later!

[Gwensmom]

this has to be a record for me 5 postings in one day. hope i am not driving you all crazy....i am driving myself crazy today, so i thought i would like some company! ;)

amber, shame on you.....i was all set to not temp tomorrow.....but i GUESS one more day of my compulsion wouldn't be that bad. we are having a fun day too (going to a water park with DFS), so even if my temp is low i should be able to have a good day. thanks for the encouragement about my ovulating.....i hope you are right. i am a sporadic scrapbooker!! i get going and then work feverishly for like a week or two (told you i have a compulsive personality!)...but then once the book is done i don't scrapbook again for months if not years. when you get back into it...i will be all for hearing about what you are doing.

gotta run to the grocery store....buying veggies, thanks to BETH!! :)

[MrsBritney]

OK ladies- it is weird that you all are more active on the weekends than you are during the week!
I am jealous that I have missed so much!
Mickey!! Congrats on the transfer! I am crossing all of my fingers and toes for you!! I hope it works out!!!
Lilli!!! nice to hear from you.. glad you got to hear the heartbeat.. that is FAN FREAKIN TASTIC!!!
Girlie- you got to SEE THE heartbeat! ahh. .I am stoked for you.. and I feel a bit humbled... only because I was not going to attempt to try the next couple months.. but now I dont know. you guys are all so happy!! Maybe we will!! I will find out more at my OB appt on Tuesday!

Gwensmom - I am glad you seem to be on the wagon. .I totally think that you ovulated.. just keep temping.. and keep going for it.. it WILL Happen!!


Amber! I just love ya girl.. you make me smile!
I dont have a lot of time, we have company!!
But I just wanted to say that it is nice to see all of you back!
I have to get going.. but more tomorrw.. I am drinking some LITE coronas.. because of the diet.. but tomorrow.. back on the wagon.. and working out and trying to be a good girl.. but I figure if I get pregnant.. there wont be many more of these days where I can have fun and drink and be merry!!
I love you all..
Off to my company!!

beth

[Gwensmom]

Hi guys....so I totally slept in and didn't test because it would have been too late anyhow. It was a great day here though......we just got home EXHAUSTED from the water park we took DFS to. However, when we got there we discovered this kid that has been SO excited about going, is actually terrified of the water!!! WHO KNEW! Sooooooo, after about 2 hours of crying and wading through the shallow water, he started getting more and more comfortable. It was hard work, watching him and helping him to feel safe and secure. DH and I are so wiped out, DFS too......probably an early night for us here.

Beth...hope you had a nice time with your company, and live it up with the lite coronas!!! :) IF AF comes this week, that will be me too. Of course my advice for you would be to TTC now.....but you know where my head is! :)

Time for dinner......big spinach salad with chicken, avocado, yellow peppers, tomato and hard-boiled egg. Yumm. :)

[mysteeq]

Hi ladies im still here .Howz everyone doing?

[girliegirl]

Mysteeq, nice to hear from you. Take your time and find a job you would enjoy! Hopefully you will be pg next month. Are you feeling better emotionally?

Beth Is your apt tommorrow? Make sure to let us know what happens. I can see where you get excited thinking about ttc, but I also think your laid back plan is good too, so you don't get to obsessed with it, like I did! I guess see what the dr says and then you can decide from there.

Becky, sounds like a fun but exhausting day at the water park. will he want to go again sometime? How are you feeling? any signs of anything yet? Have you ever had your progesterone and all that checked so when you get pg next time you know everything is o.k.? Just curious.

AMber when do you start the job??

How is everyone else??

I am at the old house, we don't have internet at the new house yet. My oldest daughter is at drivers ed right now, can you believe that??? my other daughter went to horse camp with her horse yesterday!! She was very excited, she is going to do a jumping competition on sat. Let me tell you girls save your money now these kids are damn expensive! Drivers ed was $350. and camp was $900. thats not counting all the horse stuff she needed. That was just this week, every week its something else.

[sweetbabydreams]

Hey girls!!

How is everyone? I know I should go back in time and catch up on everything -- hopefully I'll get to that sometime today! I had a great relaxing time in Hawaii -- now I have to readjust to life back here on Planet Work. Bleechhh. The good thing is that, theoretically, I should be less than two weeks away from my next IUI cycle. But -- I don't know, because my temps were all kinda high when I was in Hawaii, then got back to normal when I got back. But since the day I thought I O'd -- Saturday -- I haven't had much of a rise. It's frustrating. But I should probably try not to overanalzye this stuff. Any hints on how to accomplish that??!!

I hope you're all doing great, and I'll try to do some homework and catch up on everything that's been going on since I left. :) :)

Jennifer

[MrsBritney]

Hi there ladies.
Good to hear from all of you!
Sweet - hawaii.. SOOOOOO jealous! I have never been! I hope to go in the next 5 years. I figure that your temps were high because you were on another part of the world.. :) so disregard them and continue what you were doing!

Girlie - you are right about kids being expensive.. they should have so many opportunities.. and some of those opportunities can be really expensive! Man.. I remember I was expensive too.. but by the time I Was 15 I was doing everything for myself. had a job at KFC and paid for everything I needed my self.. including my vehicle insurance! but there were 6 of us.. so I guess that is saying something!

Mysteeq - Good luck on your next round of IUI.. I know this who journey off TTC can be a hard one.. and long too.. but we can help eachother thru it.
Love you using the word "mates"... remembered you were an aussie! :) so cute! Hope you are doing well!
How are my girls Amber, Lilli, Purple, TTC?????
I leave for my appt in about an hour and a half... I dont know what will come of it.. but I am leaving to find out! then I get to go home.. play with the dogs and workout and make a salad for dinner! YAY For salads!

btw the beagle bit my face this morning...
He attacked the male rottie because he decided that he wanted the rotties food.. So I was pulling him off of the rottie and he bit me.
I pretty much beat his A$$, clamped his mouth shut, threw him in the bathroom and kicked him.
ANd.. he is still in the bathroom.
I will let him out when I get home. :)
BAD DOG.
Lucky for him the Rottie does what he is told and I told him NO. What is with this little dog syndrome? My male pug has it too!! He attacks the female rottie when he thinks she has food!!

k.. I am off!

[Gwensmom]

Hi guys

Welcome back Jennifer. I was so jealous last week thinking of you soaking up the sun and sipping fruity drinks poolside....good to hear you were able to relax! I agree with Beth, totally disregard those temps from last week...any change in environment always messes mine up too.

Beth, is your face okay? Ouch! Bella nips when she is wrestling sometimes, but only a few times has she broken my skin and then it isn't much. Teach me for wrestling a 65 lb solid muscle dog!! :) She is so darn lovable and cute though, hard to resist when her little butt start wiggling as she wants to play. I am taking her to the dog park in town today......she just loves that.

I haven't temped in three days. Absolutely no pg symptoms, trying not to give up yet......trying to Believe it still is possible. Doubts creeping in, and the big zit on my cheek makes me think AF is right around the corner. :( I'll keep you all posted.

Off to the doggie park we go...

Becky

[Gwensmom]

Beth.....forgot to say that I really hope you get some good information from your doctor visit! Let us know what he/she says!!

Girlie.....I haven't had my progesterone checked, should I ask for this? Are their any signs I should look for?

Mysteeq...when will you be starting your cycle for another IUI? It sounds like you are hopeful again, that is so good to hear. I say if you can afford to take it easy as far as work goes, then do it. Focus on preparing your mind and body for your next IUI. Blessings.

Becky

[AmberinGSO]

Sorry I haven't posted much lately ladies. My dog I had since I was eight years old died and I just feel horrible all the time about it. Plus I started that new job on Monday. I will write more tonight when I get home.
I miss you guys!

[MrsBritney]

Hi ladies.
Went to the doc.
Had blood work. I just love my doc. She was very straightforward. She asked if I would just prefer to start meds or check for problems first.. and I said lets do whatever she feels is best.
So, After the bloodwork comes back, if she can help me by giving me meds for like a thyroid problem, she will..
most likely, she said, the blood work will come back totally clean and then we will go from there.
She will give me provera for 7 days and then after I am done with my period I will be send in for an HSG (Hysterosalpinogram) .. not looking forward to that.. I hate having things shoved up my woo-hoo. Whatever.. and at the same time my husband will be having a sperm analysis...
both of these procedures are simply to rule out other issues... she said that she prefers to do these tests first because no matter how hard she tries, if there is any type of sperm problem, or blockage, she will never be able to help us get pregnant.
After the tests, she will start me on clomid.
Man - I didn't realize that this was going to be such a chore...
I told her I was not interested in IVF. But I am willing to go forward with these tests and medication... I have good insurance until November, so the sooner, the better. Then I dont know WHAT kind of insurance I will have... *sigh*
OK.. so I am not worried at all.. except about the HSG, I hear it is uncomfortable.. I am going to go on the other boards and ask the ladies there what it was like...
So... Amber I am sooooo so so so sorry that your dog died... that is just so simply sad... and I can't imagine what you must be feeling.. they are our best friends.. thru thick and thin and love us unconditionally... so I feel for you.. I remember when we had to put my dog down.. I was sooo upset, if you need anything let me know..
Ok.. I have to go pee!
beth

[Gwensmom]

Good morning...

Amber, my heart aches for you. I am so very sorry you had to say goodbye to your dog. They truely are parts of the family, and to lose a pet is so hard. They are so unconditionally loving, so supportive. It sounds like your dog was very special. Don't ever let anyone make you feel silly for grieving the loss of your dog in your own way. It is a very significant loss. Again, I am so sorry.

Beth, I know it does seem like a chore now (all those tests)...but in the long run, when you have your child(ren) with you, all this will be so worth it! Take advantage of your good insurance as much as you can, though my hunch is that you are going to have even better insurance when you land your dream job!! I hope you aren't discouraged after your visit, instead know that you are moving in the right direction...on your way to getting answers and becoming a mother! Blessings to you.

Off to work I go...no temp this AM. It is actually refreshing to not obsess. If AF comes, she comes and then another cycle begins. DH and I are enjoying the BDing this time around more.....so that is a good thing! :)

Becky

[girliegirl]

Amber, so sorry about your dog. that is sad. I am anxious to hear about how you like your new job.

Jennifer, so nice to have you back. Its almost IUI time! Yay, I am excited for you, you could be pg here in just a few wks! I will be sending positive vibes your way!

[girliegirl]

Beth its a good thing you went to the dr now, I didn't even think about your insurance may change soon. Sounds like you are on a good path. chances are everything is fine but its nice to know and rule all of those tings out. I know for me once I got pg, I could relax a little because I knew my hormones and tubes and all of that were fine. so if anything went wrong now I wouldn't know why unless it was genetic. So do you feel pretty good about going and starting these tests? How about dh? You will probably be like me, get the tests find out everything is o.k. and be pg!

[girliegirl]

Becky I just asked about the progesterone test because I know if your progesterone is too low you can m/c from that and it is an easy fix. but you have to take the progesterone when you O onward for it to work. also there is some antibody thing you can have that can make you m/c and if you have that you just take a baby aspirin a day. so I was just wondering because if you knew about either of those they are pretty easy fixes.

[MrsBritney]

Hey there Girlie..
I think that DH is, in fact, thrilled with the prospect of sitting in a room full of porn and having him self a good old time! :) He doesn't seem to put off by all of that. IT will cost us $75 for the test for him.. but oh well, such is life.
I am glad I started now.. because even tho I Will be losing my insurance.. I know that this was the right thing for us to do.. mostly becasue I dont feel badly for moving so fast.. we have been trying for over a year, with a sad result in December.. so obviously it was time to try something new...
I am scared about the HSG, I fear pain, but I always managed to handle it..
And I hate the fact that I have to be looked at by a man that I have never met before.. but I bet that this wont be NEAR as scary as my colonoscopy that I had a few years ago! THAT Was embarrassing!!! Ugh.

I am feeling the jealous-ies today....
My friend (one of my best friends) has been off of BC for like 2 months now... and she says that her PD is late.. but that all of her pg tests have been negative.. so she has a Dr appt...so now I am upset because she might get pregnant before me.. does that make me a bad person? I would be so upset if she turned out to be PG when they have only had sex like 3 times in the last two months.. and she JUST got off BC... it is so unfair!!!!!
But I guess that is life... right?
anyhow... what do you girls think? Any of you have an experience with an HSG and want to give me a heads up on how it went for you?
Mickey? You have one?

OK.. I have work to do I have been putting off.

[MrsBritney]

Got the results back from the blood work! ALL GOOD. No current medical problems.
K, so I am onto PROVERA.
I am to start taking provera on the 4th week of my current cycle. since this is day 16, I will begin the pills on july 24th and continue them for 7 days. I most likely will start the pills on day 24.
Between days 7 and 10 of my cycle - they say 2-5 days after the bleeding has stopped, I will have an HSG. Hopefully I start bleeding right away because I am leaving for California for nearly a week on the evening of the 2nd of July, so the best day to do it would be the 2nd.. then I would be able to go home afterwards finish packing and be on my way!
The same day that I get my HSG, DH will be in the same building getting the "specimen" prepared for the s/a (semen analysis)... and by the time I get back from Cali, I will have info on whether or not there are any problems in those areas.
Then, provera again, and clomid..
what do you girls think of that?
My mom had the SAME problems, they put her on clomid and BAM! 28 days later she was pregnant.. with my older sister.. and she has gone on to birth 3 more of us.. (we are all TOTALLY cool by the way)....
And they told her she would NEVER have kids... so.. to all you women who have been told that... SCREW the docs!! my mom is living proof!!!
ok... I am almost out for the day and I have proceeded to do absolutely NOTHING!!!! How is THAT for some hard work.

beth

[sweetbabydreams]

Beth -- Great news from the doctor!! sounds like you have a solid plan, I bet you'll get pg in no time. Don't worry about the HSG, just take some painkillers beforehand and go to your happy place during;). It's not the most pleasant thing, but it's also not so bad. Why did the docs tell your mother she'd never get pregnant? Irregular ovulation just makes it harder, not impossible!

Amber -- I'm so so sorry about your dog. What a sad loss, I totally feel for you. My cat is very old and has diabetes, and I know it's just a matter of time. I cry whenever I think about it.

Girlie - I can't believe you have teenagers! Are they excited about the baby? Yes, my next IUI is (hopefully) coming up soon. After a bunch of tests and u/s and shots, etc., of course. I'm so scared I'll do the blood tests and they will suddenly be bad and they'll tell me I can't get pg. The closer I get to the next cycle, the more fears start running through my head. I'm trying to get a grip!

Gwensmom -- I'm glad you're tossing the thermometer and enjoying the Bd'ing! That's what it's all about, after all. My ACP makes me temp, but I don't like it -- an unexpected temp can ruin a whole day.

Mysteeq -- It sounds like we could def. be cycle buddies! I figure I should start my next cycle a week from Saturday, so two weeks after that -- back in the 2ww!! What's your time frame?

Hello to everyone else!

Jennifer

[mysteeq]

Hi Jennifer.
Not to sure when AF should arrived for me im thinking it should be here within the next wk or so.How my weeks after your M/C did your 1st AF come? I hope its not to far away for me.Are you using clomid or injections with your IUI?

[Gwensmom]

Beth, I was checking out the http://www.twoweekwait.com/ website and there is a section on people who got their BFP's after HSG. I saw that earlier and thought I would pass it on...I have never had an HSG, but it does sound like you can be more fertile afterwards....Maybe knowing that will make the pain and discomfort worth it! How is the healthy eating going? You totally got me into eating more veggies....reading your posts about your meals inspired me! Thanks.

Jen, isn't it SO true how one silly reading on a thermometer can ruin your day. Yes, DH and I are having more fun these days! He got really dirty earlier working on the house...I may have to go join him in the shower :eek:

Girlie, I will check with my doctor on the progesterone and asprin idea next time I see her....which may not be for awhile. I hope you are doing well with that bun in your oven! :)

Okay ladies I have to get going....

Becky

[MrsBritney]

Hey there ladies!
Gwensmom - Yay!! I am glad you are stepping into the "eating right" area with me! I needed a friend badly! I did have my two salads yesterday. Along with some yogurt and apples with peanut butter.
Same thing today... I just figure that the more good foods I eat, the less bad ones I can. Because I will be full!!
I haven't had any sweets in three days... I get sweets on SUndays. That is my sweet day. And Saturdays is ALWAYS taco day, no matter what.
I am feeling pretty good.. Thanks for the info on the HSG ladies.. I was hearing that a lot of women ARE more fertile after an HSG, but I am still nervous about it.. I am a totally fraidycat of pain.. altho I can always handle it when the pain comes, I FREAK myself out before hand..
While my husband is in there having hte time of his life with a room full of PORN... I will be in there having an invasive procedure... yay for being a woman!

Sweet- where in the world do I get painkillers before an exam like that? Because I can't take ibuprofin .... it messes with my intestines (I have problems.. IBS or something to that effect) and Tylenol does NOTHING for me...
So what do I do?

Man, I am hungry.. we are having health scans today at work and I couldn't eat since last night!

beth

[MrsBritney]

OK gals - I need your support!!

One of my best friends ( I think I mentioned this earlier) is "late"... but all of her pregnancy tests have come out negative. She is over a week late, therefore if HCG was in her urine it should have showed up by now...
She did JUST move into her very first home, they signed the paperwork recently and it has been a stressful time.. I told her it could be that she is just having an anovulatory cycle... OR, it could be that HCG just doesn't show up in her urine. It happened to my mom with my brother, the doctors told her she wasn't pregnant, and kept telling her so until she was about 16 weeks..
My issue..
I am upset!!! I dont want her to be pregnant before me..
Why? Because I Was pregnant FIRST!! It isnt FAIR! Not only that but her and her husband "copy" everything that we do!!!! They are our best friends, but it has been proven time and time again that any time My DH and I do, they have to "copy" us.
First when we moved in together, then our engagment rings are VERY similar, our weddings were VERY similar, we bought a pet, then they had to buy a pet, I had pet rats, then they had to get pet rats, we bought a house, immediately after that THEY started looking at houses... We get pregnant, they decide it is time for them to get pregnant too!!!!
Maybe I am just being selfiish ( I know I am) but I am tired of being copied... and I want to be pregnant!! not her!!!!
OK.. my rant is over.. I know that they would be great parents (except that they are the worlds biggest slobs!!!) and I love them and would love their child, but I am having a very hard time with this, and I dont even know if she is pregnant or not!!! *sigh*
Why am I acting like this?

In other news - I cheated on my diet and had spaghetti last night... I should have stuck to the salad.. I was out of my favorite spag. sauce and used a replacement I had had in the back of the cupboard.. it was NASTY. I was SO disappointed. I threw half of it away, and ate some yogurt...
*sigh*
I am sad....

beth

[purplerain]

Hi Ladies,

Well I am a week past my transfer, so I should know by the 24th whether it worked or not. We are gone on a family vacation with my husbands family all next week so my blood test had to get pushed back to the 24th. I feel slight AF like twinges but nothing else. Not really thinking it worked but don't want to get totally negative yet.

Beth-I did have an HSG and I am sorry to say it was very painful for me. I did not have any blockage or any problems. Everything was clear. I even took some leftover vicadin and hate to think what it would have felt like if I had not! I am a weenie with pain so it may have been just me but the cramping was awful. On the bright side, people have a higher rate of conception after an hsg. Take pain pills if you can!!!

How is everyone else today?

Mickey

[sweetbabydreams]

Awwww, Beth dear, I'm sorry you're so down. I really doubt your friend is pg, if that's any comfort (!);) . I totally understand that jealous feeling -- why should anyone have the nerve to get pregnant before us?! It's so unfair, after everything we've gone through. But who knows why things happen the way they do. I guess we just have to roll with it. You're entitled to more comfort food than spaghetti, in my opinion! I would have had an entire chocolate cake, after a pile of macaroni and cheese!:rolleyes: Hopefully tomorrow will be better -- it's the weekend, that's got to help! Hang in there, happy days are on their way.

Jennifer

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies! Sorry I haven’t been around much in the past few days. Losing the dog has been pretty depressing. My mom and him were thick as thieves and she is so so so depressed too and I have spent a lot of time over at her house trying to comfort her. The dog lives with my mom as it was, like I said, my dog since childhood. On the brighter side of things, my mom decided that it was just too quiet in the house without a dog and she would never get over it without bringing a new pet into her home so last night she went out and purchased the tiniest little half miniature poodle, half miniature schnauzer. It doesn’t replace our old dog, who we’re all still really grieving for, but it helps fill the emptiness.

Becky- Are you 16 freakin’ dpo?! If you are girl are you going to test anytime soon?! Geez! That’s exciting! Let us know what is going on. I keep clicking on your chart to see if you caved to the temping monster. Sometimes it is better to just forget about it and roll with it I think.

Girlie- How’s the little guy/gal? Is morning sickness getting you at all? When is your first u/s?

Beth- Good news on the blood work! I’ve never had or really heard much about what an HSG is. Is that where they go in and unblock your tubes? Why does your doctor say that you need this procedure? Just curious. I think it is awesome that you are taking all these steps to make your body ready and be prepared for your BFP. By the way, I would not feel bad about the ill feelings about the other girl and her late period. If you remember, I was kind of rude about my own sister becoming pregnant after my m/c. I think a loss like that can just make you like that. I had the same thought about my sister that I was pregnant first and it wasn’t fair. I literally remember thinking horrible things. I would be in Wal-Mart and see a pregnant girl and think something outrageous that had nothing to do with anything like “Her clothes don’t even match. Why is this girl pregnant and not me?” I mean who cares if her clothes match. That has nothing to do with motherhood, but I really just was so angry inside. I think it is awesome that you’re doing so well in your new healthy eating and I know you will be holding your own positive hpt soon. You deserve it so much!

Mysteeq- Still no AF? I think she should be here soon. Especially since you had a natural miscarriage. It usually only takes about one cycle length between the loss and your next period. Will you being doing IUI again?

Mickey- I cannot wait until the 24th! Don’t give up hope yet! This is going to be your month! How exciting and you will have a vacation to keep your mind off of it…well a little anyway. Don’t forget to keep us posted about the results!

Jennifer- How was Hawaii? Meet any hot bodied hawiian men? When will you start your next round of IUI? I was just curious, you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, but how do you pick the donor? Do you get to read anything about them or see pictures or descriptions or is it all at random?

Well, I hope everyone is doing well. I started my new job this past week. It was an entire week of occupational hazard training and new employee orientation. So, I didn’t really get to start in my department yet. I will begin that next week. I did get to meet all the people I will be working with though and they all seem really nice. I’m just a little nervous because I am the youngest one in the department by atleast 15 years. Makes me slightly intimidated. Oh yea, we bought a new car this week finally too. It is a 2006 Toyota Corolla. I really love it. It is my first brand new car. DH is so excited about it! Anyway, this is getting long! Hope you are all doing well!
BECKY LET US KNOW WHATS UP!

[Gwensmom]

So......I did cave to the temping monster Thursday, and my temp was really high. I had been awake in bed for about an hour before I temped though....so I think that affected the temp. Anyhow, then I did what I had told myself I wouldn't do, I P'dOAS. After the 3 min mark there WAS a FAINT line. Since then.......I have tested three more times and still my lines are faint. My temp was up again this morning, so........I guess this was our month! Thank you God. When I got my BFP in March, I was so full of fear since we had lost our Gwen so recently. I don't think I ever truely was able to let that go and embrace my pregnancy. It breaks my heart to write that, but it is true. THIS TIME, I have read "Supernatural Childbirth" (I highly recommend this book), and I feel such a sense of peace and I BELIEVE that God is going to bless this pregnancy and my baby will be safe and healthy. I believe that with all my heart, and when those doubts try to creep in, I immediately pray to God that he will strengthen my faith and drive those doubts from my heart. It is a battle that I am willing and ready to wage for the next 9 months. I haven't been on here since Thursday since I was waiting to let this all sink in and needed some time. So there you have it. Thank you to all of you ladies for your support and encouragement. I am so very thankful to all of you and so grateful to have you to come and chat with. DH and I decided after the last m/c that the next time we are pg we are not telling ANYONE until the first trimester is over. That is going to be hard on me, but at least I have you ladies to talk to and share with. So thanks!!

Another thing that may seem weird to you all, DH and I have decided to wait to call my OB for a few weeks or month......the stress of those early appt's just about killed me, and I know they couldn't have helped my pregnancy last time. This is my 3rd time pg in the past year, so I know the spiel you hear from the nurse, I am taking my vitamins.......beyond that, there isn't anything my OB does this early that I feel I need to have or know. Am I crazy? I just feel like those early appts would fill me with too much anxiety, I would much rather have my personal FAITH that all is well and go with that. I have two friends who didn't go to the doctor until well into their 2nd trimester....(one was in denial the other didn't have insurance coverage until week 14). Anyhow, they both now have very healthy children. So...I am going to try and do this one a little different. I don't need a beta to verify what in my heart I already know.

So that is what is up....:D

Beth, Jennifer, Mysteeq, Mickey I pray that you all get your BFP's VERY SOON!!! Blessings from sunny Oregon!

[AmberinGSO]

BECKY! OMG! What great news! That's awesome! This was the first month you tried too right? Wow! What a blessing! I'm so excited for you! When will you be due?

[Gwensmom]

Amber.......I think I am due on March 20th. I will be 29 on March 18th......I can't imagine a better birthday gift. You are right, this is the most incredible blessing. I am still in shock and awe that God can be so good to me. It is strange to see myself write that after the last 9 months.....but I mean it, God has blessed me immensly. I have two perfect angels in heaven that are looking down on me and this new miracle, just as your angel is blessing you and your baby. I am so very thankful and humbled. Thanks for your excitement.....it truly may kill me to not share the good news with our family and friends for the first trimester. DH is sticking to our decision...did it feel like forever for you to reach the second trimester?

[mysteeq]

Wow thats fantastic news Becky thats the 1st post i read when i logged on today and to see that you got a BFP this month i am soooo happy for you right now a BIG CONGRATS to you i hope you have a very safe happy stress free and healthy pregnancy way to go...

[sweetbabydreams]

Becky, I have tears in my eyes right now, I'm so happy and excited for you! I love the things you are thinking and saying about this pregnancy, that kind of peace and faith is truly a gift. I have to say I agree with you about your plan to wait to see a doctor. You already know what you have to do, and those appointments bring such huge stress. Peace and serenity, that's the best thing for you and your baby, and no doctor can give that to you. Can you remind me how many months its been since your m/c? I'm just asking because I'm planning to try again next cycle (which would be the second full cycle after my m/c), and I was wondering if that's the same timing as you. Again, congratulations to you and DH, it will be hard not to tell friends and family, but you can share everything with us!!!! Yayyy!!!

Jennifer

[Gwensmom]

Thanks you guys for your support, it means more than I can say.

Jennifer, I had my m/c May 2nd, AF came 6 weeks later, and then we got pg the cycle after (this one of course). My doctor advised waiting 2-3, but DH and I decided to give it a go. The wait was for emotional reasons, and heck.....I feel a lot better emotionally now than I really ever did during my 11 weeks pregnant last time. I was scared the whole time. I pray that that fear doesn't take hold of me again ever. That is my prayer for all us ladies who are TTC after our profound losses, that we all find peace in our own ways. I definietly say GIVE IT A GO this month!! :) Girlie got pg after one cycle post m/c too I think. Looks like there could be a trend starting...... :D Oh, and thanks for supporting me through my decision to put off my doc. visit........I truly do feel that will make a big difference for me emotionally.

Mysteeq, thanks for the encouragement.....have you had AF since the m/c? Sorry if I am out of the loop. What are you thinking as far as TTC again, timeline? I just want us all on here to get our BFP's and enjoy this journey together. WE ALL DESERVE it!!!

Beth, I hope you are enjoying your tacos and coronas tonight. I always think of you on Saturdays now.....dream of your yummy tacos and refreshing coronas. I think I may be stalking your eating habits :) Is that possible? First you get me to start eating salads and now I long for a cool corona and a spicy taco! Enjoy....I hope you are feeling better today. Since my last m/c I have found out that two friends of ours who got married 3 years after Beau and I AND are younger than us are expecting now. One was a total accident. I really despise that feeling of jealousy. I totally feel like you, I was supposed to be first!! Even now with my BFP, I feel that pang of jealousy that they are ahead of me. I know I should pray about that and stop comparing myself to my friends.............it is just so hard!! Cheers to you tonight!

Girlie how are you doing? How early did you have symptoms? Other than being tired, late, and getting BFP's I don't feel much. I didn't the last two times either though. I think it wasn't until about week 6 that I started getting aversions to foods, never really got nauseous though. Isn't your u/s coming up? I have a hard time keeping things straight these days.

Amber, where did you rent your dopplar from? Do you listen to your little one's heart every day? I think I may look into that...eventually. What kinds of cravings are you having? Your new car sounds exciting.......I really NEED a new car. My car has no air, doesn't have power steering, is a two-door, and only has a radio! It is my first car ever (I bought it when I was a senior in college.....yep, I had to wait that long!) I guess I get sentimental about it, but with DFS and our dog......we really need a bigger car a lot of the time. Corollas are great cars and it will be a safe mommy car! What color is it?

Mickey, do you think you will POAS before the 24th? I am hoping and praying this is your month. Where are you vacationing? Try to keep positive....cramps can be a very good sign!!

Okay, I better go join the family. We are watching Valient tonight, a Disney flick I think. Thanks again for providing me a place to come and talk and feel at home! xoxo

becky

[mysteeq]

Amber & Becky... No AF yet im still waiting.We are going to start trying again next cycle whenever that will be.We will be doing another round of IUI.

[sweetbabydreams]

Mysteeq - My AF didn't come until about 5 weeks after my D&C. It seemed like it took forever! I was tracking my temps, and I didn't ovulate until more than three weeks afterwards. The good news is I did start ovulating again right away -- and it looks like the same is true for everyone on this thread. I hope you and I have the same kind of good fortune that seems to be going around here! My next AF should come this weekend, maybe a little earlier, then its off to the races. I hope your AF comes really soon, and hopefully we can go through this together (I am doing IUI's as well.)

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

BECKY!! Oh my god! I was so shocked and excited to see that news!!! I am so so happy for you and I think you have such a great attitude about it. I am going to try to think more like that, I have been a little panicky for a few days but other than that I have felt real positive about this pregnancy. I don't think its a bad idea to wait to go to the dr. I have seen my RE, but I have not even called my home birth midwives. I am going to wait for awhile myself. As for my symptoms, they didn't really kick in until 6 wks or so. then I got really nauceous all day and my boobs hurt, but not real bad. I am really exhausted too. we had an u/s at 6w 4d and saw a heartbeat. they said everything looked perfect. We were going to wait to tell people, but dh has been telling everyone and also I have already popped out so I figure I may as well tell people so they don't think I am just fat. Well I am so excited for you and dh! I will keep you in my prayers and keep up your faithfulness and positive thoughts. I am so happy you guys decided to try this month!!

[girliegirl]

Beth, I do not blame you for feeling that way about your friends, I thought the same about my friend too, and I know if she had gotten pg first It would have bugged me. I think its a normal reaction. My dr prescribed pain killers for me for that hsg. I think it was 600 mg motrin to take the day of. I never had the hsg though because I ended up pg right before my apt. I think it will be interesting to see whats up in there. Yeah poor dh, stuck in a room full of porn! We have had issues with porn so that would bug me bad!! SOunds like you are doing good with your eating, I am proud of you!!

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, is it getting close to IUI or the testing yet? I am a little out of the loop with you guys!

AMber, sorry about the dog, how are you feeling. you are 13 or 14 wks now aren't yOu??

Mickey I am praying for you that this cycle works! Enjoy your vacation and hopefully you will come back to a bfp!!

Mysteeq, did af show up yet??

[Gwensmom]

Thanks Girlie..... I know, I am so relieved I was able to talk DH into giving me the green light this month! :D Another good thing is that all our friends and family think we are waiting longer......so that will make keeping our little secret easier. You know, I am trying to find the excitement in keeping the secret just between DH and I (well and all you ladies too). In our "real world" life, only DH and I know and it will be fun to just share that between the two of us for a few months. I am usually such a big mouth, so this may be a challenge. Not so much for DH......he didn't tell most of his work and friends about Gwen, until a month after we lost her (they didn't know we were even pg!) He is a private guy......me NOT!! Somehow we work though :) He is very thankful that I can blab all I want to you guys so that I will be less tempted to blab to others........

Okay, I better get the laundry switched....I have 7 loads to do today! We have another foster child with us for the weekend (respite), and he is a WETTER!!! :eek:

Beck

[AmberinGSO]

Hi ladies! I can't sleep because my heart has been beating out of rhythm randomly for the past half hour. It does this every once in a while. It's like it will skip a beat and then beat really hard once and it does it a few times and then goes back to normal. I actually got out the doppler to see if I could hear it do it and sure enough I caught it loud and clear skipping a beat and then beating hard and then getting back into rythm again. About two years ago I went to a cardiologist for a different problem and I had to wear one of those heart monitors all day and he told me that my heart does this on average about six times an hour. He didn't seem too concerned, but when I have these "episodes" where it happens more frequently it freaks me out. Do you guys think I should go back to the doctor for this?? It's stopped for the last 15 minutes or so. It might be back to normal for the time being.

Mysteeq- I'm sure AF will be here very soon and it will be time to start TTC again! I know your month is coming up very soon.

Girlie- I've been feeling great. I don't have morning sickness really anymore and I'm less tired. I have been having some swelling in my feet which I found really unusual for this early, but no big deal. It's not massive swelling or anything. I am 14 weeks and one day now. I'm glad to be in the second trimester. How's the first coming for you? How far along are you now?

Becky- I didn't have many symptoms until around week 8. I got nauseous around that time. Really the only early symptoms I had were that my boobs were sore early on for about a week and they grew a lot in the first few weeks. I think that is just fine that you will wait to go to the doctor. Keeping it a secret was hard for me too. I wasn't really successful actually. I ended up telling everyone under the sun by 10 weeks. I was just too excited. I hope you got through all that laundry!

Well, I guess I will try to get some sleep now that my heart seems to be ticking in the correct rhythm for the moment. Man, that really worries me. I'm all the time worrying about something. Anyway, hope you guys have a good Monday!

[Gwensmom]

Quiet around here today....I don't have much to say, but just wanted to pop in. I just love summer. I love how it stays light so much later and the air is warm. My favorite time may be in the early morning though, when the sun has just come up and the birds are out, the air smells clean (maybe not in the big cities I guess)......I sound like Mary Poppins or something. :) I feel really optimistic today and I just want to cling to that and I want to keep this feeling!!

Amber your heart stuff would make me lose sleep too! You say your doctor isn't too concerned though? I can't imagine being able to hear the rythmn changing like that. Has it gone away now? Maybe I missed it in your post, but does your doctor know what causes it? I hope you get a good night's sleep tonight!! When is your next appointment? Are you going to find out the sex? Girlie? Victoria? We will for sure, I am too much of a planner. I totally admire couples that can wait, but for me that is just too much!

Okay, I just wanted to drop in and make sure you all are okay. Beth, how are you? You haven't posted in too long....I need to know what you are eating these days so that I can get some good ideas. Who needs the Food Network when you have Beth! :)

Blessings,

Becky

[AmberinGSO]

Oh becky! You sound so happy now! I'm so happy for you. I know this is going to be it for you! As for my heart problem, it did it on and off yesterday, but not as bad as the night I was up. Last night it only did it a little bit. It was definitely scary to hear it changing with the doppler. I haven't talked about it yet with my obgyn, but I saw the cardiologist two years ago and he said it is a small heart murmur caused by a little extra tissue on one of my valves. He said it really wasn't a problem so I haven't given it much thought until the past couple of days when it has become more frequent and noticable. I read online that these things can become worse during pregnancy due to increased blood volume. I will ask my obgyn at my next appt. If it gets much worse I will just call about it. My next appt isn't until Aug.3 I am DEFINITELY finding out the sex of this baby. I'm already to the point where I can't stand it anymore. I just need to know what it is and call it by name. I'm going to visit family in Alabama in two weeks and my aunt works in the ER there and she is going to get her friend to do an u/s on me and try and tell me what the sex is. I will be 16 weeks and I'm hoping that is far enough to see something. I think it will be. I really want a girl, but I will love a boy. It's most important that the little one is healthy! A woman at work yesterday looked at me and said oh wow you are having a girl! We'll see if she is right. How are you feeling, Becky? Is DH really excited?

Anyway, I gotta go eat some breakfast and then head over to my mother's to spend some time with the new puppy! I hope you guys are all doing well!

[girliegirl]

Becky, I am so happy for you! You seem very optimistic and at peace. I have a great feeling about this pregnancy for you. I definitely want to know what I am having. I can't stand the suspense. I am still feeling like this isn't for real yet. I think if we see good things at my u/s at 12 wks, it will seem more real.

Amber, glad to hear you are feeling so good now that the 1st trimester is over. I have been real nauceous all day long every day. it is starting to get a little old. then I am so hungry and I eat then feel stuffed, bloated like some one blew me up. Its so uncomfortable. How is your new job? Are you exhausted at the end of the day?

[girliegirl]

Oh amber did you call the dr about your heart? I would at least call and ask just since now you are pg. I am sure its o.k., but I would just ask to make sure. What kind of puppy did your mom get? ALso do you have any baby names??

[MrsBritney]

Hi there ladies.
Dont mind me.
Sorry I haven't been around.. . I have been extremely low for the past few days and I haven't felt like posting much.
I greatly apologize - because it seems I have missed some WONDERFUL news! CONGRATS To you Gwensmom!!! I am very excited!! I will be praying for a sticky one this time!

As for me, ever since my friend told me she MIGHT be pregnant, I just can't seem to pull myself out of this FUNK. Mostly because everything that DH and I do, her and her DH (of one year) have to copy us. When we got our truck, within two months they had a truck almost exactly like ours, we got married, they go engaged and got married, we bought a house, they decided that they needed a house...
In December we found out we were pregnant, told everyone on Christmas day, a week later they decided that they needed to go off birth control.
Basically, they copy everything we do.. it used to be flattering, but now I just want to hit them.
And with the miscarriage - I am taking it harder than I should...
I guess my thing is.. they have only been married one year, we have been married three.. they JUST moved into their house LAST WEEK and it will take them a good 6 months to get their finances in order before they realize what it is going to take to really own a home.. and having a baby at the same time is just plain crazy if you can help it... (especially for them)
And I guess I just figured that after my miscarriage they would be kind and wait, out of kindness for us and our sadness, at least a year...
But I know I have told you all before, she is "late"... but all of her HPTs are negative... and I am just heartbroken that she might be pregnant and I have been trying for so long and it just isn't happening...
I just can't seem to pull myself out of this funk.. and I just didn't want to be the downer with all of you guys... especially with the wonderful news.... we always love BFPs here on this site..
*sigh*
So... I am sorry that I haven't been around..
I finally prayed last night that God help me overcome my jealousy and sadness.. and I feel a lot better today.. and I have been venting to my best friend.. and her agreeing with me made me feel better...but I thikn God is really helping to pull me out of this one..
So.. again, I apologize for just not writing....
I havn't been well....
But I am trying.

[MrsBritney]

Oh yes - OK.. a couple personals that I could remember without going back to the other page

Girlie - You and DH have porn issues too?? We definitely have our issues with that!! We went thru a phase where I was totally into having sex and I would beg for it... and either he wouldn't want to have sex, or he just couldn't "get off"... I finally found out that he had been watching porn in the other room when I wasn't around and getting it on with himself too often to care about having it with me.. and it caused a HUGE fight and all porn was thrown out of our house... still gone too.. :)
Doesn't cause problems anymore!!! Now he is ready more often than I am!!

Gwensmom - As for eating.. ok.
I am still on a salad kick.. I am having some FABULOUS salads and I haven't gotten tired of any of them!! TOday tho, I had a healthy choice meal from the freezer.. it was cheesy rice with chicken and carrots and broccoli.. and it was SO freaking good... I was seriously surprised and the chicken was actual chicken breast!! So I will probably get some more of those for the freezer to take instead of salads from time to time!! But my taco salads at lunch have been WAY too fabulous to give up!! And my dinner salads are so good I can't stop eating those either!!

Amber - Please go to the doc and get that heart thing checked.. I hear that all medical issues are greatly magnified during pregnancy, even arthritis... so please just go and get it checked again to see if there is anything that they can do! your heart works twice as hard when you are pregnant...

Mysteeq - has AF arrived? If not, dont stress, mine too 10 weeks to finally show up... just keep relaxing and if you get too stressed out about it, try some parsley tea (add mint so it doesn't taste like butt)

Sweet - hope you are doing well - your cycle is looking good..

Did I miss anyone?

UPDATE: I am the worlds BIGGEST BITCH!! My friend emailed me all sad and told me that SHE STARTED HER PERIOD!! And I did a little dance all around the office while breathing a sigh of RELIEF! I was SO happy..
And while I might be the worlds biggest bitch.. I am still happy. *shrug*
beth

[Gwensmom]

Beth

I am doing a little dance for you too, (you are definitely not a bitch you are human!)......It is so human for you to feel that jealousy and now relief! I have been there so many times, that jealously just feels like poison and you can't get rid of it. I pray yours is gone! I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. You are such a bright light in this thread. I always love hearing your posts, you are usually so optimistic, you encourage! I hope that this time passes quickly, your sadness goes away and your sparkle comes back!! I just know that you are going to be landing your dream job and getting a BFP so soon!!! Your future is so very bright, BELIEVE in that! You were very missed, welcome back!

Becky

[sweetbabydreams]

Beth, you are too funny! I'm glad she's not pg too, so I guess I'm bitch #2. You just don't need to deal with that! I agree with Becky, brighter days will be coming your way, and then we'll all be doing a happy dance FOR you.

Becky, I really hope you keep posting here, your optimistic and peaceful state of mind is good for all of us! Maybe it will rub off. I'm going to try to be that way now, even though I'm not pg yet.

Girlie, I guess i haven't been paying attention -- you saw the heartbeat?!?! How fantastic!! That's such a milestone (one I never reached!) Hopefully that will let you relax a little.

Amber - I agree with Girlie, call your doctor or cardiologist just so they know what's going on.

Mysteeq - Is she here yet? Is she here yet? Isn't that waiting the worst? I guess we're always waiting for something in this crazy TTC world of ours!

As for me, I'm guessing that AF should come this weekend, although last time it came really quickly after I O'd, which was bad. It was the first AF after m/c though. I'm a little nervous the same thing will happen this month, and my ACP will tell me I should wait longer. I don't want to wait!!!! Sick of waiting!!!

Is it my imagination, or are there more pg's on this thread than non-pg's?

[mysteeq]

Still no AF...
Well im going back to work tomorrow how sad is that i did hand out my resume to a few shops in the mall so hopefully i hear back from someone.I told my manager that i wont be back permantly that i am still looking for another job and shes alright with that just pleased to have me back for now.Im going back for now because im getting so bored at home doing nothing and i need some cash.Hopefully i wont be there for long though.

[Gwensmom]

Mysteeq I hope your day goes well and that you find yourself a new job you love very soon! That AF is sure being ellusive, any signs she is on her way? I hope she comes very soon for you! Blessings on your day back at work. After my first loss I totally switched jobs to make a fresh change, this last m/c I didn't do that....since I really enjoy the people I work with, but it was still a tough day. I'll be thinking of you today.

Jennifer I hope I can stay here! Since I am not going to the doctor I feel silly about going to the pg boards (they all talk about appointments and such, which I don't have yet). Right now you ladies are what I need and who I want to chat with! Besides, I can't wait for all the happy dances when you all get your BFP's........and then those little ones start popping out! :) So I am in it for the long haul.

Beth, have you ever been one to put fruit in salads? Last night I made a big spinach salad and at the last minute added some grapes. It was really good. The sweet crunch. Do you ever watch the Food Network? I have become addicted to that channel, though at first I loved Rachel Rey......now I am getting a tiny bit tired of her perkiness as she is on ALL THE TIME! She has good things to say though. DH and I are addicted to the Iron Chef. We DVR it ever week when it is new. DH is the one who likes to cook around here though, I am not so skilled culinarily! I make really great enchilladas, but other than that I am not so good and putting together complex recipees. Don't have the patience I think. Anyhow, hope you are having a better day. Thinking of you dear.

Amber, called the doctor yet? Aren't we all such pests. Hope you are having a lovely day!!

Girlie do you have your 12 week appt made? I can't wait for you to see your little one and know that this time everything is going beautifully! I hope the icky sickness isn't too much of a bother today. Do you have names picked?

Mickey when you come back bring us some good news okay!!! :D

Not much to report here. I have been so much more involved with this baby. I am allowing myself to connect, where last time (after Gwen) I didn't allow that connection. I was protecting my heart from more heartache. This time, I am throwing in all my chips.......I am into this pregnancy completely. There is no fear. Okay, so maybe fear tries to wriggle into my heart, but I just pray like there is no tomorrow and that has really been helping me. I have never been such a prayer warrior before, but I feel like if there ever will be a time in my life to be one.....this is it! Okay, really gotta get ready for work. Thinking off all you guys.

Beck

[girliegirl]

I don't have much time, but Beth I am sorry you have been down. We have all been there and it is so normal to feel that way about your friend. I knew she wasn't pg! Is she bummed out, or o.k. with it? When I have more time I want to talk to you more about the porn thing. this problem never completely goes away for us and I am getting worn out about it. He likes internet porn and we have to have internet for my job, so it is all too easy for him to sneak off and get his porn. He has gotton way way better about it, but it is still an issue that pops up once a month or so and I don't know if I should let it go or what, but it is very upsetting to me. He always says he won't do it again and he feels bad etc.. then it will happen again. anyways i would like you input on what worked for youguys. more later.

[MrsBritney]

Ahhhh.. ladies..
One high always comes with a low..
I was thrilled that my friend was not pregnant.. however, right after that, I was told that my "end date" for my job was going to be a month sooner than I thought, so now I have 5 weeks to find another job!! When I Was supposed to have a whole extra month.. I was upset last night.. but now I am looking at it in a positive light.
I figure that I will find something that I like and it will pay what I want.. and I will be able to take it because I will be laid off earlier, rather than later - so I dont have to decline and lose out on my severence..
I just pray to God that I find something in the next couple weeks..
I will figure out a way to make it all work!

I am feeling much better today... maybe I shouldn't, but I do.
I was so releived that my friend wasn't pregnant... Maybe I will feel differently later on... but I just felt right about my feelings...

Today, I had some toast and milk for breakfast..
For a snack I have fuji apples and jif peanut butter..
Then I have a healthy choice meal (I was too depressed last night about losing my job to make salad stuff) with chicken and rice and broccoli.. and for a snack later on I have some yogurt!

Dinner, will be a salad.. I have been doing so well, why screw it up now!
Work is busy today, but I have no desire to do anything to help anyone here anymore..
however, I should just get to it!!
How is everyone doing today?

Gwensmom - how are you feeling little miss prego!?! I am very excited for you.. and not kidding either.. :) I dont feel the jealousy with you girls like I do with my friend...strange.. but true. How is the eating going? ANy nausea yet? Or any other symptoms?

sweet- YAY For Bitch #2!!! WOO HOOOOO!! I am glad to have you ladies on my side, even if my side is a bit skewed. If you are tired of waiting! DONT WAIT!! Do what you feel is right for you!!!

Mysteeq - sorry you had to go back to the cafe when you really didn't want to, but I hope you find another job that you enjoy..
AF will show her ugly face and once she does it wont seem like you have been waiting that long.. seriously.. it has been almost 7 months since my miscarriage, and I can't BELIEVE that it has been that long..
Time goes fast... just enjoy your time with DP and start trying as soon as possible!!

HUGS to all of you.
Got to get to "work"

beth

[MrsBritney]

Girlie - Yes, DH and I have had our rounds with the porn.. I was tired of him watching it all of the time and he totally screwed the crap outta my computer with the internet porn, so much so that I had to wipe my entire hard drive and wound up getting a new computer because of it (he knows NOTHING of computers and totally cranked out SO many viruses it was CRAZY.. all because he wanted to see some boobies) so I have been there, done that.. and it reached such a peak before we got married that I told him I didn't want him going to the strip clubs with his buddies for his bachelor party.. we reached a compromise.. he didn't go with his buddies. and I took him while we were in vegas for our honeymoon.. and *I* got the lapdance. ;)
My friend is bummed out that she isn't pregnant, but she kept going with "I know this would be like the worst time for us to get pregnant what with everything going on with the new house and just starting this new job..." so I didn't feel too bad, but I did tell her that I know how it feels to be excited about something and have it taken away... just a little reminder of my miscarriage... *shrug* But my first thought was that she wasn't pregnant - and I Was right.. but I kept second guessing myself because I Was so upset aobut it!!! ARGH! I am a tard.


Gwensmom - OH YEA! I have totally put fruit in my salads! One of my favorite salads (I haven't had it in a long time) is romaine lettuce, shredded sharp cheddar cheese, hard boild eggs, crispy bacon bits (real bacon) and granny smith apple pieces... NO dressing. it is AWESOMELY perfect.. I love that salad.. but I haven't been making the hard boiled eggs.. so I dont have that salad.. I love that bit of sweetness in a salad... and I am with you in putting all of your "chips" into this pregnancy!! I told my mom last night that when I do become pregnant I am going to try to have the same excitement that I had the first time.. because it really isn't fair to NOT have that same excitement.. the only change... I wont tell everyone in the office!! :) haha

Sorry ladies, you guys posted while I was posting!!

beth

[sweetbabydreams]

Beth - It's probably a blessing in disguise that your job is ending early -- I'm sure you'll get something even better, and it sounds like you're sick of being there. Your salads sound fantastic! I put steamed veggies and olives and feta cheese and walnuts in my salads, but maybe I'll try some fruit as well. I'm addicted to salads, I have one every day. Then again, I'm a vegetarian, so salads are kind of a staple. I'm glad you're feeling better, and don't beat yourself up for feeling jealous. It's so completely normal.

Mysteeq - Sorry you have to go back to the cafe, but I'm sure some company and extra cash will come in handy. You will probably not be there long, because you'll get pg right away! (here's hoping!)

Gwensmom - I've thought a lot about how much I will be able to bond with the next baby, should I get pregnant again. I was so invested in my last pg, it felt like my heart was ripped out when I lost it. But you have to bond -- that's what being a mother is. (Heartbreak! ;) At least that's what my mother says. :rolleyes: ) It's great to hear that you are able to connect so much with this baby, and fight off those little fear monsters creeping in. I just know everything is going to be fine.

Girlie - What is it with internet porn? I really don't get it. Movies, sure, magazines, whatever, but on the internet -- I don't know, it just seems kinda creepy. It must be a guy thing. I don't have any really good advice for you, except sometimes the more you push someone, the more they push back. But that's probably not helpful at all! Good luck!

Amber - Where are you? I hope everything's okay, and your heart is not giving you any more anxious moments. How is the new puppy?

I have nothing to report, really. Just hoping AF starts when it's supposed to, and not before!!

Jennifer

[MrsBritney]

Sweet - My salads are always good... my mom does this salad that has chicken breasts and tons of different fruits, grapes, mandarin oranges, strawberries etc etc etc.... I always love avacados on my salads.. I dont know why.. :) I am thinking that my new end date might be a "blessing in disguise"... I guess I will just have to wait it out and find out when I get my new job...
I also realized that if I do get pregnant this month or next, I wont have to worry about not telling my new employer, because I wont be telling ANYONE at that point as it would be too early to tell really.. so that would be great too! So I am hoping that God has some baby plans for me .. because I have officially decided to NOT stop TTC... I figure that it will be a blessing no matter what is going on.. and I would love to be a mom.

Amber - WHERE ARE YOU!?
How is the heart doing.. and how is the baby...
Also, what kind of puppy did your mom get?!
I miss you.

Lilli - I miss you too!

As for me.. I was pretty sure I felt O pains last night, my right ovary was definitely doing something... and today I had EWCM.. but I dont know.. my body is still all weirded out.. so I am glad that I will be put on provera starting on Sunday.. if I do get pregnant it wont hurt anything.. and if I am not then I will be ready for my HSG in about 3 weeks.. :)
I am nervous about it..
but my excitement about my coming vacation is really starting to get to me.. I am having a hard time focusing on anything else and I can't WAIT to see my best friend.. it has been almost TWO YEARS since we have seen eachother, altho we talk every single day!! I miss her so much.. and hopefully when we get older we can move closer to eachother, and then when our DH's pass away .. we will be able to grow old together like we always planned.. (haha, we planned that our DH's would probably die before us due to the stress of being married to us, so we would be left with only eachother!! and we would be the two cool old ladies on the block.. hee hee)

Anyhow.. I really should get to work.. but I really dont want to!!
Come and post everyone!

[mysteeq]

I didnt end up going into work today i rang up the manager last night and told her that i couldnt come in today because im not ready to go back i thought i would be but just thinking about walking in those doors again and having to face everyone it scares me thinking about it.I think im in fear fear of having to face all the workers and customers again i just need some more time i guess my manager was great though she said take as much time off as i need to even if its a month or 3months that im always welcome back there and i am greatful for that but i dont think i'll ever be ready to go back there.

[MrsBritney]

Mysteeq -
I had the same issue when I came back from my D&C - I had people asking me about the pregnancy for weeks afterwards..
My only strong hold was that the people who knew about it, they were so awesome to me.. and they really helped me get thru a rough time...
Sometimes friends and co-workers (and work in general) can be a nice distraction from the misery we have been going thru ... if you can focus on something else for a while it might help...
Just a suggestion..
I am sorry you are feeling like you can't go back..
I hope you can give it a shot soon...

[sweetbabydreams]

Aw sweetie, I'm sorry. If you're not ready, you're not ready! You should give yourself all the time you need. Have you thought about going in just for a visit before you try to work there? You may find you actually get some nice support and feel better, you never know. There are probably people there who really care about you. That might an easier way to walk through the doors -- you can walk right back out as soon as you feel like it. I only took one day off work, but no one hear knew, so I didn't have to deal with all the questions, etc. Sometimes it was hard to be at work, but sometimes it made things easier because I had something to focus on. Whatever you do, take care of yourself!!

Jennifer

[Gwensmom]

Mysteeq, there is something to be said about trying to get back to doing something productive again....but only you know really when you are ready. When I lost my baby last year I got back to work way too soon, lasted 8 days (I cried my eyes out constantly) and then just about had an emotional and physical breakdown. I ended up quiting and that was for me the best thing I could have done. We all have to find out own ways to move on and heal from this terrible blow. I pray that you are able to do that the best way for YOU. In the time between jobs when I just needed to be, I kept myself busy putting together a scrapbook of my baby we had lost. For me this helped, it kept me focused on something and helped me to do something to remember and honor her. We also joined a support group for parents who lost a pregnancy. We still go and it is something I look forward to every month. Much like this thread, it is comforting to be around people who understand the pain you are dealing with. I am just throwing this all out, not in saying this is what you should do, but more just to give you an idea of what helped me. Find your own path and embrace it and you WILL have better days ahead. I will be praying that a new job comes your way soon.

Yikes, the sun is just rising over the hill outside my window and it is getting me right in the eyes. It is going to be a scorcher here in the next few days. I know I seem to compain about the heat in Oregon, when really you all probably live in places that get a lot hotter....but we don't have air in our house and I totally live in the dark ages- I don't have air in my car!! :eek: So bad!! DH has to get me a new car sometime soon!!

Beth I am so happy to hear that you are on the TTC train again. I just know that your time is coming!!! Your trip is going to be so good for you....when do you go? I love that you and your GF have already discussed growing old together! We are taking our big trip of the year the second full week of August. We told DFS last night that he is coming with us. (We waited that long since we only just found out we are going to have him another 2 months.) It will be different bringing the little guy along, but I just know he will have the time of his life and that will make any added stress on me worth ever bit. We have a family cabin (RUSTIC!) in the Sierra Nevada Mtns in California. My great grandfather bought it in the 20's from the Boy Scouts who built it. It is seriously my Heaven on earth. My DH agrees and has been going with me and my family (it is like a big family reunion every summer) every summer since we started dating. This summer we are going to be spreading our Gwen's ashes at the river that flows behind the cabin (down a 1000 ft canyon we hike to). It is the most pristine, pure water you could ever find. We drink it fresh and no one has ever gotten sick. It is ice cold, but a swim feels great after the long hike in. Anyhow, both DH and I adore this river and from the moment we knew that our Gwen wasn't going to live we decided she needed to rest there. It will be very emotional, but I know it will be a very special day too. Both sets of our parents will be there too, so that will be nice. My dad is going to officiate a small informal service for us. DH and I are going to spend the night after down there with our backpacking gear. It was DH's idea as he wanted to have alone time just he and I and our Gwen. It makes me start to cry again just thinking about it. Okay, enough of that novel. As you guys can tell, I am thinking about this trip all the time now, preparing myself and getting excited to go.

I better get ready for work. Sorry I didn't get to everyone. Hope you all have a great Thursday, almost to the weekend!!

Becky

[sweetbabydreams]

Good morning everyone (morning on the west Coast, anyway)!

Becky - What a beautiful trip you have to look forward to! That cabin sounds so idyllic, and to have your whole family with you while you say goodbye to Gwen -- how special that will be. And with a new baby growing, even more beautiful. I'm so happy for you. My family has a cottage in Maine where we all get together every summer, so I know how fun those gatherings can be.

Beth - Your vacation sounds like a blast too! Like Thelma and Louise or something! I love the picture of you and your best friend being the hip old ladies on the block, rocking out and tossing back the Coronas.

How are the rest of our preggos? Lilli, Girlie, Amber? Mysteeq, how are you feeling today? It's so hot here in LA, and in the afternoons the sun just pours into my office. I just sit here and sweat. It's horrible! And my boss is driving me crazy. Oh, did everyone see The Devil Wears Prada???? "That's all." She's so much like my boss, in some ways -- my boss never says hello or goodbye when she comes and goes. And she walks right past my office to get to hers, so it comes off a just flat-out rudeness. Oh well. It's a paycheck!

Have a good day everyone!

[Gwensmom]

I just had to get online and tell you what I just did! OMIGOSH. Let me just say that watermelon, truely is mostly WATER! I bought a big ripe juicy one tonight since we are planning a bbq with neighbors this weekend......well, I decided (and why I did I have NO freaking idea) to keep it on top of the fridge. Well....about 15 minutes ago I go to get some milk out of the fridge and off rolls the watermelon, and SPLAT it goes onto my newly mopped floor!!! :eek: :eek: I got sprayed by the juice/seeds (why didn't I buy seedless) and my cabinets will never be the same. My dog was in hog heaven and helped with the clean up.....but man, what a mess and a waste. I must admit I did sample a few bites and it was a sweet melon!! :) So, moral of the story.....don't store a round, big fat juicy watermelon that weighs 13.38 lbs (checked my grocery receipt for that fact) on the top of your fridge.

Off to shower off this sticky juice. Hope you all are having a more relaxing evening........almost Friday!

Beck

[Gwensmom]

Jen thanks for your nice thoughts about our plans for honoring Gwen. I look forward to coming back after the trip and telling you guys all about it. It means so much that I have a place I can come and share about my daughter...there are a lot of people in my life that it just makes too uncomfortable. So thanks. Okay, now I really am going to go freshen up! :)

[Gwensmom]

Good morning ladies. Happy Friday. I am already sweating and it is 6:30 here. Gonna be 105 in Eugene today. Oh my. Got the sprinkler on so my plants don't shrivel up and die. Think I may go run through it in my pj's.....that would really get my neighbors talking in my sleepy cul-de-sac! :) I am just so darn warm already. Blah. Okay, enough complaints. I got on here early as I have to know if Christina (moderator) got her BFP this am. She hasn't posted yet.......Mickey should be back soon and will get her results. Can't wait for the good news! I took another HPT this morning to ease my mind as I really have zero symptoms. Only thing I have is no AF and postive HPT's. I have been praying for an easy enjoyable pregnancy free from sickness and sore bbs......I guess I should believe that someone is listening!! :) I'll start praying for barrels of money next! Hope you all are off to a good start with your day. Amber wish you would check in soon...

beck

[MrsBritney]

Hey ladies.
only have a minute.
I just wanted to say hi...
Today was "burrito friday".. so we have yummy breakfast burritos brought in from the deli across the street!
Mine had fried egg, cheese, potatos, crispy bacon and fresh salsa... mmmmm!!!
That is all I will be having till lunch/dinner and that will be a nice fresh salad. :) yummy!
Anyhow.. I have to get... I have work to get done and I am leaving work at 8:30 this morning!
Oh yea..
Gwensmom - oh PLEASE!! hot in EUGENE!!! not a CHANCE!
NOw... here.. it was 91 when I woke up! :)
My mom stayed home today (she is in albany) and she is excited to have the warm day.. :)
Just make sure you have a fan on you at all timeS!
Amber - you are starting to make me nervous.. POST ALREADY.

beth

[AmberinGSO]

Hey girls! Sorry I haven’t posted in a few days. This new job is taking up all of my time. It has been a long time since I have worked a 40 hour a week job. I usually am just home alone all day with plenty of time to spare. Now I’m working 40+ hours a week and am really tired when I get home. I keep meaning to post, but then I’m so tired I just check in on you guys and go straight to bed. I really like the new job. The people are really nice. Other new things with me, I’m about 15 weeks now and a week from today I will be going to visit my Aunt in Alabama and she works in a hospital and her friend does ultrasounds for a living and so we are going to go and get an ultrasound next weekend and try and find out what the baby is. Do you guys think 16 weeks is too early to determine sex? Also, I am absolutely ashamed of how big I am. My stomach is HUGE and hard and round. People ask me how far along I am and then I see the shock cross their faces. Two people have said “are you having twins?” and another asked if it was possible my dates were wrong, which personally I found rude. I have also gotten a lot of comments like “wow, you are big” from some of my mom’s friends who haven’t seen me in a while. I’m kind of embarrassed now and when people ask how far along I am I really feel like lying sometimes.

Jennifer- Did AF show yet? I hope so! If not I’m sure she will be on her way soon. Sorry about the rude boss. That sucks, but it is a paycheck! Will you be doing IUI again when AF comes?

Mysteeq- Sorry about the work, but I totally understand. I hated being in situations where I knew there was a possibility I would be faced with questions about the baby that I had lost. I spent a lot of time in my home alone in the months after my loss. I hope you feel stronger soon. I know that your BFP is going to be soon and then you will feel a lot better. Until then, do what you have to do even if that means not working or finding a different job! I will pray for you!

Becky- Your trip sounds wonderful and I think that is such a great way to honor your daughter’s memory. I hope you have a relaxing weekend. That sucks about the watermelon! I would’ve cried my eyes out because I’m an emotional wreck lately. I know what you are saying about the heat. The humidity here kills me! Though I’m glad it’s not as hot as where Beth is! How are you feeling? I really didn’t have many symptoms very early on either. You may be one of the lucky ones that doesn’t get sick. I just know this is going to be a wonderful pregnancy for you. You are so calm and you really deserve this.

Beth- Sorry to scare you, but thanks for being concerned about me! The breakfast burrito sounds delicious. Especially the fresh salsa thing. Mmm… The baby is doing fine. I still have the Doppler. So, I listen to the h/b every few days. I don’t mean to upset you, but are you having another long cycle again? If so bummer, but I know your doctor is going to get this all figured out for you and you will be pregnant in no time. Also, you will be in shape and ready for it because you are taking such good care of yourself! When is your hsg again? When does DH do the S/A? How is your job doing? Did you find anything else that you want to apply for?

As for my heart, it hasn’t been beating irregularly AS MUCH as that night. Today it hasn’t done it at all actually. I read online (Im can’t remember if I said this or not) that pregnancy can magnify a heart murmur. I will still ask the doctor at my appt. on the third. Thanks for being concerned though ladies! Anyway, I will try to check in more. I’m just having trouble adjusting to this new schedule! Anyone wanna take a guess at what the baby is? I actually have no feelings one way or the other at this point!
Hugs to you all!

Mickey- Can’t wait to hear your results!

[MrsBritney]

Oh amber! I am SO glad that you wrote.. I was totally starting to get worried.. I suppose you aren't the only one worried about yourself during your pregnancy!!
I totally forgot that you were starting your job!! I am glad you like it.. I am sorry you are so tired tho.. :(
oh yea, and dont worry about upsetting me!! :) I am having another long cycle.. but I started my provera and I should be bleeding in the next 10 days... and then onty my HSG..
But I am not doing so well today.. I have a F*cking YEAST INFECTION!!!
It is soooo horrible.. and I can barely stand it.. I thought that I was just "raw" from all of the sex I have been having lately.. and DH and I have been trying a few "new" things.. and I have a feeling that some of those new things brought on my yeast infection.. I thought that I was just "raw" after all of my sex.. but it just got worse and worse and I just itch constantly.. so I bought some monistat last night and I am feeling a bit better today.. but after tonite, I should be feeling a LOT better.. I got the 3 day treatment one..
UGH.. I haven't had one of these in about 10 years!! THEY SUCK.. and I am SO sorry for anyone who has one!!
Anyhow.. I am drinking some coronas.. and eating some TACOS.. YEA YEA!! Ho'made chicken tacos.. if any of you are ever around the phoenix area.. let me know and I will make a batch and have you over for dinner!
ok.. off to tend to my itching vagina.. (sorry if all of that was TMI.. but I HAD to vent to SOMEONE!!!!!)

Love you all!!

Beth

DAY 2 of PROVERA!!! COME ON AF COME ON!!

[Gwensmom]

Hope you all are enjoying your weekend. Amber, I am sure you are enjoying some rest....I remember how draining going back to work 40 hour weeks was when pregnant. I am sure once you get into the routine more and figure out what your body needs, you will start to feel like your old self again. Good to hear you are enjoying the job! Liking the people you work with is huge! My last job I totally didn't connect with anyone really, and it made me dread going to work every day. Its not that I think you have to have your bestfriend working with you......but hey, at least some people you can gab with! :) You are already 15 weeks! Man, I hope my time goes by as quickly as yours has, for me at least :) I so hope your little one cooperates and lets you see HER lack of parts! That is my guess at least, little GIRL. I am totally refering to my little bean as a she too, so it may be that I have girls on the mind....can't wait to find out!!

Beth I feel for you dear!! Yeast infections have to be ONE OF THE WORST!! I had one last month and I just wanted to die. I used to get them a lot about 2.5 years ago (I was on BC then...not sure if that is what caused them?) Anyhow, one time I waited so long before going to my doctor and by the time I got in she said I had the worst one she had ever seen. It was so high up there that it wasn't causing me itching, we just had a lot of pain during bding. That is actually why I went to see my OB initially, I thought I had some sort of problem up there! Now I know the signs way earlier and the OTC stuff works great. I hope you are feeling RELIEF now. Good to hear you won't let anything get in the way of your tacos and coronas! Once your are feeling better, hope you and DH can keep up the "new" stuff you all are doing!! :D

Girlie, how are you? You haven't been around much lately......check in soon!

Mickey, tomorrow is your big day right? Please let us know your good news asap. I hope you have had a really nice time with your family. Can't wait to hear from you.

Jennifer I have totally been wanting to see "the devil wears prada" but DH won't go. Have to find a girlfriend to see it with me, or heck, I can go with myself! Sorry your boss is such a pain! That just stinks, but you are right...the paycheck is always a good thing. My last job I actually worked in the same office (it was a large office) with my boss and after about a week I was so completely uncomfortable. She NEVER talked to me, and it was dead silent in there all day except for when the phone would ring. I am a talker, not to the extent that I don't get work done, but hey...I like to actualy feel like the person I am working with is human. Anyhow, after that first week she finally said that she was so happy to work with me since I don't need to talk. She said the woman before me wanted to talk too much! I wanted to scream, BUT I DO WANT TO TALK, but I didn't. I spent another 6 months there and then ended up quitting. It was awkward and strange the whole time! I get the shivers just thinking of the place :)

Myseeq, how are you feeling this weekend? Any news from the applications you turned in? I hope you find something that suits you and your needs! Take as long as you need. Blessings to you.

Better go turn off the sprinkler and get this day going. Have a great day ladies.

Beck

[AmberinGSO]

Beth! Oh my gosh! So sorry about the yeast infection. I've gotten them a few times. It seems like antibiotics give them to me and everytime I have gotten them (this may be too graphic) I have just wanted to take like..a hair brush to myself and scratch the hell out of it. Ok...maybe that was too much, but man do they itch! I hope the medicine clears it up quick. The three day monistat seems to work pretty well. I'm jealous of your tacos and coronas. So, what exactly is an HSG? Sorry I'm stupid. I just have heard about it on this site but never actually had it defined. Will you have that scheduled for after AF leaves? I hope you are having a relaxing weekend!

Becky- I have been enjoying a lot of rest this weekend and unfortunately a lot of eating haha. My pregnancy has been going really fast here lately. I remember the first weeks DRUG on because I was so on edge and nervous. Now it seems to be flying by! I should post a belly picture so you guys can marvel at my size haha. As for my job, the people are great and I agree. It is so important to like the people. I like to talk a little at work. Especially in the lab because a lot of times I get some samples going and then I'm just standing around for an hour or so waiting for them to finish up. It's really laid back though and they go out to eat like twice a week for 2 hours sometimes!! Also, they order food in almost everyday! I'm thinking pink too by the way for me and for you. Hopefully we both get what we want. I will love a little boy too of course! What does your DH want? Mine wants of course a boy. Do all men want boys or what? Are you still planning on waiting for 12 weeks for an appt. I was lurking on your mommies thread and saw you thought you might cave a little earlier. I try to keep up with my mommies thread, but I haven't quite bonded with anyone over there like on this thread.

I have really wanted to see the devil wears prada too! Has anyone seen it? If so, is it any good? I wanted to read the book first, but I don't know if I'll get to it.
Mickey- Check in whenever you can! I'm on edge waiting for your results!!

I guess I better get dressed! I'm gonna go waste some money in Target. I swear I go in there for one thing and come out with 200$ worth of crap everytime!

[MrsBritney]

Hey there ladies!!
Thanks for the good thoughts my way.. this yeast infection is just HELL on earth... I wish I would have realized what it was sooner!!
I have to make a confession...I took a towel this morning and itched the HELL out of myself.. it felt SO good it was almost orgasmic! I know that is WAY TMI.. but omg, I just wanted to lay down and scratch all day long!!
Becky - I can't believe you waited THAT LONG to go to the doc!!!! I would have died from the itchiness!! I wont have sex with DH.. especially because there is a chance that I could get it again.. so I told him 3 days MINIMUM!! Hahaha... the medecine seems to be working.. I just hate havin to shove it up there and run to bed so that it doesn't leak out! but at least they have the topical cream that goes with it, that makes it a bit easier to deal with!
Sitting in church with an itchy crotch does not make me want to praise the Lord.. but I did it anyhow! I hope DH and I can continue this new "stuff" also.. it was fun!! And NOTHING gets in the way of tacos and coronas.. I guess that is the ONE thing I am glad about for not being pregnant!! I can still have my coronas!! OH YEA!

Amber - ok.. you be jealous of the Tacos and coronas.. and I will be jealous that you will be a real mommy before me.. I think that makes us even!! :) hee hee.. because AFTEr you are pregnant.. YOU will be having the tacos and coronas.. and I will be pregnant! hee hee.. so we can reverse roles!
OK.. onto the HSG - And HSG is a Histerosalpinogram (I think I spelled that right) basically they open you up with a speculum just like in a regular exam.. then they shove a catheter up your cervix.. then they take this thick Dye and they pretty much blow out your tubes.. they dye goes up into your uterus.. expands and flows out your tubes.. all the while they are taking xrays of your uterine area to make sure that there are not tumors, (fibroid or otherwise) and no tubal blockages.
My doc said that since I have already been pregnant I most likely dont have any problems in that area.. but this is just to make sure.. it is a test that they do to see where the next treatment should start.. if they DO find a blockage.. they attempt to "blow out" the blockage with a higher pressured dose of the dye.. and they also have meds that they can put in there too..
So that is the gist of an HSG.. :) if you want to know anything else, let me know.. I am all about sharing info!!Amber I am so convinced that you are having a GIRL!!! I dont know why.. I still think that lilliput is having a boy.. butI think you are having a girl.. I can't WAIT to find out! You let us know AS SOON AS YOU KNOW!!!!

OK ladies.. I have to go cook up some medium RARE steaks (another food my OB told me NOT to eat while I was prego) and some baked potatoes!!
I am also HAVING A CORONA!!! WOO HOOOOOO!!!

Have a great last day of the weekend.. and LOVE TO YOU ALL

DAY 3 OF PROVERA!! COME ON AF COME ON!!!!

[purplerain]

Just took an HPT to be prepared for tomorrow...BFN:mad: I am so depressed I can't even stand it!!!

Mickey

[MrsBritney]

Oh mickey... I am so sorry...
Lets just pray that it is too early! I have faith for you!!
FMU is always the best anyhow...
Keep your chin up... it will happen!!

HUGS
beth

[sweetbabydreams]

Hi Everyone -

Mickey, we haven't chatted, but I'm so sorry about your hpt, I know that awful feeling all too well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the beta tomorrow tells a different story -- it's certainly happened many times!

Beth, such a bummer about the yeast infection, but at least you have all that fun stuff to look forward to once you get off the injured list! And I like how you're enjoying all the things that will be off-limits sooner than you think!

Amber, it's so good to hear from you, no wonder you couldn't post -- new jobs take a lot of energy. It's good that you're enjoying the people there, what a huge difference that makes. And I can highly recommend Devil Wears Prada. Meryl Streep is amazing in it. And if you've ever had a crazy boss ... well, it's even more fun to watch! BTW, I totally think you're having a girl too.

Becky, your vacation must be coming up soon, right? It's crazy hot here in LA as well, sometimes when I'm driving around my car thermometer reads 109, 110, it's nuts. And so muggy. This weekend I went down to San Diego because the beaches are so much nicer, and my friends and I went boogie-boarding, it was such a blast. I could have stayed in the ocean all day -- heck, I could have slept in that water! It felt so good.

Girlie, where the heck are you?

Mysteeq, any news? AF still taking her time?

As for me, well, I did my first shot today. Yep, I'm at it again. After all that waiting, now it seems almost too sudden. Part of me is so scared of starting again, all that anxiety, all the appointments, waiting for the phone call at the end. And what if it works, but the same thing happens again ... I know I don't need to explain all my fears to you guys. One thing is that I'm not going to post anywhere else about this cycle. I think it's bad for me to be comparing dosages, and follicles, and all that stuff. I'll just get more and more anxious! So I'm going to keep the whole thing on the down-low, and just hang out here on this thread. Maybe not talk about it too much, just when I feel like I have to for sanity's sake. I'm very glad you all are here.
Thanks for being such a haven.

Hugs to all,

Jennifer

[girliegirl]

Jennifer, Wow I can't believe its time for you already! The time has went fast! When will you actually have the iui? I can understand your nervousness, but one thing about my m/c is now I actually get less worked up because I figure there is nothing I can do to control it. whatever is going to happen will happen. With my last pg I did everything perfect and still had a m/c. so this time I am a little more laid back and not getting too uptight and obsessive. I think you are in a great place emotionally right now to get started again. How is the devil/boss??!!

Becky sounds like you are doing good. I am o.k. really tired, exhausted and not alot of ambition or energy to type lately! Are you still feeling good? You may be one of those lucky ones who don't ever get sick.

Mickey, so sorry about your bfn. I hope you get a different answer at the Dr. I am thinking of you hoping you still get that bfp this month. It just seems like with iui its such a sure thing, I can only imagine what a let down a bfn would be after all that work. Let us know what the dr says.